Lock and Key

There’s a time and a place,

To say what’s on your mind,

And right now, I hope you’re ready to speak.

There’s a right and a wrong way,

To go every distance,

Only you would rather follow than lead.

 

You said you wanted to stay,

But it was a lie.

Now it’s getting late,

And I’m wasting your time,

I have the lock and you lost the key,

You think it’s all over now,

So say you’re sorry and leave.

 

There’s a turn and a twist,

And a bump in the road,

But I am gonna get where I’m going.

There’s a door and a way,

I can fight my way out,

I know you’re just a wolf in sheep’s clothing.

 

You said you wanted to stay,

But it was a lie.

Now it’s getting late,

And I’m wasting your time,

I have the lock and you lost the key,

You think it’s all over now,

So say you’re sorry and leave.

 

There’s a wish and a star,

Kind of feeling tonight,

Like a fish hooked on a baited line.

There’s a snake and a fool,

In front of the room now,

Dancing cause he venomously lied.

 

It was sad, it was lonely, the biggest mistake.

But you only had fun cause it was part of the chase…

 

You said you wanted to stay,

But it was a lie.

Now it’s getting late,

And I’m wasting your time,

I have the lock and you lost the key,

You think it’s all over now,

So say you’re sorry and leave.

Civil War

All you want to do is breathe and sleep,

I can’t even hear your heart beat anymore.

But I’ve seen this sob story somewhere,

It’s like I’ve read it on the walls of my own tomb.

 

If you wanted to go and be sad,

They should’ve let you

Who am I to stop you?

Who am I to stop you,

To stop the whispers, stop the nightmares,

Who am i to help you? to confuse you?

If you wanted to stay and be sad,

They should’ve let you.

 

All I wanted to do was just sleep one more week,

I didn’t wanna hear my heart beat anymore,

I knew I’d seen this sob story somewhere,

I had read it on the ones of my tomb,

So I’m no judge, I’m no wedge,

In the door to your outsides,

The door to insides.

 

If you wanted to go and be sad,

They should’ve let you

Who am I to stop you?

Who am I to stop you,

To stop the whispers, stop the nightmares,

Who am i to help you? to confuse you?

If you wanted to stay and be sad,

They should’ve let you.

 

Why did they stop me?

Who were they to stop me?

Stop the scissors, stop the civil wars,

Stop the sleepless nights,

Stop confusing me,

Who am I to stop you?

 

If you wanted to go and be sad,

They should’ve let you

Who am I to stop you?

Who am I to stop you,

To stop the whispers, stop the nightmares,

Who am i to help you? to confuse you?

If you wanted to stay and be sad,

They should’ve let you.

Why didn’t they let you?

I can’t just let you.

You can’t stay here and be sad,

Cause they didn’t let me.

Oh, who were they to stop me?

Who am I to stop you?

Do This To Me

My eyes tear with confusion

It’s easier to blame you for them

You make me think too hard now

To let you crawl under my skin, woah oh.

 

Everytime you say hello,

Everytime you say goodbye,

I make a million mistakes in between.

 

Second guessing, just pretending,

This is me, this what you wanted to see.

Second guessing, still obsessing,

It’s terrible that you do this to me.

Instead

It’s nice to see you smiling, if it’s only when it’s raining,

Sometimes it’s hard to see you cry.

You whine about the friends you have,

And the people who just don’t like you,

It’s hard to tell what side I’m on sometimes.

Cause every friend you make is just another hangman,

And I can’t cover all your debts to society.

 

Take me in stead,

Instead of all their wants,

Take me instead,

Instead of all their stupid thoughts.

Take me instead,

Take me instead of her,

Take me instead.

 

It’s nice to see you on my side, if it’s only when it’s raining.

Sometimes it’s hard to you see not try.

I tell you all these stupid things,

But sometimes you don’t hear.

Sometimes it’s hard to see you lose sight.

Cause every friend you make is just another hangman,

And I can’t cover all your debts to society.

 

Take me in stead,

Instead of all their wants,

Take me instead,

Instead of all their stupid thoughts.

Take me instead,

Take me instead of her,

Take me instead.

 

She’ll only break her promises,

And stab you with thorns on her roses.

I may not be much to look at,

But at least I’m not much to fear.

At least I’m not much to please.

At least I’m not her, at least I’m not her.

Cause every girl you meet is just another hangman,

And I can’t try to cover all your debts to society.

 

Take me in stead,

Instead of all their wants,

Take me instead,

Instead of all their stupid thoughts.

Take me instead,

Take me instead of her,

Take me instead.

Kill Me

Sometimes I get sad and lonely,

Sometimes I can cry.

I know that I’m still a baby.

So someone tell me why?

You can look down on me,

And say youth is wasted on the young,

But I’m just waiting til I die,

If this is all I can expect from my life…

If this is paradise, then please no one show me hell.

With friends like you, who needs enemies?

With friends like you, who needs enemies?

If these are the best years of my life, then kill me now.

If this is paradise.

 

Sometimes I watch you fake it,

And sometimes I haveta say goodbye.

I’d rather be lonely any day, babe,

Than meet you in a mask of faded light.

You can look down on me,

And say my youth is wasted while I’m young,

But I’m just waiting til I die,

If this is all I can expect from my life…

If this is paradise, then please no one show me hell.

With friends like you, who needs enemies?

With friends like you, who needs enemies?

