I’m Alive, But I’m Alone

Was I so hard to understand

Was I so hard to be a friend to

Maybe I just hate you cause you never came after me

You never came after me

 

I still want you every night

Your smile’s still so bright

But now even you can’t make it right

I’m alive, but I’m alone,

What kind of life is that, after all

 

Was I so easy to make a mess of

Was I so easy to replace

Maybe I just hate you cause never chased me back

You never chased me back

 

I still want you every night

Your smile’s still so bright

But now even you can’t make it right,

I’m alive, but I’m alone

What kind of life is that, after all

 

You told me once, this was permanent

I should’ve known than to believe in it

Cause nothing ever lasts

Cause nothing ever lasts

 

I still want you every night

Your smile’s still so bright

But now even you can’t make it right,

I’m alive, but I’m alone

What kind of life is that, after all

What kind of life, what kind of life,

After all, after all, after everything

I’m alive, but I’m alone

What kind of life is that, after all

Babydoll

C’mon babydoll

Show me who you are

Show me what you want

When the lights go off

When you get off

C’mon babydoll

Show ‘em what you got now

Show ‘em what you’re not

When the lights go off

When you get off

C’mon babydoll

 

Halo, hey love, swing around your finger

Ain’t nothing’s gonna make it to your heart

Halo, hey love, like it when it’s harder,

So much better when they’re naked, and you’re on fire

 

C’mon babydoll

Show me who you are

Show me what you want

When the lights go off

When you get off

C’mon babydoll

Show ‘em what you got now

Show ‘em what you’re not

When the lights go off

When you get off

C’mon babydoll

 

Halo, hey love,

Halo, hey love,

Ain’t nothing gonna make it to your heart,

So much better when you’re naked, cause you know they’re on fire

 

C’mon babydoll

Show me who you are

Show me what you want

When the lights go off

When you get off

C’mon babydoll

Show ‘em what you got now

Show ‘em what you’re not

When the lights go off

When you get off

C’mon babydoll

Nothing

I’ve been laying in the arms of a man

Who just can’t stand me

And I can’t blame him

Cause I just don’t like myself

But hold me, just a little bit closer now

 

Drown out the sounds, the voices in my head

Scream louder at me than they can

Kiss me, til I don’t know my name

I don’t hate everything cause I feel absolutely nothing for you

 

I’ve been sleeping in the bed of a man

With no head to understand me

And I can’t blame him

Cause I can’t find all the pieces

But hold me, just a little bit closer now

 

Drown out the sounds, the voices in my head

Scream louder at me than they can

Kiss me, til I don’t know my name

I don’t hate everything cause I feel absolutely nothing for you

 

I’ve got absolutely nothing for you

But I don’t hate everything if I feel absolutely nothing for you

I’ve been laying in the arms of a man

Who just can’t stand me

But I can’t blame him

I don’t blame you

 

Drown out the sounds, the voices in my head

Scream louder at me than they can

Kiss me, til I don’t know my name

I don’t hate everything cause I feel absolutely nothing for you

Here

When I saw myself in ten years

I was far away from here

With a different face

Is a different life

With you still with me

By my side

 

But now is here

Now is here

Now is here

But you are not

 

When I see myself in five years

I am far away from here

This dark place,

Has a different light

Much darker, without you still by my side

 

But now is here

Now is here

Now is here

But you are not

 

But you are not

You are not

I’m still here, I’m still here

But you are not

 

When I saw myself in ten years

I was far away from here

With you still with me

But you’re not with me

 

Now is here

Now is here

Now is here

Now is here

Now is here

But you are not

Canary

It’s a rock and a place

Of hating your company or being alone

But that tiny cage you’re sitting in all day

Is killing you faster than you’d die on your own

 

Oh, canary

You’ve forgotten how to fly

Oh, canary

You’ve forgotten how to fight

Sing, sing til the moon is high

Sing, sing til you don’t remember why

Oh, canary

You’ve forgotten how to fly

Oh, canary

You’ve forgotten how to fight

 

Clipped your wings, now you can’t get away

But use your teeth, you should still have

Don’t let anyone tell you where your ceiling starts

You’ve been believing every word they said

 

Oh, canary

You’ve forgotten how to fly

Oh, canary

You’ve forgotten how to fight

Sing, sing til the moon is high

Sing, sing til you don’t remember why

Oh, canary

You’ve forgotten how to fly

Oh, canary

You’ve forgotten how to fight

Stop

I’m ready and I’m able

To force myself under your table

I’ll pretend I never knew you

If it would make you feel like I never tried to improve you

 

You tell me just forget it

But I won’t soon leave it at that

 

I only tied you up so you’d stop moving

I only tied you down so you’d stop squirming

I never thought you should be left

To make this on your own, this mess,

I just wanted to show you how beautiful

Life could be, when you stop dreaming

 

I’m willing to just walk by

Even when I want to stop and say hi

Ask you how you are right then

I wonder if you’d lie

 

You tell me just forget it

But I won’t leave it to chance

 

I only tied you up so you’d stop moving

I only tied you down so you’d stop squirming

I never thought you should be left

To make this on your own, this mess,

I just wanted to show you how beautiful

Life could be, when you stop dreaming

 

Would it make you feel better

To know that I’d stop breathing

Just to make you feel better,

Just to make you stop dreaming

Dear Past Lover

Dear past lover

Dear past friend

I know it’s too late,

To begin again

I’m sorry I

Am letting go

But you have to know

You never knew me right

 

We all make mistakes

We all fall down

I never was

Quite right with you around

And it’s okay

It’s alright

You never told me goodbye

You never told me why

I lost all that sleep

And I still don’t know

 

Dear past lover

Dear past friend

I know it’s too late

To begin again

But if you wanted

I’d make a new end

 

It’s early morning

The sun is high

I’m not thinking of you

Just yet, but I’m counting the minutes left, I

Dreamt of you last night,

But you turned away there, too

I guess it’s my own damn fault

For not seeing what I had when I had you

 

Dear past lover,

Dear past friend

I know it’s too late

To begin again

But if you hold me,

Just let me pretend

That you wrote me letters

That you never sent

 

Dear past lover,

Dear past friend

I know it’s too late,

To begin again

I’m sorry I

Am letting go

But you had to know

I never did you right, goodnight

Something I Never Had

You want it

You got it

It’s dry and forgotten

It’s androgyny

In it’s sickest forms

It’s you

 

You need it

You crave it

In your boney fingers

It’s androgyny

In it’s sickest forms

It’s you

 

Your sunrise, burns my eyes

You’re too awake to say goodnight,

I’ll stay up all night, and be with you

 

In between, the good and bad

You’re everything I never had

In between, the blue and red

The black and white,

Live and dead,

I found something I never had,

I never had a choice.

 

You saw it

You felt it

Pierce the surface

It’s androgyny

In it’s purest forms

It’s you

 

Your sunrise, burns my eyes

You’re too awake to say goodnight,

I’ll stay up all night, and be with you

 

In between, the good and bad

You’re everything I never had

In between, the blue and red

The black and white,

Live and dead,

I found something I never had,

I never had a choice.

 

The twilight comes

I’m dreaming of

You in all your states

Gas or liquid

Solid, touching'

What would be my face

 

Your sunrise, burns my eyes

You’re too awake to say goodnight,

I’ll stay up all night, and be with you

 

In between, the good and bad

You’re everything I never had

In between, the blue and red

The black and white,

Live and dead,

I found something I never had,

I never had a choice.

Five hours behind

This ocean in between us

Is like a table lit with candles

We can let it warm us up to eachother

Or we can let it burn us apart

I keep melting at your mouth

Imagining you speaking in my ear

I know it’s hard to listen to me

I know it’s hard to here from way out there

 

I’m five hours behind you

Ten hours away

But that’s less than a day

Less than a day away

I’m five hours behind you

Ten hours away

But I can love you twice as much

Every single day

Little Knives

How much you wanna bet

That my little knives

Aren’t sharp enough to pierce

My little neck

And how much you wanna ask

I have nothing to give

But the last few seconds

Before I win this bet

 

Come on, now prove that I’m a one eyed

Bleeding fool of a war I couldn’t win

Com on, now prove I’m a stupid girl

Using words I don’t really know the meaning of

Come on, now tell me you can scare me good,

Come on, now tell me just what I should,

 

Do with these little knives

You gave me, one at a time,

You gave me, these little knives

Carving out my heart in the sleepless nights

You gave me, you gave me

Oh these little knives, little

 

How much you wanna bet

That these little words

Aren’t sharp enough to pierce

My little head

How much you wanna ask

How much you wanna ask

I got less than nothing to give

 

Come on, now prove that I’m a one eyed

Bleeding fool of a war I couldn’t win

Com on, now prove I’m a stupid girl

Using words I don’t really know the meaning of

Come on, now tell me you can scare me good,

Come on, now tell me just what I should,

 

Do with these little knives

You gave me, one at a time,

You gave me, these little knives

Carving out my heart in the sleepless nights

You gave me, you gave me

Oh these little knives, little

 

You think you do nothing

I don’t hear nothing

I don’t see nothing you do

When I close my eyes

I can’t close my ears

I can pretend that these little knives don’t make me bleed

But don’t you, don’t you dare ask me to clean something I don’t see

 

Come on, now prove that I’m a one eyed

Bleeding fool of a war I couldn’t win

Com on, now prove I’m a stupid girl

Using words I don’t really know the meaning of

Come on, now tell me you can scare me good,

Come on, now tell me just what I should,

 

Do with these little knives

You gave me, one at a time,

You gave me, these little knives

Carving out my heart in the sleepless nights

You gave me, you gave me

Oh these little knives, little knives

Well, It Can’t End Well.

