Ok...I Lied....i swear I'm almost done....special post on feminism to addo!

Feminism has nothing to do with losing your virginity. I've been called a feminist.....admitted to being a feminist....w/e. Losing your virginty to a guy has nothing to do with anything. I think if he's ready, and you're ready, go for it. That doesnt have anything to do with women's rights. Rape is another story altogether. Virginty is one those things that has nothing to do with feminists. I believe most arguements start as misunderstandings. Without straight facts, you get twisted opinions. Feminism is the belief that in a sense, men and women are equal. Many people confuse the previous statement with, "Feminism is the belief that men and women are the SAME." Those are two different statements COMPLETELY. Men and women are different. Completely different. Doesnt mean both sexes cant be appreciated. That is what "feminism" is trying to say.

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I forgot....Happy V Day to all those believers....any excuse to receive chocolate is okay with me lol....kay rly ttyl!

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Watched a good movie today. "The Perfect Man" lol. it was good. Fine, Aimez i'm caving.In my rush of confidence and w/e, I will go ice skating. On a condition tho. We totally have to start a band. Gotcha ;). Wrote another good song last nite and I passed out listening to my ipod. I have a question. Dreams do go away dont they? Like....I dont know. I kinda hope so. Lol....well Aimez had some interesting news to share with me on Friday...and...I kinda did know but I kinda didnt. Well...Idk... Btw to Aimez I forgot to ask if you made ur bus lol. But yeah....thanks for the info. Anyway....I dont know why, I'm like excited all the time. Its the weirdest thing ever. And my toes hurt. And its not from my shoes. I dont get it. Lol. W/e. And yeah. I have my black book to whoever diperi said had my book, they dont have the black one, so HA HA. I just finished painting. I dont know why. I'm not really good I just like doing it I guess. Been singing all day and I think I'm actually sick of hearing myself. And to the whole blog thing.....Re-reading my stuff. I sound like an asshole lol. Honestly. I swear I'm not always like this. THIS I SWEAR. lol....srry metallica...but yeah....I'm not always this arrogant and bitchy. But I'm weird lately. I'm a completely different person. And i dont know if shes here to stay, or who she is, but, I like her a little bit. Later...

Hmm....

Thinking a lot lately. Sorry to anyone who saw me glaring through big giant chanel glasses today. Sorry....I'm thinking about attitude and confidence lately. I have to admit, I did feel a little sexy. A tiny bit. And to last night....I think it would be easier if i just skipped ten years of my life and didnt deal with guys at all until im like 25. I swear honest to blog (cr vrai) that i couldnt breathe. Guys are such fucking assholes. They pick you apart at you're weakest moments and make you feel horrible for every word uttered. I mean, I really do feel bad, but still. C'mon man, could you pick a worse time? I doubt it. Anyway....I wrote an amazing song yesterday. I have never written anything so wonderfully me. It took only the good parts. And I actually liked it. Too bad I'm not posting it cause it is really good. But oh....you can dream lol. In less than three weeks, I have totally turned myself around. I'm louder, honest with myself, and....I dont know. I have clearer vision I guess would be the correct wording. Btw....mike...I dont know if I ever sent you my blog or anything....but I'm sorry. A little. And yeah...I called you an asshole. Cause you totally were one. (In the nicest sense of the word....but still) Totally proving my point...guys are nice but are total jerks sometimes. Night...I'm gonna go play my bass in my black patent leather heels and chanel glasses and too tight jeans and too low shirt. I am so proud of my fucking self. And really proud I just said that. Although, sucking in singing didnt feel good, and definetly not sexy lol. I almost cried. I totally murdered the song. And it was actually painful to keep singing. And oh my god....dress shopping should totally be a well-paying career. It's really tiring. Kay....ta ta for now.

Oh Fucking Please....

Fine...I'll admit it. I know nice guys. A lot of them actually. But...i know they can be jerks too. I know, everyone thinks I have this corrupted little mind thing....where i think girls should rule the world and blah blah blah. I'm not saying that. But...I AM saying that most of the time....guys are jerks. And yeah...the riddler is right...unless you've gone through the same situation and blah blah blah you cant really talk. And I agree, partly. Just because whatever you're going through is weird and stressful, doesnt mean you can be a jerk. And most of the time, guys are inconsiderate. And honestly, most of them think very highly of themselves. VERY highly of themselves. Say im controversial, call me a feminist....shut up already! MOST guys are not ALWAYS jerks....but MOST guys do think with their dicks A LOT. If you have a penis at this moment....take five freaking seconds to think if you said/did anything jerky today. Odds are...you can probly get one or two fingers to raise if you think hard enough. And yes....blame it on maturity. Blame it on hormones. Blame it on anything. Point of fact, guys are jerks sometimes.

I'm Gonna Try And Write This Entire Thing In Song Quotes Explaining How I Feel About Everything!!!!!

"I hope this was the last time, cause I'll never say no to you." "I know I'm not you're favorite record." "Am I sitting in a tin can?" "Far above the world?" "Just what do I see in you?" "I feel so alive" "You'll be waiting in vain. I'v got nothing for you to gain. I'm taking it slow and feeding my flame." "Suddenly I will play nice." "I wont soothe your pain." "I was punk. Now I'm just stupid and I'm awful." "I'm going through changes." "Hello there" "I cannot sleep." "When I think of all you're wasted time, I could cry." "I got up on the wrong side of life today." "My phone doesnt work cause its outta range." "You cant kick me down I'm already on the ground." "I just wanna scream and lose control." "I try to stay outta everybody's way." "I dont know who I'm sposed to be." "I'm hurt."

Song: Time

Open your eyes/where did you go/you've lost you're mind/atleast you know/theres not time for sadness theres no time for tears/its not like you didnt know/it's not like i cared/you broke yourself/i only watched the pieces fall/i watched you fall apart/it's not like you didnt know/its not like i cared/im tired of wasting my time/gotta keep moving on/theres no time/ no time for tears/its not like i didnt know you/its not like you really cared/ all you're wastd time/all your wasted heartache/theres no time/no time for this/ no time for you/ better things to do with my time/iv opened my eyes/i know where i am/i know where you went/i wasted my time/i was already gone/theres no time/no time for tears/its not like i didnt know you/its not like/I/didnt/ know.....