If these are the best years of my life, then kill me now.

If this is paradise.

 

Oh, paradise.

Let me close my eyes,

Cause in your faded light,

In your faded light,

I can’t see any reason why

You can look down on me,

And say my youth is wasted while I’m young,

But I’m just waiting til I die,

If this is all I can expect from my life…

If this is paradise, then please no one show me hell.

With friends like you, who needs enemies?

With friends like you, who needs enemies?

If these are the best years of my life, then kill me now.

If this is paradise.

If these are the best years of my life, then kill me now.

With friends like you, who needs enemies?

Hearts Unscarred

I would

Kiss you

In my car

To this song

I would

Kiss you

In my car

To this song

Hearts unscarred,

Cause when we’d get to the end,

We’d both understand what it meant.

I would

Lead you

Up my stairs

To this song

I would

Lead you

Up my stairs

To this song

Hearts unscarred,

Cause when we’d get to the top,

We’d both understand what it meant.

We’d both understand, we’d both understand.

I would, kiss you.

I would, kiss you.

Hearts unscarred…

Step On

You think you’re ordinary

She thinks she’s something else.

You think you’re nobody,

He thinks he’s god’s gift to the world.

 

What gives them say?

Who said it was okay

For them,

To step on you,

Step on you,

Don’t let them step on you.

Step on you,

Just step on.

 

You think you’re ordinary,

She thinks she’s gonna be somebody,

You think you’re average in everything,

He thinks he’s the standard around here.

 

What gives them say?

Who said it was okay

For them,

To step on you,

Step on you,

Don’t let them step on you.

Step on you,

Just step on.

Heart (In Pieces)

You hold my hand too tight,

It hurts sometimes.

I’m scared to believe that look in your eyes,

Is for me sometimes.

Cause I can’t see this being forever,

And you can’t see us not together,

And I’m scared one day, I’ll be gone.

And you’ll stay,.

 

Heart of glass, heart of stone,

Heart of wood, watch it float,

Down a river of denial,

Heart of glass, heart of stone,

Heart of paper, let it go,

You’ll be in pieces before you know.

This heart of gold,

This heart of gold.

 

I can’t look back and regret,

All I said.

To let you believe that this was real,

To let you know just how I feel,

Cause I can’t see this being forever,

And you can’t see us not together,

And I’m scared one day, I’ll be gone.

And you’ll stay.

 

Heart of glass, heart of stone,

Heart of wood, watch it float,

Down a river of denial,

Heart of glass, heart of stone,

Heart of paper, let it go,

You’ll be in pieces before you know.

This heart of gold,

This heart of gold.

 

And I let you go,

And I let you down,

You say, I lead you,

You say I let you down.

But you’re too heavy,

To keep you always hanging around.

Your heart of gold.

 

Heart of glass, heart of stone,

Heart of wood, watch it float,

Down a river of denial,

Heart of glass, heart of stone,

Heart of paper, let it go,

You’ll be in pieces before you know.

This heart of gold,

This heart of gold.

Christmas Wishes

Close the door on your way out,

Don’t say goodbye,

You’re angry again, but I’m not sure why,

It’s Christmas here, but you are not,

Your angry again, so you leave.

 

I just wanna sing about the love in my life,

But you said that, you said that, I shouldn’t lie,

I just wanna sing about the love in my life,

And I shouldn’t, I shouldn’t have to lie.

I just wanna…sing.

This is my christmas wishlist, don’t come home angry,

My christmas wish list, don’t come home angry,

Or don’t come at all,

My christmas wishlist…

 

All the lights on the tree couldn’t light up your face,

You’re in misery, you’re in misery.

It’s Christmas here, but you not,

Your angry again so you left,

Goodbye.

 

I just wanna sing about the love in my life,

But you said that, you said that, I shouldn’t lie,

I just wanna sing about the love in my life,

And I shouldn’t, I shouldn’t have to lie.

I just wanna…sing.

 

But it just isnt right,

I don’t want you to be angry, not at me, not tonight.

This is my christmas wishlist, don’t come home angry,

Or don’t come home at all,

My christmas wish list, don’t come home angry,

Or don’t come at all,

My christmas wishlist…

 

I just wanna sing about the love in my life,

But you said that, you taught me, not to lie,

I just wanna sing about the love in my life,

And I shouldn’t, don’t want to have to lie,

I just wanna sing.

Don’t wanna have to lie, not about that.

 

This is my christmas wishlist, don’t come home angry,

Or don’t come home at all,

My christmas wish list, don’t come home angry,

Or don’t come at all,

My christmas wishlist…

The Wake Up Call

Isn’t it hard to get out of your head?

Cause there your world isn’t perfect, it’s a mess,

You’re a mess.

Isn’t it hard to get out of your head?

Every song they ever wrote you,

Trying to make you feel better,

Make you feel wanted.

 

I try, so hard, to wake you up in the morning,

You try, so hard, to stay in bed and keep dreaming,

I live, this lie, inspired by you,

Inspired by you, this lie, i try, so hard.

 

Isn’t it scary to see the lights all fade away?

Was it worth your satisfaction to ruin everything we made?

You’re a mess, you’re a mess, I take out the garbage,

The immeadiate damage.

Isn’t it scary to see all the lights fade?

Out of your sight, into the shadows,

Forget your past, forget your tomorrows,

Cause you’re not living your today.