Break me down

I beg of you now

It’s for the best

Give it a rest

Dear, don’t you see

How bad it is,

But we’re obsessed

 

This love thing

This torturous love thing

Fixated, frustrated,

This whole love thing,

Well, it can’t end well.

I’ve fallen out from the clouds with people

And I hit the pavement harder every time

I don’t know why its such a vicious cycle

They say they love you, you agree but they lied

 

So here you come with your mission statement

You’re gonna make me love myself first

Excuse me looking at the size of your teeth

Are they holding back the bite trying to burst, oh

Mrs. Yes

I hate myself those times

When I get small

Everybody’s shouting and i just pretend

That I can’t hear at all

But in doing so I cut my tongue in two

My doublespeak, my doublespeak

Don’t know how to speak the truth

 

Smothering me, I catch my breath

Before it’s too late, I’m on the edge

I’m misses yes, can’t tell you no

Oh but what a bitch, misses yes don’t show

I’m misses yes, can’t tell you no

Oh but what a bitch, misses yes don’t show

Written For Me

Every child born by peace,

Will see your face in the fall from grace,

But that’s exactly how you got where you are,

Cause you do what you did and it got you too far.

 

When you said hey come on, radio man,

Play me something written for me,

When you screamed at the sparks,

A fire burned so free.

And then they drowned in the holes you made in the sound

It fades, it fades, it fades,

But come on radio man, play something written for me.

 

You know they follow your steps,

Yeah right off the edge,

And they fall to the bottom, you see how you got em,

To do what you did, but you it got you so far,

 

When you said hey come on, radio man,

Play me something written for me,

When you screamed at the sparks,

A fire burned so free.

And then they drowned in the holes you made in the sound

It fades, it fades, it fades,

But come on radio man, play something written for me.

Thinking Again

I don’t think I’ve ever met anyone like you

I think I’d remember a smile like yours, if I saw it fade

Every move I make is still a form of indecision

Cause I pace on what to do about you

 

I don’t think I wanna meet anyone else like you

I want you a clear, crisp memory to watch burn in my fire

 

I thought you were different

I thought we had the same kind of sanity

I thought we were everything

That we would ever need

I thought, I thought, I thought

You were different and we were the same

I thought, I thought, I thought

 

I don’t think I’ve ever met a more solid wall

I think I’d remember falling that hard before,

And it was so damn hard to get back up again, from you

Every move I make is still a form of indecision

Cause I pace on what to do about you

 

I don’t think I wanna meet anyone else like you

I want you a clear, crisp memory to watch burn in my fire

 

I thought you were different

I thought we had the same kind of sanity

I thought we were everything

That we would ever need

I thought, I thought, I thought

You were different and we were the same

I thought, I thought, I thought

 

And it really does kill to be wrong all the time

Cause I’ve got good ideas with no burn behind them

And it really does kill to be wrong all the time

Cause I’ve got good ideas with no burn behind them

And it really does kill to be wrong all the time

Cause I’ve got good ideas with no burn behind them

 

I thought you were different

I thought we had the same kind of sanity

I thought we were everything

That we would ever need

I thought, I thought, I thought

You were different and we were the same

I thought, I thought, I thought

Some Of Us Don’t Ever Sleep

I’m sure, you’ve had a really rough night

I’m sure, it’s been a pretty tough life

For someone who never even had, never even had

To make up their own mind.

 

I’m sure, you’ve had a few struggles,

I’m sure, you’ve had a few stumbles,

But what kind of man, what kind of man,

Can’t see how good he has it til it’s gone

 

Say your prayers before you go to sleep,

That you wake up when the morning comes,

Some of us don’t ever sleep a wink,

Cause we’re too busy searching for the sun

We’re too busy searching for the sun.

 

I’m sure, you’re hands aren’t always clean

I’m sure, you’ve probably skinned your knee

You know the hard times, the hard times

Are tough to roll.

 

But what kind of man, what kind of man,

Can’t see how good he has it til it’s gone

 

Say your prayers before you go to sleep,

That you wake up when the morning comes,

Some of us don’t ever sleep a wink,

Cause we’re too busy searching for the sun

We’re too busy searching for the sun.

Diction

Am I supposed to be impressed

With your ten letter words and fancy dress

Did you really think you could win me over then?

I’m protesting diction cause you’re just a dick

And there’s no better way to say that.

C’mon and call me immature cause I’m just waiting for it

My middle finger’s been saluting you since the day you made it

Everything you swore you would forward,

You dropped cause it wouldn’t forward you.

 

I’m justified, I’m calling you out

But I won’t call you by your old name

You’re barely recog, barely recognizable.

I can replace it with anything,

Cause I can’t tell you apart, I can’t tell you apart

From the gray faceless, nameless static productions

We laughed about, we laughed about,

When you still had a face to call your own.

Shackles

When the chance of feeling good,

Outweighs the scared of feeling bad

You know you’re in a dark place

Don’t let the water reach your head

 

And it’s only a matter of time

Oh, it’s only a matter of time

 

And that hanging man,

He’s got his shackles on ya,

And you know he’s the counting the days

You’re just counting the ways you could escape

But you’re just too tired to run

Oh you’re just too tired to run,

So lay and rot,

I hope you’ve picked your plot

Cause your time is coming, son

Flight

My hands in knots when you look at me

Cause I wanna touch what I only see

And you keep staring right through

These walls that my mind, put up to save your time

 

And I’m falling, but it feels more like flight

I go towards the light, cause I don’t even feel like I’m losing

I don’t even feel like I’m losing myself with you

And I’m falling, but it feels more like flight

 

My heart’s getting heavy when you hold it for me

Cause I’m still a little scared to give it up easily

And you don’t even coax me

 

And I’m falling, but it feels more like flight

I go towards the light, cause I don’t even feel like I’m losing

I don’t even feel like I’m losing myself with you

And I’m falling, but it feels more like flight

 

In the limbo of your arms,

The fragile of silence

A tiny wind blowing me closer to you

 

And I’m falling, but it feels more like flight

I go towards the light, cause I don’t even feel like I’m losing

I don’t even feel like I’m losing myself with you

And I’m falling, but it feels more like flight

 

My hands in knots when you look at me

Cause I wanna touch what I only see

In the limbo of your arms

A tiny wind blowing me closer to you

 

And I’m falling, but it feels more like flight

I go towards the light, cause I don’t even feel like I’m losing

I don’t even feel like I’m losing myself with you

And I’m falling, but it feels more like flight

My Sunglasses On In Bed

When I wear my sunglasses in bed,

Will you tell me what all your stupid friends said

And how if I changed just this one last thing,

Then I’d be perfect,

If you said that,

I’m sorry, can’t hear you,

With my sunglasses on, in bed.

Scare the Vultures

I never gave up on

Trying to be somebody else

I never gave up on

Feeling the way that I felt, with someone who’s not like you

 

I’ll remember that night

For the rest of my life

You told me to, cut the crap

Did I think you were blind

I was falling away and

You were willing to catch me

But how can I put

Myself in your hands

 

I’m sorry

For being so slow with these things

I need you

Much more than I would ever admit

I’m sorry

For being slow with these things

I needed you, I need you

 

I’ll never give up on

Trying to fix myself

I’ll never give up on

Finding someone who kisses my scars like you did

 

I’ll remember that night

For the rest of my life

You told me to, cut the crap

Did I think you were blind

I was falling away and

You were willing to catch me

But how can I put

Myself in your hands

 

I’m sorry

For being so slow with these things

I need you

Much more than I would ever admit

I’m sorry

For being slow with these things

I needed you, I need you

 

You could always see

What they were doing to me

You could always scare the vultures,

You could always scare the vultures,

You could always stop the rain

 

I’ll remember that night

For the rest of my life

You told me to, cut the crap

Did I think you were blind

I was falling away and

You were willing to catch me

But how can I put

Myself in your hands

 

I’m sorry

For being so slow with these things

I need you

Much more than I would ever admit

I’m sorry

For being slow with these things

I needed you, I need you

Don’t Look Away, Now

If I swear you’re exactly what I need

Would you stay, sleep a while with me

The fire’s burning slowly

But you know we could take the town, tonight

 

Don’t look away now

There’s nothing for you out there

This is what you’ve got now

Make it real before it fades away

You know how love can be, oh, oh, oh

 

If I run, it was never your fault

You don’t scare me but you do what you can

I want this and I want you

But you see, I keep wanting what’s bad for me

 

Don’t look away now

There’s nothing for you out there

This is what you’ve got now

Make it real before it fades away

You know how love can be, oh, oh, oh

 

Oh oh, oh

Oh oh, oh

 

Don’t look away now

There’s nothing for you out there

This is what you’ve got now

Make it real before it fades away

You know how love can be, oh, oh, oh

Don’t look away now

Don’t look away now

There’s nothing for you

Nothing for you,

Nothing for you out there,

My dear, there’s nothing for you out there

Don’t look away now

Smaller

Planet Earth, my lonely queen,

Everyone thinks you’re the whole world

As they’re falling off the edge,

As they’re falling off the edge

 

Sacred Sun, the only one

Your loneliness has just begun,

Say your prayers when you go to sleep,

Say your prayers when you go to sleep

 

I’m so much smaller than the sky

And even it won’t answer why

All my problems seem so big

Caught inside nets in my head

I’m so much smaller, I’m so much smaller than the sky

 

Jaws of life, how taste’s my blood?

