I like the second song. Scream.

Isn't it funny how you never
Never had the time
Isn't it funny how you always
Always said i was on your mind
But you can't
You can't unlive the lie
You can't
You won't know what you want til you close your eyes
And scream out loud
And scream out loud
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She's like a drug
So good and so bad for you
Cat got your tongue
But you know you don't wanna be used
Why can't we all just

C-Say what you want say what you feel
What you need
Scream what you want scream what you fear
What you mean
Say what you know say what you like
What you see
And after all make sure that you
Mean what you scream

Ambidextrous
Seeing through all of the smoke
Back doors open for you
But you can't breathe you choke
Too many bright lights
Too many blind turns
When will she ever learn
False alarm here we go again
You know it's not what it shouldve been

C-Say what you want say what you feel
What you need
Scream what you want scream what you fear
What you mean
Say what you know scream what you like
What you see
And after all make sure that you
Mean what you scream

Eyes closed.
Still hearts.
Waiting.
For the fun to start.
Deep breath.
And sigh.
Too much.
For you tonight.
How could
She take.
You're heart.
It was so easy to break.
You're left.
Without a voice.
Without a cry.
But you made you're choice....
(To) *pause*

Chorus (2x?)

lies.

If you gave me any truth
Any part of you
Maybe it could’ve worked out
If you really ever cared
Ever did your share
Maybe it would’ve worked out
Don’t kiss me goodnight
This heart won’t say goodbye
I want you I need you
But I won’t waste my time
I want you I need you
But I won’t waste any more time on you

Life.

As we get older, I feel like I'm chasing white rabbits around in my head. I lose track of time and follow them around. And then it's like I'm falling forever. I think I'm finally done changing, and I've let go of the illusion of what I was, and let go of the dream that I'd be perfect. It just feels like the pressure is gone and now it's just me. So tonight instead of writing a song, although i will momentarily, I felt like just blogging. Saying hey, I found my lifeline. And it was me all along. I didn't try hard enough to understand it, and like anything we don't understand I think I ran away from it. It's my turn and I don't need to lose myself to be pretty. In mind and body. That's yesterday's concept. One that I'm pretty sure I'll fall prey to atleast once more in my life. What can I say? Parts of me saw it coming. It'll fade in and out. I'll ignore my conscience and memory. In some aspects I'm once burned twice shy, but some I'm not. I don't know what I want, and I'm trying not to ask myself. This path I'm walking on, sometimes it's hard not to run ahead, or even runaway, cause I just can't take it. Some moments are beautiful, and sometimes I'm just sick of it all. "Still don't know what I was looking for."