 

I try, so hard, to wake you up in the morning,

You try, so hard, to stay in bed and keep dreaming,

I live, this lie, inspired by you,

Inspired by you, this lie, i try, so hard.

 

Climb out your window to get away,

Don’t leave here on goodbye,

I’m just glad you’re getting away,

Somewhere you can sleep in peace,

And I can dream that you’ll come back alive.

Inspired…

This is the wake up call.

(To wake you up in the morning)

This is the wake up call.

(To wake you up in the morning)

This is the wake up call.

 

I try, so hard, to wake you up in the morning,

You try, so hard, to stay in bed and keep dreaming,

I live, this lie, inspired by you,

Inspired by you, this lie, i try, so hard.

Tragedy

Vanity, oh, oh, your tragedy,

Leaves you bruised and bleeding,

Struggling to breath and,

Oh, oh, but you look just fine,

Oh, but you look just fine.

Wired Closed

How much do you see with your eyes closed?

How much do you hear with your mouth wide open?

Oh, they could’ve changed you,

But this was much more entertaining.

 

You can’t bear the thought of you sidelined.

You belong front and center, just like you were told.

You’re as stable as shaking hand,

But smile so no one knows.

 

How much do you see with your eyes closed?

How much do you hear with your mouth wide open?

Oh, they could’ve changed you,

But this was much more entertaining.

 

Brace yourself for the break down,

You knew it was time for a new.

This set of cryptic secrets, reveal what you suspected we knew.

The price of our freedom is freedom to choose,

But you blame the victim for all you make them lose.

 

How much do you see with your eyes closed?

How much do you hear with your mouth wide open?

Oh, they could’ve changed you,

But this was much more entertaining,

And oh,

How much do you see with your eyes wired closed?

How much do you hear with your mouth wide open?

Oh, this was much more entertaining,

Oh, this was much more entertaining.

Masterpiece

Is it some kind of sign when I don’t hear you breathe,

Should I make an excuse to go when you want me to?

Imagine all the tiny stars went out,

We’d sit here in the dark,

Imagine all the tiny stars went out,

We’d sit here in the dark.

 

You take all my oxygen away from me,

To start a fire bigger than both of our broken hearts,

I’m left to stare in wonder,

At the destruction of the masterpiece of us.

The masterpiece of us…

 

This is not just a phase can’t bulldoze through this roughness,

I can’t stand my relfection when there’s guilt in my eyes.

I don’t know what I’m sorry for,

I guess I’m not still when you leave me on the floor.

Imagine all the tiny stars went out,

I would sit here in the dark.

Imagine all he tiny stars went out,

I would sit here in the dark.

 

You take all my oxygen away from me,

To start a fire bigger than both of our broken hearts,

I’m left to stare in wonder,

At the destruction of the masterpiece of us.

The masterpiece of us…

You take all my oxygen away from me,

To start a fire bigger than both of our broken hearts,

I’m left to stare in wonder,

At the destruction of the masterpiece of us.

The masterpiece of us…

Imagine all the tiny stars…

All the tiny stars…

Blew out.

Collars

In this kind of sunshine, it makes me squint at the light,

I can’t see your smile so clear, but I can hear it in your voice,

And I can tell what you’re smiling at, (smiling at),

It’s not me, woah no, I don’t do that to you,

They only do that to you, and I am much different.

 

They force you into their collars,

They force you into their boxes.

They take away all of your colors.

Oh…

 

And here, you stand,

A stranger, too,

I pretend I don’t know you,

Not yet, Not anymore.

Not anymore,

A stranger.

 

Dance beneath the wind and moonlight,

Your faults can’t be seen so clear tonight,

I’m only a few back, I guess it’s a little hard to tell,

Who’s wrong here, when you keep messing up,

And I keep on pretending it’s okay.

But no,

But no, it’s not okay.

 

They force you into their collars,

And they fit you into ther boxes,

They take away all of you colors,

Oh..

And here, you stand,

A stranger, too,

I pretend I don’t know you,

Not yet, Not anymore.

Not anymore,

A stranger.

 

I’m not a stranger, not yet, not anymore,

Not a stranger, not a stranger,

Look in your face, do I see a friend?

Not a stranger, not a stranger, not yet, not anymore.

They only do that to you, and I am much different.

They only do that to me, not you, are you different? (like me)

They only do that to you, and I am much different.

They only do that to me, not you, are you different? (like me)

They only do that to you, and I am much different.

They only do that to me, not you, are you different? (like me)

 

They force you into their collars,

They force you into their boxes.

They take away all of your colors.

Oh…

 

And here, you stand,

A stranger, too,

I pretend I don’t know you,

Not yet, Not anymore.

Not anymore,

A stranger.

  (like me) (like me) (like me)

Count The Scars

I can picture your face when you get this letter

I can hear the sobs that it may produce

And i’m sorry, but to get better,

We’ve got to tie the ends that lay loose.

It’s not about leaving you behind,

It’s not about wanting to stay.

I’ve got to go where I’m not yet welcomed,

I’ve got to find where my air can fill a space.

 

Will you still be the same when I’m gone?

Do I want you to be, or do I want you sad?

You can carry on with out me.

I want all of my footsteps traced back right to my feet,

Count the scars I make when I leave, cause I’m sorry,

But I just have to go.

 

I’m too tired to raise my voice, I’m too tired to argue.

I never make my point, and I never get through.