Your one device of life and death

I run but I can’t escape the stars

I run but I can’t escape the stars

 

I’m so much smaller than the sky

And even it won’t answer why

All my problems seem so big

Caught inside nets in my head

I’m so much smaller, I’m so much smaller than the sky

 

I look up when I’m lost

I look up when I’m found

Planet Earth, my lonely queen,

Sacred Sun, the only one

Jaws of life, don’t let me bleed

My abstract eyes still haven’t seen

 

I’m so much smaller than the sky

And even it won’t answer why

All my problems seem so big

Caught inside nets in my head

I’m so much smaller, I’m so much smaller than the sky

Lose My Way

Greetings from another world,

You see I’ve been kissing stars.

Just big spaces of lit up hot air,

You see I’ve been kissing stars.

 

Got my head up in space

And I’m losing all my grace

And in the face of something great

I lose my way, I lose my way

 

Greetings from another girl,

You see I’ve been playing parts.

Just tiny bits of scripted life,

You see I’ve been playing parts.

 

Got my head filled up with ink

And I’m lost my will to think

And in the face of something great

I lose my way, I lose my way

 

And your Hollywood sign, finally in my sights

I heard you sing all day, about the way it shined

 

Got my head up in space

And I’m losing all my grace

And in the face of something great

I lose my way, I lose my way

Got my head filled up with ink

And I’m lost my will to think

And in the face of something great

I lose my way, I lose my way

For You

For you

For you, I’d risk it all

I’d walk til my feet bleed

Spend ten years in silence

Touch an open flame

For you, for you

Supergirl

You heard, I’m a supergirl

I’m here to save your world, tonight

You heard I’m a supergirl

And that’s what you can call me

When you say my name tonight

Super, super, super

 

It’s another dead end night

In the dead end part of town

Got your finger on the trigger

Cause the night is winding down

And you’re going home alone

But it’s not for lack of trying

They say you keep your standards high,

How’s this for expert climbing?

 

You heard, I’m a supergirl

I’m here to save your world, tonight

You heard I’m a supergirl

And that’s what you can call me

When you say my name tonight

Super, super, super

 

 

This one’s, got her heart on your sleeve,

But you know you’ll never get her undressed

That one’s, got the making’s of need,

But you know, she won’t be telling her friends you’re the best

So you’re going home alone

But it’s not for lack of trying

You keep your standards high,

How’s this for expert climbing?

 

Flying in, like a wild, wild dream in the night

What about love, he says, and I’m holding him tight

What about now, about tomorrow

But you know we take it one day at a time

When you’re putting your heart on the line

 

You heard, you heard you heard

Super, super, super

You heard, you heard you heard

Super, super, super

You heard, you heard you heard

Super, super, super

Well, Would You?

And now you’re sleeping next to me

But I’m still awake

Thinking bout kissing your eye lids, and

Everything in between

But I can’t help be cold at night

Cause I wonder if this could be right

If I fell behind, would you come back for me?

 

When I start to be a limb that just won’t work

Would you just cut me off, is that all I’m worth?

 

And I wonder if you dream in color,

Or maybe black and white,

Maybe it’s just reruns from another place and time

Maybe you can see the future,

I wonder if it’s bright,

Kissed your eye lids but I didn’t gain no insight,

Cause I wonder if this could be right,

If I fell behind, would you come back for me?

 

When I start to be a limb that just won’t work

Would you just cut me off, is that all I’m worth?

 

When I start to be a limb that just won’t work

Would you just cut me off, is that all I’m worth?

 

When I start to be a limb that just won’t work

Would you just cut me off, is that all I’m worth?

 

When I start to be a limb that just won’t work

Would you just cut me off, is that all I’m worth?

 

If I start to fall behind, would you come back for me?

Picked

You wanna steal a little part of me

You wanna dig yourself a hole in my skin

Make a home of something scary

I won’t tell you how to begin

 

We’ll fit like squares in circles

Jammed into coziness

You’ll smooth out all my edges

And we won’t hold hands, we’ll just touch wrists

 

Keep your chaos over there

Just hang it off your lips

You know I picked you for my poison

I intend to drink all of it, yeah

I intend to drink all of it, yeah

 

But you’re not a switchblade lover,

Something to sharpen my tongue on,

If I wanted just a pretty mess

I’d paint myself in his bloody kiss

And we won’t hold hands,

We won’t hold hands,

We won’t hold hands we’ll touch wrists

 

Keep your chaos over there

Just hang it off your lips

You know I picked you for my poison

I intend to drink all of it, yeah

I intend to drink all of it, yeah

Learning To Like

When I cry to you

Do you think that I

Should get it all together inside

Do you want to tell me

To just go away

Am I something you hate to see when you wake up?

 

Are my problems your problems,

Because you care, or because I made it that way?

 

If you don’t want to be here then leave,

Cause I would rather be alone than beg you to stay,

If you don’t want to be here then go,

I learned to like you here, I guess I’ll learn to like to be alone.

 

When I laugh to you

Do you think that I

Am I just some kind of child

Do you want to tell me

Just to be quiet

Are you laughing with me or at me, now?

 

If you don’t want to be here then leave,

Cause I would rather be alone than beg you to stay,

If you don’t want to be here then go,

I learned to like you here, I guess I’ll learn to like to be alone.

 

I smile cause you smile,

But if you don’t care than I’ll learn to care a little less.

I smile cause you smile,

But I don’t wanna be forced onto your mind when I’m not there

If I’m not there at all,

I’ll be fine

 

If you don’t want to be here then leave,

Cause I would rather be alone than beg you to stay,

If you don’t want to be here then go,

I learned to like you here, I guess I’ll learn to like to be alone.

If

If I was alive tonight, I would tell you everything’s fine

I would hold you til the sunrise, I would tell you everything’s fine

If I was alive tonight, I would show you what you mean

I know I had the chance, But now I’ll never have the chance

If I was alive tonight, I would write your name in stars

Cause it’s forever on my tongue On the inside of my eyelids,

The one song that’s being sung.

If I was alive tonight, I would hold you til the sunrise.

 

If you never knew

I needed you, maybe more than you needed me

I needed you, even more than you need me now

 

If I was alive tonight, we would be lighting all the candles

We would be wishing on the stars, we would be sitting in the moonlight

If I was alive tonight, then you be, too

I know you have the chance, don’t you know have a chance,

If I was alive tonight, I would hold you sunrise.

 

If you never knew

I needed you, maybe more than you needed me

I needed you, even more than you think you need me now

 

Every sunray, every cool breeze,

Every shooting star, I hope you see me

Every goose bump, every tickle,

Every good dream, I hope you see me

 

If you never knew

I needed you, maybe more than you needed me

I needed you, even more than you think you need me now

 

I needed you more, I needed you more

If I was alive tonight,

I would tell you everything’s fine,

I would hold you til the sunrise,

I hope you see me

I hope you see me

I had the chance, now I’ll never have a chance

Swearing

I was thinking of lies

That I would have to tell

You came to mind,

And that’s no lie.

Cause all the times I’ve needed you

I’ve pretended you were there

And if you care don’t swear to it,

I don’t care for those who swear.

Penny

So you say you want a friend

But you don’t know where to find one

Don’t know how to tell time

Clock right on the wall

And aren’t I invisible?

My face, too, just a scenery to you, oh.

A scenery to you, oh.

 

My pants weighed down

With pockets full of pity

But I don’t have any money,

Could you spare a penny, honey?

My pants weighed down

With pockets full of pity,

Seems I’m out of my money,

So you give a belt, honey,

You see, I have no pennies to spare.

 

And you creep into your bed

So your nightmares never find you

Don’t know how to sleep

With the time ticking by

And aren’t I a pillow?

Comfortably numb, under your thumb,

Under your thumb

 

My pants weighed down

With pockets full of pity

But I don’t have any money,

Could you spare a penny, honey?

My pants weighed down

With pockets full of pity,

Seems I’m out of my money,

So you give a belt, honey,

You see, I have no pennies to spare.

 

And if you ever feel inclined to bite your tongue

I invite you to listen to anything around you

The clicking of the pennies that you walk on by

The clicking of the pennies that you walk on by

 

My pants weighed down

With pockets full of pity

But I don’t have any money,

Could you spare a penny, honey?

My pants weighed down

With pockets full of pity,

Seems I’m out of my money,

So you give a belt, honey,

You see, I gave my pennies,

So I have no penny at all.

No I have no pennies at all.

I gave my penny,

I gave my penny,

I gave my penny

And now I have no pennies at all.

Not All There

Maybe I’ll wake up

Beautiful, beautiful

Maybe I won’t wake up

Maybe I dream in

Black and white, black and white

Maybe I don’t get enough sleep at night

 

When you look at me

Is it obvious

That somethings wrong

Is it clear, that I’m not all there

That I’m strange,

When you look at me

Is it obvious? Isn’t it obvious?

 

Maybe I’ll be good

Tomorrow, tomorrow

Maybe tomorrow never comes

Maybe I crawl in

From a window in the basement

I like the feel of pavement on my skin

 

When you look at me

Is it obvious

That somethings wrong

Is it clear, that I’m not all there

That I’m strange,

When you look at me

Is it obvious? Isn’t it obvious?

 

Maybe, I’m just like you in your head

Maybe, you wonder what it feels like being dead

Maybe, I’m the one you want to be inside

Maybe, I’m the one you were before you went and let yourself die

Maybe I’m just like you

Maybe I’m just like you

 

When you look at me

Is it obvious

That somethings wrong

Is it clear, that I’m not all there

That I’m strange,

When you look at me

Is it obvious? Isn’t it obvious?

Storm

D-d-d-dose me up

Am I close enough

To the edge yet

Will you come believe me now

D-d-d-dose me up

I wanna feel your drugs

When they hit me

Like a storm to the veins

Knock Myself Out

Am I supposed to live

With a nice what if

Kiss your cheek and say goodbye

Am I supposed to be satisfied

With the nothing you’ve given me

But all those promises,

Oh, you thought you had me on my knees

 

C’mon fighter, at least let me knock myself out

I’ve got a few punches left, are you still around?

Won’t let this rest, til I’m tired out

Cause you’re not leaving without a fight, this round

 

Am I supposed a give

A fuck what you think

Go ahead though, speak your mind

Am I supposed to take notes

Have another drink,

You’re easier to take down,

When you think you’re bigger

 

C’mon fighter, at least let me knock myself out

I’ve got a few punches left, are you still around?

Won’t let this rest, til I’m tired out

Cause you’re not leaving without a fight, this round

 

Cause I think this is worth the fight,

Am I supposed lay down and die?

 

C’mon fighter, at least let me knock myself out

I’ve got a few punches left, are you still around?

Won’t let this rest, til I’m tired out

Cause you’re not leaving without a fight, this round

 

Am I supposed to live,

With a nice what if?

Am I supposed to live, supposed to live,

With a nice what if?

Kiss your cheek and say goodbye,

I refuse to lay down and die,

Cause I think this is worth the fight,

I think this is worth the fight.

Butterfly Graveyard

Where do the butterflies go when they die

A one winged trip to heaven

I wanna make it

I wanna make it

Don’t wait til it’s too late to try to fly

 

I saw you struggle,

I see you stumble,

Across your own fate,

You cross your own fate

But if you just spread

The wings that you sprout

Maybe you’d fall,

Only one way to find out

 

Where do the butterflies go when they die

A one winged trip to heaven

I wanna make it

I wanna make it

Don’t wait til it’s too late to try to fly

 

Cmon get going

The winds not so strong

But it’ll carry you farther

You’d imagine you could go

But if you just spread

The wings that you sprout

Maybe you’d fall,

Only one way to find out

 

Where do the butterflies go when they die

A one winged trip to heaven

I wanna make it

I wanna make it

Don’t wait til it’s too late to try to fly

 

There are stones for the ones

Who never left the ground

There are stones for the ones

Who flew just enough

But the ones who took off

Unweighed by leaving their discomforts behind

Well they burn with the stars

Cause they dared to fly too high

 

Where do the butterflies go when they die

A one winged trip to heaven

I wanna make it

I wanna make it

Don’t wait til it’s too late to try to fly

Oyster

Now I’m scared to fade away

Cause all my friends are ghosts

I have seen what it does to them

To know they’re not at their worst

Just yet

 

I have buried all my sense

Under self loathing pride

I have buried all my sense

In an oyster deep inside

 

You want to contain this?

You wanna avoid this?

Just one more internal conflict

You won’t survive.

I’m watching from the sidelines

Without one tear in my eye,

Cause you were begging for this all along,

Now it comes along  and you hide,

In an oyster.

 

Now you’re scared to greet the day

Cause you know it could be your last

As just another shadow unfacing

The things you wish were photographs

 

You have buried all you sense

Under self loathing pride

You have buried all your sense

In an oyster deep inside

 

You want to contain this?

You wanna avoid this?

Just one more internal conflict

You won’t survive.

I’m watching from the sidelines

Without one tear in my eye,

Cause you were begging for this all along,

Now it comes along  and you hide,

In an oyster.

 

Let the waves crash your bone-dry face,

Cause the stones have made you broken.

Sigh again, for the sun you know,

Another want left unspoken.

You have buried all your sense…

 

You want to contain this?

You wanna avoid this?

Just one more internal conflict

You won’t survive.

I’m watching from the sidelines

Without one tear in my eye,

Cause you were begging for this all along,

Now it comes along  and you hide,

In an oyster.

Static

I can’t exhale you

I can’t put you out of my system

You’re just so indynamic

You’re trying to chase me but we’re both stuck in traffic

 

You’re staticx2

A clinging fuzz, An annoying buzz

There ain’t no changing here

It’s tragic, You’re static

An outuned hum, A clinging fuzz,

There ain’t no future here,

We’re standing still, we’re static

 

I can’t unsee you

I can’t look away, it’s another bad habit

Just the same car accident,

You tried to chase me but we’re both stuck in traffic

 

You’re staticx2

A clinging fuzz, An annoying buzz

There ain’t no changing here

It’s tragic, You’re static

An outuned hum, A clinging fuzz,

There ain’t no future here,

We’re standing still, we’re static

 

Not a heartbeat, but a still

Cause there ain’t no spark, and there ain’t no thrill,

Don’t use the same old lines, this ain’t no lost love drill

This can’t die, there’s nothing to kill

 

You’re staticx2

A clinging fuzz, An annoying buzz

There ain’t no changing here

It’s tragic, You’re static

An outuned hum, A clinging fuzz,

There ain’t no future here,

We’re standing still, we’re static

 

You’re static, we’re static

The Only Good

Take a step back now

Do you remember how

Before the world started falling around you

You were pressed to be

A mess so squeaky clean

Lifted by the shoulders, I found you

 

When I was the only good,

You’re moving on, how do I take care of myself

If you don’t need me anymore

Am I still the only good,

You’re moving on, how do I like myself

If you don’t need me anymore.

 

You looked at me to say

If I needed you, you’d stay

Try and get me to confess weakness

Is that what this is for?

Love is just keeping score,

But I remember when you, too had demons

 

When I was the only good,

You’re moving on, how do I take care of myself

If you don’t need me anymore

Am I still the only good,

You’re moving on, how do I like myself

If you don’t need me anymore.

 

That’s not to say

You can’t feel okay

If I’m not by your side.

I just wanna know

Did I push you away?

Were there words to avoid?

Is there a way,

I can get back the time?

 

When I was the only good,

You’re moving on, how do I take care of myself

If you don’t need me anymore

Am I still the only good,

You’re moving on, how do I like myself

If you don’t need me anymore.

Singing To Deaf Ears

Let your head fall, let it hang,

You’ve hung yourself, haven’t you?

Let your hair down, cause the outside,

They can’t feel you.

 

All the cords, that are supposed to find you when you cry

All the people, who swore they’d die by your side,

You made one mistake, and you’re drowning in apologies,

But they’re deaf, you’re alone, not sure what you did wrong

But you’re sorry, doesn’t she know you’re sorry?

 

Let your hands fall, let it go

You’ve lost yourself, haven’t you?

Let your hopes down, cause without wings,

They’ll never fly

 

All the cords, that are supposed to find you when you cry

All the people, who swore they’d die by your side,

You made one mistake, and you’re drowning in apologies,

But they’re deaf, you’re alone, not sure what you did wrong

But you’re sorry, doesn’t she know you’re sorry?

 

The wound always seems to hurt the most,

When you’re pulling off the band-aid,

Suddenly you see the light,

You meant everything you ever did.

If it means you’ll die in this room alone,

Accept your fate, bite your lips,

Scream until they hear you again.

 

All the cords, that are supposed to find you when you cry

All the people, who swore they’d die by your side,

You made one mistake, and you’re drowning in apologies,

But they’re deaf, you’re alone, not sure what you did wrong

But you’re sorry, doesn’t she know you’re sorry?

 

Let your hang fall, let it hang

You’ve hung yourself again, haven’t you?

Bees and Birds

Since you, I haven’t spent much time alone

Cause all my walls they talk to me,

Show memories, and sing songs to me

Since you, I haven’t spent much time outside

Cause all the bees and birds they smile,

And everything says you

 

Like a fly upon the wall,

Always watching what I do,

Your six eyes make me weak,

And I can’t fly with broken wings

But you clearly could

But you clearly could

 

Since you, I haven’t done much of anything at all,

Cause all my walls crumble and fall,

Torn down, I stumble and I crawl

Since you, I haven’t stopped moving a minute

When I do my head stops spinning

And everything says you

 

Like a fly upon the wall,

Always watching what I do,

Your six eyes make me weak,

And I can’t fly with broken wings

But you clearly could

But you clearly could

 

Cause you left and made a mess of me

You took the bees and birds,

Not just stones but words,

I find among the debris.

Cause you left and made a mess… of me

 

Like a fly upon the wall,

Always watching what I do,

Your six eyes make me weak,

And I can’t fly with broken wings

But you clearly could

But you clearly could

Cause all the bees and birds they smile

And everything says you…

Who Let Me In The Deep End Without A Buddy?