Your halo shine’s too bright for me to keep standing in this room,

My guilt can’t keep me chained,

Where we are I find it hard to smile,

Your hopes won’t make me stay,

I’ve a feeling i’ll be gone a while.

 

Will you still be the same when I’m gone?

Do I want you to be, or do I want you sad?

You can carry on with out me.

I want all of my footsteps traced back right to my feet,

Count the scars I make when I leave, cause I’m sorry,

But I just have to go.

 

I can see your face when you read this letter.

Count the scars, count the scars,

Cause I’m sorry but I just have to go,

You made me have to go.

 

Will you still be the same when I’m gone?

Do I want you to be, or do I want you sad?

You can carry on with out me.

I want all of my footsteps traced back right to my feet,

Count the scars I make when I leave, cause I’m sorry,

But I just have to go.

It Mattered

I watch your lips move,

But don’t hear the sounds,

I should be done with this conversation,

Cause it’s been so long,

Since we’ve said anything at all.

 

It mattered to you before,

That I was comfortable,

That I was sure.

 

And now all we’ve got are these habits,

And they’re tearing us apart,

I’m not just one of your habits,

I won’t sit here, and watch us, fall apart.

 

Please pass the salt,

But your arm can’t quite reach,

Across the distant great, between us.

Can’t meet your eyes, it makes me wanna cry,

Cause this distant between us, keeps me alive.

 

It mattered to you before,

That I was comfortable,

That I was sure.

 

And now all we’ve got are these habits,

And they’re tearing us apart,

I’m not just one of your habits,

I won’t sit here, and watch us, fall apart.

 

Does it matter, now?

Does it matter?

I’m uncomfortable, I’m unsure.

 

It mattered to you before,

That I was comfortable,

That I was sure.

 

And now all we’ve got are these habits,

And they’re tearing us apart,

I’m not just one of your habits,

I won’t sit here, and watch us, fall apart.

 

You might as well, go now.

Stop moving your lips when you make no sound.

You might as well go.

The End

You’re built on the drama,

You’re built on the hype.

Your bad habits will break you,

But you’ll stay whole for the night,

Oh for the night.

 

You live for the moments,

That you can twist in your hands,

All your followers dreams,

All your big, big plans.

Oh all your big, big plans.

 

Your story will end,

When they finally see,

Your making pretend,

Not what you seem to be.

Your story will end,

When you truly admit,

You’re less than they asked for,

And Can’t make up for it.

This fairytale ends.

Too Cold

I only wanna keep you safe,

But the sound of my tears,

Only keeps you awake.

I know, it’s been a lot to take,

I can’t imagine how you deal with the pain.

 

I can, I will, be strong for you.

I can, I will, hold your hand,

When it gets too cold to feel.

I can, I will, be strong for you.

But I need you to,

To give me a reason to be strong.

 

I only wanna keep you happy,

But the sounds of my fears,

Only reach you, sadly,

I know, it’s a been too much to take,

I can’t imagine how you deal with the pain.

 

I can, I will, be strong for you.

I can, I will, hold your hand,

When it gets too cold to feel.

I can, I will, be strong for you.

But I need you to,

To give me a reason to be strong.

 

To feel this pain, it means your alive,

Barely, barely,

It can be hard to smile,

But if you need me, you know where to find me.

I can, I will, be strong for you.

I can, I will, hold your hand,

When it gets too cold to feel.

I can, I will, be strong for you.

But I need you to,

To give me a reason to be strong.

Sigh

I’m not with you for your looks,

I’m not with you for your money.

I’m not with you for what’s in the bedroom,

But if I was that’d be kinda funny.

I’m not with you for your smile,

I’m not with you for conversation

But all of these things together,

Make you sound kind of amazing.

 

You don’t tell me how to feel,

Sometimes you just let me cry.

You don’t tell me what to think

But you tell me what’s on your mind.

I like that you do all these things,

But I love that you’d like to hear me sigh.

Forgetting Me

I can go away any place I like

If you wanna follow well that’s just fine

Don’t make me wait for some nice sunrise

We leave tonight, we leave tonight.

 

The forks in our way try to pick us apart,

The camera angle’s just no good for getting me

They keep forgetting me.

 

We can look anyway we want

Our bad behavior spits on each others hearts

But leave my eyes to what you taunt

This road’s done more love than you ought to

 

The forks in our way try to pick us apart,

The camera angle’s just no good for getting me

They keep forgetting me.

 

Hear the wind play, all our favorite songs,

I told you I won’t wait, not all night long,

But if you wanna stay, don’t try to change my mind,

I’ll leave today, I gotta leave tonight.

 

The forks in our way try to pick us apart,

The camera angle’s just no good for getting me

They keep forgetting me.

Let This Night Go

I forgot how to breathe when you walked in the room,

I forgot how to speak when you didn’t talk to me.

It didn’t seem to affect you, when I came and went.

I have nowhere to go now, but I still want what I can’t.

I started thinking that this was a waste of my time,

I started thinking maybe I should just get some sleep…

 

Let this night go,

Forget how our hearts glow,

Under the soundtrack of the stars.

Let our minds go,

Learn how to be more,

Than the people we think we are.

Who do we think we are?

 

Suddenly, we’re alone in the room,

Suddenly, I’ve never felt so confused.

It didn’t seem to affect you, when I said I didn’t care,

Did you know I was lying? Did you wanna be anywhere but there?