Your walk, your touch,

Those lips I’ll never feel,

What I’d do to feel them,

I shouldn’t really say.

That smile, those eyes,

They never see me,

What I’d to get them on me,

I won’t say.

Haven’t I been the best, the best, the best

You’ve never had

Cause I know you’re still the best, the best, the best

I’ll never hold

 

Would it kill you to kill, for me?

Would you care to care, for me?

Cause I’m drowning in an ocean of you,

Please don’t save me,

I’m just another fish, in the sea,

You’ll swim right passed,

You’ve swam right passed me.

 

Your words, your face,

It never faces me.

That mouth, your hands,

They’ll never trace me,

What I do for them to trace me,

I really shouldn’t say.

Haven’t I been the best, the best, the best

You’ve never had

Cause I know you’re still the best, the best, the best

I’ll never hold

 

Would it kill you to kill, for me?

Would you care to care, for me?

Cause I’m drowning in an ocean of you,

Please don’t save me,

I’m just another fish, in the sea,

You’ll swim right passed,

You’ve swam right passed me.

Would it kill you to kill, for me?

Would you care to care, for me?

Cause I’m drowning in an ocean of you,

Please don’t save me,

I’m just another fish, in the sea,

You’ll swim right passed,

You’ve swam right passed me.

 

I’m drowning…

I’m drowning, in you…

City Upon A Hill

Try and hold me underwater

Maybe when I can’t breathe I’ll be sane

But I’m not the wrong one,

Hold your own breath, if you think I’m ever coming back.

Fence me into your conventions,

My white teeth are still so crooked,

I don’t pray with my eyes closed anymore,

To hope, they’ve gotta be open.

 

I feel bad for you,

It’s a long way down from

The city upon a hill.

I feel bad for you,

You’ll see you’re still a far cry from

The standard you’re made of,

It’s a long way down,

From the city upon a hill, ooh.

 

You hold a witch hunt, cause your

Scape goat’s escaping.

I must be some kinda ghost, to go through

These brick walls you believe in

 

I feel bad for you,

It’s a long way down from

The city upon a hill.

I feel bad for you,

You’ll see you’re still a far cry from

The standard you’re made of,

It’s a long way down,

From the city upon a hill, ooh.

 

You don’t need my pity,

So why do you need my head bowed down.

You don’t need my pity

So why do you need my head bowed down,

You’re better off burning this city,

You’re better off burning this city, in your head.

 

I feel bad for you,

It’s a long way down from

The city upon a hill.

I feel bad for you,

You’ll see you’re still a far cry from

The standard you’re made of,

It’s a long way down,

From the city upon a hill, ooh.

Well Conditioned

You gave me secrets I couldn’t hold

Too heavy on my shoulders, you

Never cared the weight you threw, and

You even laughed when I fall off balance, I

Never noticed how you do, and why

Did I think you were on my side, oh

 

I don’t want you

I don’t need you

Not when you come with the conditions you do

 

You bent and you broke me, you wore me out

And after, you left me to figure it out

Oh, I’ve been figuring too,

I see the worst parts of me

Were always inspired by you

I see the worst parts of me

Were always inspired by you

 

You twisted me vision to keep you in view,

I though I liked what I’d been seeing, I

Wasn’t seeing everything, though,

Not straight, your smattered truth

 

I don’t want you

I don’t need you

Not when you come with the conditions you do

 

You bent and you broke me, you wore me out

And after, you left me to figure it out

Oh, I’ve been figuring too,

I see the worst parts of me

Were always inspired by you

I see the worst parts of me

Were always inspired by you

 

I should’ve known about boys like you

I should’ve known about boys like you

Watch me take the headaches you gave me

And turn them into more rhymes to save me

 

I don’t want you

I don’t need you

Not when you come with the conditions you do

 

You bent and you broke me, you wore me out

And after, you left me to figure it out

Oh, I’ve been figuring too,

I see the worst parts of me

Were always inspired by you

I see the worst parts of me

Were always inspired by you

Swell

My pride hangs in a locket

Its chain around my neck

But lately its been swelling

Out of the cracks and the keyhole

Please, get it back at bay

I’ll try to swallow it whole

 

I feel your stares more than ever

And I pray that you go blind

Put that in your morning coffee cup,

Add sugar as see you fit,

Try and keep my tongue,

Keep it bit,

Next time.

 

My sense has loud opinions.

Usually I’m a lot more nice.

But lately around you it’s been quiet.

I write in ink with my words like knives.

Carving up what you just layed out

I don’t care what I let lie

 

I feel your stares more than ever

And I pray that you go blind

Put that in your morning coffee cup,

Add sugar as see you fit,

Try and keep my tongue,

Keep it bit,

Next time.

 

You see, I’ve been eating matches

That’s why, I keep choking,

On the smoke in here,

Eyes teared up,

And I feel bigger than normal,

Everyone looks small from up here.

 

I feel your stares more than ever

And I pray that you go blind

Put that in your morning coffee cup,

Add sugar as see you fit,

Try and keep my tongue,

Keep it bit,

Next time.

To Be With You

If this is yours I want a part

You keep the ending, I want back the start

Cause everything got so confused

Blurry lines from me to you

And now

I don’t know it is I should go, so

 

If you go, I will follow

I promise, I’ll be there, right in tow

I’ll crawl behind you,

Fit in spaces that you aren’t,

But if you stay, I’m staying too,

Cause all I want’s to be with you

 

Your face in dark, so hard to see

But in the light, it’s all I need

Cause everything got so confused

We threw words, like bullets used

And now,

I don’t know how I should go to fix it

 

If you go, I will follow

I promise, I’ll be there, right in tow

I’ll crawl behind you,

Fit in spaces that you aren’t,

But if you stay, I’m staying too,

Cause all I want’s to be with you

 

I’m more aware, of everything

Because you’re there

I’m more aware, of everything

Because you’re there

Because you’re there

If this is yours, I want a part

I want a part, want to be a part

 

If you go, I will follow

I promise, I’ll be there, right in tow

I’ll crawl behind you,

Fit in spaces that you aren’t,

But if you stay, I’m staying too,

Cause all I want’s to be with you

I’ve Been Thinking

I lay down in the quiet corner

I listened to breath against the music in my head

And everything you ever thought of

Everything you ever said, came pouring in my ears

Through out the silence, I could hear,

 

That I’ve been thinking I’m alone,

But I’ve been mistaken.

I’ve been thinking I’m alone,

That I’m the only one,

Who feels hurt, Who feels wronged,

You’ve been singing the same song,

All alone.

Through out the silence, I could hear

That I’ve been thinking I’m alone,

But I’ve been wrong.

Wrote this in the shower. Pissed. Can’t remember the real words but I’ma try and get it back. :D

You say you need some new shoes

The same old soles ain’t doing it for you

Where’ve you been running around, then?

Do you ever think about slowing down,

Trying something new.

 

I’m blown away,

I’m set free,

For every today,

Tomorrow will be.

I’m blown away,

I’m getting free,

With the possibility,

I’m blown away.

Noisey

You’re a little noisey for my, taste

I’m a little sour for yours,

But maybe we could get used to, it

If you got a room and couple hours

 

Shock me, shock me

Try and break me,

Believe you beat them to it, baby

 

You think I’m refined, do you?

Then let me out the cage,

You tongue it just fine, now?

Run it by me again, please.

 

Shock me, shock me

Try and break me,

Believe you beat them to it, babe

 

There is no, speed limit

I run all the red lights.

You wanted a war,

Well you got me instead,

I’ll sit here and watch you try and put up a fight.

You’re a little noisey for my, taste

You’re a little noisey for my, taste

Believe me, you didn’t beat them

To breaking me

 

Shock me, shock me

Try and break me,

Believe you beat them to it, baby

Shock me, shock me

Try and break me,

Believe you beat them to it, baby

Mane of Gold

Bite out the words

Draw in your breath

Back straighter than arrows

Piercing your head

 

You act in fear,

You act in rage,

You point your fingers,

And you, hide your face.

 

Coward, coward

Complete with mane of gold,

Coward, coward,

Your act is getting old.

 

Don’t you, don’t you

Know what you are,

When you cry yourself to sleep at night

Don’t you, don’t you

Know what you are,

Know what you are,

I know what you are.

 

You act in fear,

You act in rage,

You point your fingers,

And you, hide your face.

 

Coward, coward

Complete with mane of gold,

Coward, coward,

Your act is getting old.

 

I bite my tongue

Count to ten in my head

Your not worth me

Losing it

 

You act in fear,

You act in rage,

You point your fingers,

And you, hide your face.

 

Coward, coward

Complete with mane of gold,

Coward, coward,

Your act is getting old.

 

I know what you are

I know what you are

Complete with mane of gold

I know what you are

I know what you are

You do what your told

Your act is getting old

Coward, coward

Bring Your Coat

Find yourself in my basement

Find yourself in my head, again

Lose yourself on the pavement

Spill and pour, til there’s nothing left

 

(Chorus=Riff)

 

Hang your coat in the staircase

Hang your head on my shoulder, baby

Bring your coat, just in case

It gets cold, I’m already sweating

 

(Chorus=Riff)

 

Hide your scars in your long sleeves

Hide your shame in your made up face

Come on and tell me your secrets

Who' I’ll tell, you don’t know their names

You Go Back

You still can’t dance, to that same old song

Are your fingers still there, from touching the same fire?

Don’t you get tired,

You go back to what’s hurt you, so many times

Before.

 

Learn from mistakes,

It will help you survive,

Take notes on the way,

Forget the names you will try.

Learn from mistakes,

It may help you survive,

Live in the moment, yeah,

But don’t forget,

Don’t forget, yesterday

 

You still can’t sing, that same old tune

Once bitten, clearly never shy

Don’t you, don’t you get tired?

You go back to what’s hurt you, so many times.

 

Learn from mistakes,

It will help you survive,

Take notes on the way,

Forget the names you will try.

Learn from mistakes,

It may help you survive,

Live in the moment, yeah,

But don’t forget,

Don’t forget, yesterday

 

Change the locks,

Change the locks,

Burn down the house

That tears you down.

Change the locks,

Do the wrong thing once,

And never again.

 

Learn from mistakes,

It will help you survive,

Take notes on the way,

Forget the names you will try.

Learn from mistakes,

It may help you survive,

Live in the moment, yeah,

But don’t forget,

Don’t forget, yesterday

Unkind

I once walked to the moon

For a man with three eyes

Who said, I looked good in all of them

But I couldn’t walk back,

You see, I was too tired,

But he didn’t wanna wait any longer.

 

Would you think me unkind,

If I didn’t shake your hand,

Didn’t try to understand, your childhood,

Would you think me unkind

If I tried to save your time

If you look you can see I’m no good

But I don’t wanna be unkind.

 

I once stayed up all night,

Trying to reason with the darkness,

Force somebody else to see the light.

But even I can’t cure the blind,

Forgive me if I sleep through this,

You’d think I’d learn my lesson by this time.

 

Would you think me unkind,

If I didn’t shake your hand,

Didn’t try to understand, your childhood,

Would you think me unkind

If I tried to save your time

If you look you can see I’m no good

But I don’t wanna be unkind.

 

I don’t wanna be

I don’t wanna be

I don’t wanna be

I don’t wanna be

 

Would you think me unkind,

If I didn’t shake your hand,

Didn’t try to understand, your childhood,

Would you think me unkind

If I tried to save your time

If you look you can see I’m no good

But I don’t wanna be unkind.

Needle

Don’t she want you?

Won’t you, will you, crawl towards the door

Get used to this, old place its

Cold on the floor

 

She’s got you twisting like a needle

In your brain,

You’d walk the Earth for her,

She’d take a plane.

She’s got you twisting like a needle,

In your brain,

You’d walk the Earth for her,

She won’t ask your name.

 

Don’t she want you?

Won’t you, will you, smell the breath she breathes

Toxic, an overload, you’re set for days, yeah

 

She’s got you twisting like a needle

In your brain,

You’d walk the Earth for her,

She’d take a plane.

She’s got you twisting like a needle,

In your brain,

You’d walk the Earth for her,

She won’t ask your name.

 

Craving just one more bite,

You need a hit, a look tonight.

Send vibes to a higher place,

That you’re desperate to touch her face.

Craving just more bite,

She won’t ask,

She won’t ask.

 

She’s got you twisting like a needle

In your brain,

You’d walk the Earth for her,

She’d take a plane.

She’s got you twisting like a needle,

In your brain,

You’d walk the Earth for her,

She won’t ask your name.

When You Say Love

The stuff that were made of

In the holes of our souls

Is betraying and breakable

Not under control

And your cheap alcohol

Only makes your dreams

Less predictable

 

When you say love

And I wonder if you’ll forget in the morning

When you say love

Are we characters in your head, a beautiful story

The moment you wake up you’ll find

When you say love, it’s a lie

 

We’re creatures of habit

Just chasing our demons

Until we collapse in eachother’s arms

Your pillows don’t comfort

So you go to the pills,

You run to the hills cause you’ll never find home

 

When you say love

And I wonder if you’ll forget in the morning

When you say love

Are we characters in your head, a beautiful story

The moment you wake up you’ll find

When you say love, it’s a lie

 

The stuff that were made of

In the holes of our souls

Is betraying and breakable

Not under control

And your cheap alcohol

Only makes your dreams

Less predictable

When you say love, it’s a lie

When you say love, it’s a lie

 

When you say love

And I know that it’s just another word you won’t remember you said

When you say love

I’ll never be the character you’ve pinned down in your head

I’m not gonna wait for you to wake up anymore

Cause I’m just not living this dream anymore

 

When you say love it’s a lie

When you say love, it’s a lie

Some bridge for some song that I haven’t written yet

There’s nothing wrong with faith in yourself

And those around you, that you see your face in,

I believe what I want in myself,

And believe me when I say, I’m not trying to be nobody else.

Never mind that I try to be nice,

Rather than start a fight, cause sometimes there’s just no stopping me.

I’m sure, deep down I’m a sweetheart,

Never mind that I’d rather talk to my car

Than most people my age.

Edge of a Puzzle

Ooh, if you’re a tiger,

In a tiny cage, do I gotcha by your little toe?

Ooh, if you’re a sunrise,

Shining on my sleepy face, do you like the way that I wake up?

 

Aren’t there features of you that like

Features of me

Like the edge of a puzzle you’re my

Missing piece.

Ooh, ooh ooh, ooh ooh

You’re my missing piece.

Ooh, ooh ooh, ooh ooh

 

Reach in, put your hand in my pocket,

Leave your heart behind by accident.

Sleep in, buried in the blanket,

Cause last night, i didn’t let you get your rest.

 

Aren’t there features of you that like

Features of me

Like the edge of a puzzle you’re my

Missing piece.

Ooh, ooh ooh, ooh ooh

You’re my missing piece.

Ooh, ooh ooh, ooh ooh

 

Ooh, breathing heavy cause you’re finally whole,

Ooh, breathing heavy cause you’re finally whole,

Ooh, breathing heavy cause you’re finally whole.

ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh

 

Aren’t there features of you that like

Features of me

Like the edge of a puzzle you’re my

Missing piece.

Ooh, ooh ooh, ooh ooh

You’re my missing piece.

Ooh, ooh ooh, ooh ooh

Accidents Happen

You say you’re born in storm,

But I watch you wait it out.

Not to question your intentions,

But I think I’ve figured you out.

And all this time I’ve spent with you

And all this time I’ve felt alive

In all this time I’ve got to know

Who we are can be a lie

 

You say what you have to to get me stay

Accidents happen, when living this way,

You change yourself in an effort to please

But what you are, you will never be.

This time there’s no settling.

 

You’ve cut that blue ribbon

But I’ve watched with empty eyes

Cause you know it’s not yours to claim,

You know you can’t take that prize,

And all this time I’ve spent with you

And all this time I’ve felt alive

In all this time I’ve got to know

Who we are can be a lie

 

You say what you have to to get me stay

Accidents happen, when living this way,

You change yourself in an effort to please

But what you are, you will never be.

This time there’s no settling.

 

All this life, is is making decisions

If what we want is good enough to want it

(To want it)

I want to feel like, nobody’s watching what I do,

You don’t want me for what I’m not,

And everything that ever was between us,

We realize is gone.

 

In all this time I’ve got to know

Who we are can be a lie

 

You say what you have to to get me stay

Accidents happen, when living this way,

You change yourself in an effort to please

But what you are, you will never be.

This time there’s no settling.

 

Not to question your intentions,

But I think I’ve figured them out…

End of Me (With KG)

Right before the dawn starts fading, see you in the darkest hour of dreams
A spirit of my own reflection; maybe what I want to be
Strangled by a constant need, to feel myself be broken
Wishing on the stars I see, with my eyes unopened

For who do I start anew?
For who, I can’t undo

Waiting on what I've created, laying in the outcome
Desires made myself serrated; now she can't be touched again
For who, do I start anew
For who, it’s done, I can’t undo

Now I lay myself to sleep
I swear I'll be what's there to see
Even if it's the end of me
The price it's worth, death for a dream

Circled by a brand new mirror, set myself in a pose unlearned
Practice til your eyes are bleeding, pretty dies, oh pretty burns
Guided by an empty whim, praised by those still in my head
Here I know I am forsaken, by myself, begin again?

For who, oh now I start anew
For who, it's done, I can't--

Now I lay myself to sleep
I swear I'll be what's there to see
Even if it's the end of me
The price it's worth, death for a dream
Hold your head up high
Perfection's worth your life

Oh, Oh, Oh, Oh
Oh, Oh, Oh, Oh
Oh, Oh, Oh, Oh
Oh, Oh, Oh, Oh

Hold your head up high

Now I lay myself to sleep
I swear I'll be what's there to see
Even if it's the end of me
The price it's worth, death for a dream
Hold your head up high…
For my dreams, I’ll die
It will be
The end of
Me...
Aerial Perez

When You Knew Nothing

You’re gonna cry,

Yourself to sleep,

You’re gonna have a new dream,

And wake up and realize what it means.

 

It all means nothing.

This won’t mean nothing.

Just a short time in your life

When you knew nothing.

It all means nothing.

This won’t mean nothing.

It’s just a short time in your life,

That you know nothing.

 

He held your hand,

He walked you home,

He smiled and winked and

Made you feel whole.