I starting thinking I should tell you what’s on my mind,

You started leaving so I guess we’ll do this some other time.

 

Let this night go,

Forget how our hearts glow,

Under the soundtrack of the stars.

Let our minds go,

Learn how to be more,

Than the people we think we are.

Who do we think we are?

 

I can’t let you walk away,

Without saying what I have to say,

I only wanna be me when you’re there to see it.

I can’t just let you walk away,

Without saying what I still have yet to say,

I only wanna be me when you’re there to see it.

Please be here to see it.

 

Let this night go,

Forget how our hearts glow,

Under the soundtrack of the stars.

Let our minds go,

Learn how to be more,

Than the people we think we are.

Who do we think we are?

 

Don’t let this night go,

Watch our hearts glow,

Underneath the soundtrack of the stars.

Let our minds go,

Learn how to just be,

Who we think we are.

This is who we think we are.

We think we are.

Footprints

Zebra’s dont change stripes.

I don’t know what I expected you to do.

It wouldn’t be me to ever look at things twice,

Maybe from a different view,

Maybe I could’ve looked away from you.

 

You may have left your shoes by the door,

But you still left foot prints on my floor,

Left your foot prints on me, oh.

You may left your markers in your car,

But you still marked up all of my walls,

Left your mark on me, oh.

When you left.

When you left.

 

I stood still, watched world just turning around,

Traced your footprints til they reached the clouds,

I’m sorry I wasn’t what you need,

I’m sorry if that made you leave.

 

Now I found someone who thinks like me,

Please be happy, please be happy,

You took whatever you needed.

Even if they leave, I might end up clean,

You were the only one ever messy enough to leave marks on me.

 

You may have left your shoes by the door,

But you still left foot prints on my floor,

Left your foot prints on me, oh.

You may left your markers in your car,

But you still marked up all of my walls,

Left your mark on me, oh.

When you left.

When you left.

Layed Up

A night so still like the one we share,

It could break my heart, if I pretended to care.

You breath so heavy, when we part,

I wonder if you’ll make it, I can’t tell from the dark.

Pull me back from outer space

Let me leave lip stick marks all over your face.

 

Quick love, is a safe love.

Get behind a wall before you’re backed into a corner

A trip to the coroner,

Layed up with a fever, til it burned you out.

Quick love, is a safe love.

Get behind a wall before you’re backed into a corner.

 

I thank you, I thank you, for the wonderful time,

The chemistry is real, and so are the smiles.

Keep this, as a souvenir,

Of that one night memory, we were the only ones here.

Pull me back from outer space,

Let me leave lip stick marks all over your face.

 

Quick love, is a safe love.

Get behind a wall before you’re backed into a corner

A trip to the coroner,

Layed up with a fever, til it burned you out.

Quick love, is a safe love.

Get behind a wall before you’re backed into a corner.

 

The morning comes quicker than my regret.

If only I’d not been warned before we met.

Love is such a promise fulfilled by so few,

I don’t trust you, but I love you, it’s not me it’s  surely you.

Have fun, in this web, this tangled mess,

Of hand-holding heartbreak that never ends.

 

Quick love, is a safe love.

Get behind a wall before you’re backed into a corner

A trip to the coroner,

Layed up with a fever, til it burned you out.

Quick love, is a safe love.

Get behind a wall before you’re backed into a corner.

Live Without

I pray to God that your heaven,

Stays right here next to me,

But if something should ever take you away,

I hope I’ll be okay, because

 

I feel so forgiven,

When you seep into my skin,

I feel so forgiven,

And I wonder where you end and where I ..

I feel so forgiven,

When I’m only feeling sorry for myself,

And now I honestly can’t see myself,

Ever being capable, to live without

 

Every night, I lay by your side,

Listening to you breathing,

Listenig to you breath in.

 

The city streets in your head, are so clean,

So defenseless,

I wanna make that home, forever.

 

I pray to God that your heaven,

Stays right here next to me,

But if something should ever take you away,

I hope I’ll be okay, because

 

I feel so forgiven,

When you seep into my skin,

I feel so forgiven,

And I wonder where you end and where I ..

I feel so forgiven,

When I’m only feeling sorry for myself,

And now I honestly can’t see myself,

Ever being capable, to live without

Say It

Just say it, say you’re gonna walk away,

Tell me you can’t help me, so you don’t wanna try.

I won’t have to feel that bad, for wasting all your time.

Just say it.

 

Just say it, the fires spread, lighting up your nights,

So you don’t need me, I was hard to hold on to anyways,

Our fireworks keep on turning gray,

You think so, just say it.

 

Cut your tongue out,

Give it to me,

I’ll cry this out,

Maybe, someday.

Cut your tongue out,

I need to hear,

Let your thoughts out,

Give it to me, please.

 

Just say it, I watch your lips curl into lies,

I can’t listen to your well-meant, well-said, bullshit,

Secrets I can handle what your still afraid of, deny,

This can’t work, just say it.

 

Cut your tongue out,

Give it to me,

I’ll cry this out,

Maybe, someday.

Cut your tongue out,

I need to hear,

Let your thoughts out,

Give it to me, please.

 

He says, hold on,

I can see that we’re not done,

I’ll stay by your side,

As long as you need me,

As long as you want me,

Cut my tongue,

But it won’t ever tell you goodbye,

I may not help you, but I just want one more try.