But when, he’s gone

And you hold your own hand,

You’re gonna realize,

You’re gonna understand.

 

It all means nothing.

This won’t mean nothing.

Just a short time in your life

When you knew nothing.

It all means nothing.

This won’t mean nothing.

It’s just a short time in your life,

That you know nothing.

 

And once you know it all,

That’s when you want to know nothing.

You wish you didn’t know now,

What you didn’t know then,

But you can never go back there again.

 

It all means nothing.

This won’t mean nothing.

Just a short time in your life

When you knew nothing.

It all means nothing.

This won’t mean nothing.

It’s just a short time in your life,

That you know nothing.

A Girl Like Me

I said come in from the rain

I said he could stay

The night was so cold,

I had to tell him to go

 

I said come on upstairs

He said don’t mind if I do,

He wrung himself out,

And then I hung him up blue

 

If you ever met a girl

Like me,

Would you stare,

Would you say hello,

Would you hide,

Would you be with her every night?

If you ever met a girl like me.

 

I stared for awhile,

Until he fell asleep,

I woke him up to tell him

Go back to his dreams.

 

If you ever met a girl

Like me,

Would you stare,

Would you say hello,

Would you hide,

Would you be with her every night?

If you ever met a girl like me.

 

And then, when he says goodbye,

He sees me wave hello,

And as he’s walking away,

I’m ready to go.

 

If you ever met a girl

Like me,

Would you stare,

Would you say hello,

Would you hide,

Would you be with her every night?

If you ever met a girl like me.

Am I Your Poison?

When you talk, it’s right in my ear

What you say, I won’t repeat

I think you’ve got, the right idea

About me.

 

You’ve got the nerve, to keep me nervous,

When you sleep, I stay awake,

I think you’ve got, the right ideas,

About…

 

A central focus, erotic shock,

Live wire, pick your poison, baby,

A central focus, erotic shock,

Live wire, am I your poison, baby?

 

When we touch, it’s something unreal,

Where you see, nobody’s seen.

I think you’ve got, the right idea,

About me.

 

I hear your heartbeat, I feel you shaking,

I count the stutters in your speech,

I think you’ve got, the right idea,

About…

 

A central focus, erotic shock,

Live wire, pick your poison, baby,

A central focus, erotic shock,

Live wire, am I your poison, baby?

A central focus, erotic shock,

Live wire, pick your poison, baby,

A central focus, erotic shock,

Live wire, am I your poison, baby?

Am I? Am I? Am I?

Am I your poison, baby?

Aren’t you a boy

Who finds it easy

To fall in love

Aren’t I a girl

Who finds it easy

To fall in love with you

Every Little Caterpillar

You didn’t haveta ask me what I want

You didn’t haveta tell me to go find

Something thrilling, something capturing,

My butterfly mind,

Here we go again,

 

Take me, flip me over in your hands,

Cause I’ve been waiting, (waiting)

All this time to understand,

Take me, flip me over in your hands,

Cause I’ve been changing, (changing)

In to exactly what I am,

And it’s crazy,

That wings can sprout for every little caterpillar,

Now I fly. Now I fly.

 

You didn’t haveta tell me to watch the nets,

But you didn’t haveta make me learn the hard way,

How to fall into the night,

Sleeping on the outskirts,

Of my butterfly mind,

Here we go again,

 

Take me, flip me over in your hands,

Cause I’ve been waiting, (waiting)

All this time to understand,

Take me, flip me over in your hands,

Cause I’ve been changing, (changing)

In to exactly what I am,

And it’s crazy,

That wings can sprout for every little caterpillar,

Now I fly. Now I fly.

 

Chasing, the clouds, and the sun, and the stars,

Finding out where I can perch and watch it all,

I wonder how small I am compared to what’s out there,

Beating my wings faster cause what choice do I have?

 

Take me, flip me over in your hands,

Cause I’ve been waiting, (waiting)

All this time to understand,

Take me, flip me over in your hands,

Cause I’ve been changing, (changing)

In to exactly what I am,

And it’s crazy,

That wings can sprout for every little caterpillar,

Now I fly. Now I fly.

Nothing New To Say

Dust me off,

With your sandpaper voice in my ear,

Wipe me clean,

Cause I know how it goes,

When your nights get away.

 

Curl me up,

Like your morning news paper,

I got nothing new to say,

Anyway.

 

Fix me (x4)

Down the line, they’ve tried and failed.

Fix me. (x4)

Waste your time, in my mind,

Get lost in the hype,

Fix me.

 

Take me out,

Of the game I need a team to play.

Write me off,

In your head cause I’m on the way

To a place with a silk sunset backdrop.

 

Fix me (x4)

Down the line, they’ve tried and failed.

Fix me. (x4)

Waste your time, in my mind,

Get lost in the hype,

Fix me.

 

Did you see me,

Pre-meditation,

Pre-fixation,

With fixing the world,

Did you want me?

Post-semi-accidental

Push to the edge.

I got nothing new to say,

Anyways.

 

Fix me (x4)

Down the line, they’ve tried and failed.

Fix me. (x4)

Waste your time, in my mind,

Get lost in the hype,

Fix me.

Doorstep (Jennifer’s Song)

You don’t haveta let me in

Let me sleep on your doorstep, baby

Listen to you while you’re dreaming

Breathing heavy even when you’re sleeping

 

Laying on your doorstep,

How did you get so cold,

How did I get so loud,

Sleeping on your doorstep,

I don’t know if you’re home,

I’ve been hoping you’re alone,

Sleeping on your doorstep.

 

I promise,

I’ve missed you,

Real, real bad,

But make me swear that you’re the only one,

Who’s been sleeping in my head

 

Laying on your doorstep,

How did you get so cold,

How did I get so loud,

Sleeping on your doorstep,

I don’t know if you’re home,

I’ve been hoping you’re alone,

Sleeping on your doorstep.

 

Oh call me by my first name,

Cause by baby, should I know you mean me

Anymore, well do you still know my name?

You’ll go away, I’ll wait here,

You’ll find me with something I found to keep busy

 

Laying on your doorstep,

How did you get so cold,

How did I get so loud,

Sleeping on your doorstep,

I don’t know if you’re home,

I’ve been hoping you’re alone,

Sleeping on your doorstep.

 

I can’t tell you, how you’ve changed her,

You’re still a stranger,

But she cried tears in the rain, for you

On her doorstep she’ll be waiting,

For a love that’s worth the wait

 

Laying on your doorstep,

How did you get so cold,

How did I get so loud,

Sleeping on your doorstep,

I don’t know if you’re home,

I’ve been hoping you’re alone,

Sleeping on your doorstep.

Need

Keep me in your dysfunction

I want you in my ear

Keep me lost in your heaven

 

I’m burning at your feet

Tell me what you want, what you need

 

Hell dear, how have you been?

Since I saw you in my dreams,

Hello dear, how was she, yeah?

She’s better than I’ll ever be, believe me,

But she don’t need you,

I will need you,

When you need someone to need you

 

I’ll dance in your hands

Force air between your lips

She’ll leave you crawling

She’ll leave you broken

 

I’m burning at your feet

Tell me what you want, what you need

 

Hell dear, how have you been?

Since I saw you in my dreams,

Hello dear, how was she, yeah?

She’s better than I’ll ever be, believe me,

But she don’t need you,

I will need you,

When you need someone to need you

 

I’m lining up to kiss

From your toes up to your lips

I don’t care about first or second

I just wanna be one of your choices

 

I’m burning at your feet

Tell me what you want, what you need

I’m burning at your feet

Tell me what you want, what you need

 

Hell dear, how have you been?

Since I saw you in my dreams,

Hello dear, how was she, yeah?

She’s better than I’ll ever be, believe me,

But she don’t need you,

I will need you,

When you need someone to need you

You need me to need you…

Drift

Didn’t I meet you under the bridge?

Opened myself, let me in your hands,

Now, how can you say I don’t know how to try

Made a wish on a sparkling star

Flew away, or fell so far,

Watch the trail go down your cheek,

Why can’t I make you fly?

 

I let the dust collect on this shelf,

On the film of my eyes,

I let my heart sit up there,

It’s my fault I drift and slide.

Shaky Hands

You’ve been staring at me silent for just a little too long,

I’m starting to overthink that maybe I said something wrong,

And you asked me to dance but now I’m walking on eggshells,

And I can’t say I’m sorry enough times to ease your mind.

And I know you said you wanted more than friends,

But I can’t just go and put my heart in shaky hands.

 

You’re insecure,

You’re immature,

You say I don’t love you enough,

To change your mind.

You’re insecure,

You’re immature,

Fine then, I don’t love you enough,

To lose my mind.

Spinning On Its Heel

How can I still want more

Because I thought I had

Everything

I told you, some feelings aren’t forever,

But I guess my own will go on for a long time.

 

But now the world is spinning on it’s heel

I think it’s gonna stop if you touch and don’t feel

When it comes to you, I’m my own worst enemy

I hope you’re wrong, and your heart still beats for me.

 

How can I still ask more

Because I thought we had

Everything.

And I told you, I told you so, I told myself

But neither one of us listened, and I was right.

 

But now the world is spinning on it’s heel

I think it’s gonna stop if you touch and don’t feel

When it comes to you, I’m my own worst enemy

I hope you’re wrong, and your heart still beats for me.