 

Cut my tongue out,

Gave it to you,

Don’t cry, not now,

Never, anyday,

Cut my tongue out,

You had to hear,

Let my thoughts out,

I love you, my dear.

 

I just said it,

He just said it,

I think so.

I just said it,

He just said it.

These

These are the moments I steal from Satan,

In between midnight and morning.

I listen to you breathe,

I can pretend you’re dreaming of me.

 

These are the days that I keep in my head,

When everything’s wrong,

And nothing get’s said to make it better.

 

Every time, I’m hypnotized,

By the smile I find myself making,

The effort you make it seem worth taking,

Every time, I’m hypnotized,

I’m hypnotized, I’m hypnotized.

 

There are the secrets I keep in my pockets,

Stow them safe away.

I know you don’t care to hear them

When they’re nothing I care to say.

 

These are the days left on the floor,

Where all we do is play some board games,

Roll that pair of dice until you’re all I understand.

 

Every time, I’m hypnotized,

By the smile I find myself making,

The effort you make it seem worth taking,

Every time, I’m hypnotized,

I’m hypnotized, I’m hypnotized.

 

Getting weaker by the moment,

Loving every second I hold your hand.

Don’t look now I may be falling,

But this doesn’t hurt like it should.

 

Maybe I’m…

Every time, I’m hypnotized,

By the smile I find myself making,

The effort you make it seem worth taking,

Every time, I’m hypnotized,

I’m hypnotized, I’m hypnotized.

Take Me Home

I can only talk to myself for so long,

Before even I think I’m going insane.

I can only hold it in myself for so long,

Before I haveta scream.

This has made me hate myself for so long,

That I can even laugh back at it.

This has made me hold my smile in,

For so long, For so long, I haveta get back at it.

 

There are places to go,

There’s an open road,

I don’t wanna go home,

I don’t wanna go home.

 

This isn’t where I came from,

This isn’t where I wanna be,

This isn’t who I thought I’d be by now.

 

There are places to go,

There’s an open road,

I don’t wanna go home,

I don’t wanna go home.

There are places to go,

There’s an open road,

I don’t wanna go home,

I don’t wanna go home.

 

This was a mistake, I’m sorry I came,

I’m sorry

Now, whoa,

Now.

There’s nowhere to go,

I’ve run  out of road,

Take me home.

 

I can only talk to myself for so long,

Before even I think I’m going insane.

This has made me hold my smile in,

For so long, for so long,

Won’t you take me back home.

Won’t you take me back…

Take me home.

Now.

Before I haveta scream

Won’t you take me back,

Won’t you take me home.

Take me home.

Lions

I’ve had some time to tame the lions I lay with;

Raise the curtains that keep me fenced in.

This worry’s no longer your fear,

Your shadow’s no longer here,

And I am the only sun.

It’s hard to say but you’re not the only one.

Forever For You

 

We’ve all got a song we need to sing to somebody,

This is me singing to you.

There’s not much left to go by,

But I’d go anywhere for you.

Time is just a margin,

Invisible insignificant,

If you asked me to,

I’d wait here forever for you.

I’ll Miss You (Good Riddance)

Their masks are painted on,

But it takes too long,

To wash their faces clean.

It’s such a sad song,

Plays all night long,

And when he wakes up she’ll be history.

Good riddance, baby.

 

I’ve never been good at good byes,

Never been one for good byes.

You make it easy, I’ll say I’ll miss you

But it’s easy to lie.

 

Her dances are cheap,

But it’s all too brief,

His taste is one never satisfied.

I see it now, I see.

It neither one of you, it’s me,

Who needs to find more in this life.

Good riddance, baby.

 

I’ve never been good at good byes,

Never been one for good byes.

You make it easy, I’ll say I’ll miss you

But it’s easy to lie.

 

Oh, I bet it was easy to lie.

Good riddance, baby.

Good riddance, baby.

But it’s easy to lie.

 

I’ve never been good at good byes,

Never been one for good byes.

You make it easy, I’ll say I’ll miss you

But it’s easy to lie.

 

Goodbye

Like what you see in the candle light?

Good riddance, baby.

Best Friends and Too Much Reading

I’m just gonna talk here, if that’s okay? Over the past couple years I’ve tried to learn stuff about people, and especially myself, and this blog has been an extremely useful tool for that. I just finished a really good book called the Secret Life of Prince Charming and really. It was mostly about ex boyfriends and how bad guys are for you and how there are a lot of assholes. But, as a heterosexual female, the book also spoke to me directly. You wouldn’t have half as many bad memories of assholes if you didn’t spend so much time with them. No one even reads this so I’m gonna include a personal anecdote. …Two? Two years ago, more or less, I think, I had this best friend. I mean, we kissed and did the whole, we’re twelve but I love you thing, and it was so real for me, but he was always my best friend first you know? And then when he wasn’t anymore, when he acted more like my boyfriend, I thought I had to act more like his girlfriend. And that never really felt right. And then one day my best friend starting avoiding me, and I started feeling relieved and I HATED that. So I thought maybe the more I missed him, the sooner he’d come back and be normal. Either  I didn’t miss him enough, or that didn’t work. (And believe me, I missed him a lot) And now I don’t hate that sense of relief when he avoided me. I’m thankful for it. It should have been a signal something was wrong, and it was. I just chose to ignore that for a long time. And that was so stupid. Because it prevented me from getting closer to someone else, a new best friend. One that’s my best friend today. And who knows what’ll happen with us. I could write a blog about him in two years, but there’s only one thing I hope. I hope I don’t say similar things. They were both great guys, though. To me anyways. Who even knows if I knew/know the real them. Who even knows if real people exist. But I at least want to learn from myself. From the ways that I suspended my own loneliness out of patience. And even now how I let fear keep me out of things. But hey. That’s what best friends are for, right?

Somewhere Someway

Somewhere people love you,

It’s not that far away.

I don’t join the masses, though,

Don’t look for my face,

Though I wish you would.

 

Somewhere there’s a heart for you,

That’s why I haveta go.

I know that you’re farsighted

You don’t say when I stand too close,

Though I wish you would.

 

Somewhere it’s not strange for you,

To always wear a smile.

I live there in my day dreams,

You never ask me where I go those times.

Though I wish you would.

 

Somewhere, somewhere, somewhere,

Someway we’ll get out of here.

I’ll take you somewhere, somewhere, somewhere,

Someway.

What Kind

I see that girl,

I feel so bad for her,

She treats you like her world,

She looks so familiar.

This can’t be myself,

Falling back to you,

It’s gotta be somebody else,

Someone who never knew.

 

What kind of hell,

You are for a heart.

What kind of hell

You are for a heart.

Like mine.

 

I see that girl,

The one that you talk to,

Only when it’s dark in your world,

And she’s got a candle.

This can’t be myself,

Falling back to you,

It’s gotta be somebody else,

Someone who never knew.

 

What kind of hell,

You are for a heart.

What kind of hell

You are for a heart.

Like mine.

 

Falling back to you…

Falling back,

Falling back.

Right back into you…

What kind of hell,

You are for a heart.

What kind of hell

You are for a heart.

Like mine.

 

What kind of hell,

What kind of hell,

What kind of girl falls back to that.

The kind like mine.

What kind of hell,

You are for a heart.

What kind of hell

You are for a heart.

Like mine.

It Gets Better

You keep your blind fold on,

Somethings you just don’t wanna see,

You just don’t need to see.

You keep your doors locked, just in case,

Blinds down, Cause everybody’s peeking in,

Everybody’s trying to see.

 

You’re learning everyday now,

Oh,

And it get’s better,

It get’s better,

Without you trying so hard to be,

What they wanna see,

What they wanna see,

Your learning everyday, now,

Oh.

 

You keep their blindfold on,

CAuse you know somethings are to know,

Harder to see, yes,

So?

Underneath that darkened sky,

You keep your eyes wide open,

Waiting to see the sun.

But yes. So what?

 

You’re learning everyday now,

Oh,

And it get’s better,

It get’s better,

Without you trying so hard to be,

What they wanna see,

What they wanna see,

Your learning everyday, now,

Oh.

 

You’re learning everyday now,

Oh,

And it get’s better,

It get’s better,

Without you trying so hard to be,

What they wanna see,

What they wanna see,

Your learning everyday, now,

Oh.

Promise You

If my tongue betrays me

If my fears eat me alive

If my cross starts burning

Beneath this open sky

Then everything is lost

But I had things to lose

My silver lining’s beautiful

I bet it’s gray to you.

 

If I lose my balance

On the highest wire

If I forget my place

If it’s at the worst time

I’ll know I paid the price

But it was worth the cost

Of giving everything

Instead of giving up

 

Hope can save our lives

I’ll put my neck to that

Hope can save your life

I can promise that

My faith can promise that

 

If I wake up dead

In your broken arms

You’ll know we spent the night

Dreaming of eachother

It isnt much to hold on to

And there is much to fear

But what' goes on around us

Makes us love what goes on here

My silver lining’s beautiful

I bet it’s gray to you.

 

Hope can save our lives

I’ll put my neck to that

Hope can save your life

I can promise that

My faith can promise that

 

My faith can promise you that

It’s not so hard to believe

It’s not hard to see

My faith can promise you that

Memories

Join me in my

Circle of truth.

Here and only here,

I, will be honest with you.

You’re the only one I’d miss.

If it ever came to that.

Your memory would be too valuable to part with.

 

Join me in this

Hole I dug,

Of friendships gone, cause they never begun,

My hands wait to hold yours,

If it ever came to that.

Your memory would be too valuable to let go of.

 

Our escape,

My escape

From myself,

Somewhere into you.

Watch me now,

Teach me how,

To be as silently good as you.

 

Join me in my

Diary where

You grace every page,

Every single page,

And I know exactly how to make people see me.

If it ever came to that.

Your memory is too valuable to fade.

Halo

You expect me

To be the good girl,

Just like I’ve always been.

You look back at me,

When you run away,

I wonder where you’re going.

 

But tonight I feeling an aching,

Gonna get crazy.

 

Forgot my halo at home, oh oh oh.

Too far to run back and get it,

I’ll survive with out it, one night.

Forgot my halo at home, oh oh oh,

Can’t sleep without it,

So don’t make me sleep alone.

 

You were expecting

That charming rose bud,

My thorns are charming too.

I’m sure you’re taking,

All the pictures,

Remind me in the morning,

Ask me who I thought I was.

 

But tonight I feel an aching,

Gonna get crazy.

 

Forgot my halo at home, oh oh oh.

Too far to run back and get it,

I’ll survive with out it, one night.