 

Now I’m awake, and it’s 4 am,

And I wish you never said that,

I wish you never said that.

Now I’m awake, and it’s 4 am,

Do you wish you never said that,

Will you wish you never said that?

Should I be thankful?

Should I be broken?

I’m still crying on your bed.

I wish you never said that.

I wish you never said that.

Cause now if you, change your mind,

I doubt it will, change mine.

 

But now the world is spinning on it’s heel

I think it’s gonna stop if you touch and don’t feel

When it comes to you, I’m my own worst enemy

I hope you’re wrong, and your heart still beats for me.

But now the world is spinning on it’s heel

I think it’s gonna stop if you touch and don’t feel

When it comes to you, I’m my own worst enemy

I hope you’re wrong, and your heart still beats for me.

Now we sleep on the dinner table,

With rules I can’t keep straight,

Cause I can’t do nothing right,

With everyone’s eyes always on me.

Consumer Race

Hey, miss america,

Wave with a smile,

Keep your head up,

And you won’t see what’s beneath your eyes.

Hey, miss squeaky clean,

Tell me what your camera sees,

Perfume, what privacy?

Reputation, jekyll-hyde you see.

We’re the consumer race,

How much can I pay

For the hearts that I break

With my mind set on making

A dollar.

We’re the consumer race,

With our minds set on making a dollar.

 

Hey, mr president,

How’s the chair you’re sitting in,

Don’t make a move, cause the ground

Will sure be caving in.

 

We’re the consumer race,

How much can I pay

For the hearts that I break

With my mind set on making

A dollar.

We’re the consumer race,

With our minds set on making a dollar.

 

We’re the consumer race,

How much can I pay

For the hearts that I break

With my mind set on making

A dollar.

We’re the consumer race,

With our minds set on making a dollar.

Feel Yourself

It’s hard to see behind the lights

Behind the curtains you would find

The plastic strings, instead of wings

But still they fly.

 

Darling

I feel you

But you don’t even feel yourself

You’re trying

Too hard

To be what you can’t expect of yourself

Perfection

Is a coveted disease in your head

A destination

You’ve no hope to find

Darling, I feel you,

But you don’t even feel yourself.

 

It’s hard to find something that fits right

When everything is nothing that excites

And I, am well aware, the world’s not fair,

But still they fly.

 

Darling

I feel you

But you don’t even feel yourself

You’re trying

Too hard

To be what you can’t expect of yourself

Perfection

Is a coveted disease in your head

A destination

You’ve no hope to find

Darling, I feel you,

But you don’t even feel yourself.

 

You’re trying,

You’re trying,

You’re trying,

You’ll try again.

 

Darling

I feel you

But you don’t even feel yourself

You’re trying

Too hard

To be what you can’t expect of yourself

Perfection

Is a coveted disease in your head

A destination

You’ve no hope to find

Darling, I feel you,

But you don’t even feel yourself.

Let Me Go

Can’t you see that I’m smothered?

Can’t you see that I need to be alone?

Thought I told you it clearly

That I can’t breathe,

With you sitting on my heart.

You say you won’t be happy,

Until I’m back again.

 

And you need to realize,

That I don’t need you,

And I’m sorry that I said that I did,

Cause I thought I did,

 

But I don’t

And I won’t,

And I don’t mean to push you out the door,

But I do,

And I will,

If I have to.

And I have to.

So you have to let me go.

 

Can’t you see that I’m shaking?

Can’t you see that I want to leave your  grasp?

Thought you meant something different,

Thought you knew that I wasn’t forever,

And you were sitting on my heart.

 

And you need to realize,

That I don’t need you,

And I’m sorry that I said that I did,

Cause I thought I did,

 

But I don’t

And I won’t,

And I don’t mean to push you out the door,

But I do,

And I will,

If I have to.

And I have to.

So you have to let me go.

 

I won’t lie, and say that I’ll return,

Cause I never wanted to be here anyway.

I never wanted this,

I let you convince me,

I let you convince me,

But I don’t need you,

Like you told me I did.

 

And you need to realize,

That I don’t need you,

And I’m sorry that I said that I did,

Cause I thought I did,

 

Cause I don’t

And I won’t,

And I don’t mean to push you out the door,

But I do,

And I will,

If I have to.

And I have to.

So you have to let me go.

Push Me

Are you trying to see

How far I’ll go to reach you?

How far that you can pull away

Before I give up and make it my own

I’d like to say forever,

But my arms aren’t so long,

I’d like to say forever,

But if this is the first test of many,

Then I won’t hold on long.

Then I won’t hold on.

 

Push me, and I’ll push you right back,

We’re both caught off balance,

Maybe it’s better like that.

Push me, and I’ll push you right back,

But I’ll help you back up,

Cause when the push comes to shove,

I’ve been tossed into love.

 

Are you dying to know

How long this is gonna last?

How far this is gonna go

Before we give up and leave this alone

I’d like to say forever,

But we don’t have the patience

I’d like to say forever,

But if this is all that’s on your mind,

Well then where am I?

 

Push me, and I’ll push you right back,

We’re both caught off balance,

Maybe it’s better like that.

Push me, and I’ll push you right back,

But I’ll help you back up,

Cause when the push comes to shove,

I’ve been tossed into love.

 

An eye for an eye…

Push me, and I’ll push you right back,

(an eye for an eye)

But I want you back up,

I want you standing by my side.

 

Push me, and I’ll push you right back,

We’re both caught off balance,

Maybe it’s better like that.

Push me, and I’ll push you right back,

But I’ll help you back up,

Cause when the push comes to shove,

I’ve been tossed into love.

Proof

That thunder in your ribcage

Don’t let it go unnoticed

It won’t be there, everyday but

Sometimes it’ll keep you focused.

That spider near your heart

Itching to get out and breakaway

It’s a fuel to reach the moon

It’s the key to everything.

 

When you wanna give up,

What kept you holding on,

This long.

When they tell you give up,

You keep proving ‘em wrong,

They’re wrong.

La, la, la

They’re wrong, and la, la, la.

 

So you think you got what makes it

You think you’re something cool

Let me ask you, do you why they hate you?

Cause it’s that thought that makes itself true.

 

When you wanna give up,

What kept you holding on,

This long.

When they tell you give up,

You keep proving ‘em wrong,

They’re wrong.

La, la, la

They’re wrong, and la, la, la.

 

That thunder in your ribcage,

Don’t let it go unnoticed.

Cause I hear it everyday now,

I see it keeping you focused.

And la, la, la.

Follow the noises,

La, la, la.

 

When you wanna give up,

What kept you holding on,

This long.

When they tell you give up,

You keep proving ‘em wrong,

They’re wrong.

La, la, la

They’re wrong, and la, la, la.

 

It’s fuel to reach the moon,

It’s the key to everything.

Sideways Living

She had more devil in her kiss,

But she liked the angel in his eyes.

A little girl with a twist,

Man she sure left him surprised.

 

He said he only did it sideways

And she said her, too

He told her he was playing,

And she said she was for true.

 

She had him on knees,

Begging for what a boy needs.

Sideways loving, sideways kissing,

Sideways looking, sideways twisting.

No one sees straight in some hours.

Sideways loving, sideways kissing,

Sideways looking, sideways living.

 

He watched her crawl out of her skin,

He watched the tears come to her eyes.

He didn’t wanna stand no more,

But he knew to sacrifice.

 

She had him on knees,

Begging for what a boy needs.

Sideways loving, sideways kissing,

Sideways looking, sideways twisting.

No one sees straight in some hours.

Sideways loving, sideways kissing,

Sideways looking, sideways living.

 

But you never last for long when

You get down on your wants.

Two sideways lovers always get

Sideways eyes,

But that one last time,

 

She had him on knees,

Begging for what a boy needs.

Sideways loving, sideways kissing,

Sideways looking, sideways twisting.

No one sees straight in some hours.

Sideways loving, sideways kissing,

Sideways looking, sideways living.

Strange Questions

Do you believe in perfection

Do you believe in reality

When you close your eyes

Do you see black or

Do you see pictures

All over the walls of your mind.

Do you believe in time

Being a glue for brokenness

Or just two souls who can’t

Fit in.

What do your edges look like?

What makes you smile?

 

I wanna know everything

About the beautiful stranger

Standing in front of me

Cause I think I could love him

I wanna know everything

But then you’d think I was strange

Would you think I was strange

If I said I think I love you

After I asked you a few strange questions

I just wanna know everything

 

What do you do in the night time?

Do you sleep, do you dream,

Do you think for awhile first

About the whole universe

It could swallow us whole.

Do you believe in love?

Do you believe in wasting your time?

 

I wanna know everything

About the beautiful stranger

Standing in front of me

Cause I think I could love him

I wanna know everything

But then you’d think I was strange

Would you think I was strange

If I said I think I love you

After I asked you a few strange questions

I just wanna know everything

 

I have to know, I have to know.

 

I wanna know everything

About the beautiful stranger

Standing in front of me

Cause I think I could love him

I wanna know everything

But then you’d think I was strange

Would you think I was strange

If I said I think I love you

After I asked you a few strange questions

I just wanna know everything

 

I’ve got these strange questions…

Do you believe in perfection?

Do you believe in reality?

I wanna know everything…