Forgot my halo at home, oh oh oh,

Can’t sleep without it,

So don’t make me sleep alone.

 

Spoken:

I never do things like this.

I never do things like this.

 

Forgot my halo at home, oh oh oh.

Too far to run back and get it,

I’ll survive with out it, one night.

Forgot my halo at home, oh oh oh,

Can’t sleep without it,

So don’t make me sleep alone.

Here and Now

I can’t believe what I am saying

I hope your concience is as loud as mine

Here and now I am not breathing

The space between us is so suffocating

 

The clouds behind your eyes are fading

The thoughts behind them are

Finally singing to me

 

Here and now becomes a burden

To everything that I believe in

Spending hours never blinking

Ships in our minds, they keep on sinking

The waves of doubt are relentless

Here and now

 

Here and now this faith is dying

Reflect my truth in all your lies

Here and now, I could end tonight

 

What you said cannot be bigger than what you’ll never say

My kiss reaches lips,

My kiss reaches lips,

Concealing foreign tongues of emotion,

Warm to the touch of your skin,

The darker side of you is hiding in your head.

 

Here and now

I am not breathing,

Becomes a burden,

This faith is dying

Here and now

This Martyr’s Weekend

Look over at the candle’s flicker

Blow it out, put it out of it’s misery,

You’re not considerate, I wouldn’t consider that,

You just like sitting in the dark you made.

 

You’re a martyr who died with the devil’s tongue in your ear,

Every prayer you ever whispered was, for them to hear

 

Oh, oh,

Kneel, oh,

3 days, spent dead,

3 days, spent dead.

Cross your heart, hope not to die,

Not tonight,

Just one more sunrise,

Let them see you kneel.

 

Christen me the antichrist,

But you have no idea what you say,

Lead me up to your altar,

Let me sit here and stare,

You wear a mask, so no one can see,

Just how little you care.

 

You’re a martyr who died with the devil’s tongue in your mouth,

You ask him where you’re going but you can figure it out.

 

Oh, oh,

Kneel, oh,

3 days, spent dead,

3 days, spent dead.

Cross your heart, hope not to die,

Not tonight,

Just one more sunrise,

Let them see you kneel.

Play Dead

My fear feeds me all my nerves worst nightmares.

One at a time, til I can’t close my eyes,

And I can’t even pretend like you might care.

Teach me how to pick myself apart.

 

Silently in my saltwater grave,

Rejected by a world,

Overrun with mistakes,

That won’t take me alive.

Play dead til they close the lights.

 

Spirits tell me my suspicions were right,

It was the wrong idea, letting myself come here,

And I can’t pretend like it should even matter to you.

Teach me how to pick myself apart.

 

Silently in my saltwater grave,

Rejected by a world,

Overrun with mistakes,

That won’t take me alive.

Play dead til they close the lights.

 

You taught me well.

You taught me well.

Silently in my saltwater grave,

Rejected by a world,

Overrun with mistakes,

That won’t take me alive.

Play dead til they close the lights.

Silently in my saltwater grave,

Rejected by a world,

Overrun with mistakes,

That won’t take me alive.

Play dead til they close the lights.

Chorus

Let’s dance on all their graves,

Barefoot on our wedding days,

Cause we’re alive,

Oh every breath is a sign

Of our own survival as we survive.

The Sun

You became your own censorship,

Turn it off turn it on

What is this itch

You got everybody in your shadow

And you still can’t find the sun

Easy

I feel your belief and it’s energy

Let it bounce off the walls of me

Everything I had I’ll take with me

And love it for it’s company

 

It could be easy to do this wrong

You could be easy to forget

It could be easy to let it go

But easy, easy is easy to regret

 

I see your smile and it’s preciousness

You’re like that believer in lawlessness

He lost his head for saving a baby bird in it’s nest,

But all of the people took turns kissing his forehead.

 

It could be easy to do this wrong

You could be easy to forget

It could be easy to let it go

But easy, easy is easy is easy

It could be easy to do this wrong

You could be easy to forget

It could be easy to let it go

But easy, easy is easy is easy

 

I won’t be lonely with your doves in the palm of my hand,

I won’t forget you, trace your name in my sand,

All of the things that you pushed me to do,

All of the right ways and wrong times,

For showing me through.

 

It could be easy to do this wrong

You could be easy to forget

It could be easy to let it go

But easy, easy is easy to regret

But easy is so overrated,

Easily manipulated,

It turns on you so easily.

Oh easy…

Easy now..

Hands On Her

If I looked any less interested, you’d think I was dead,

In your fall from grace, I hope you, hit your head,

It’ll be a long trip back to normalcy,

But then you’ll have time to think how much you won’t be,

Missing me.

Keep your hands where I can see them..

 

Keep your hands on her,

While she thinks she’s yours,

Keep your hands on her,

And your eyes where they belong,

Keep your hands on her,

Don’t make this harder for yourself,

It’s not that hard for me.

Keep your hands on her,

Your hands on her.

 

Did you come with an off switch,

Maybe some spray repellant.

If your intentions were any less clear,

They would be neon lit.

I’m sure she needs her head examined being with you.

I swear that’s not a jealous tone,

It’s what I think is true…

Keep your hands where I can see them.

 

Keep your hands on her,

While she thinks she’s yours,

Keep your hands on her,

And your eyes where they belong,

Keep your hands on her,

Don’t make this harder for yourself,

It’s not that hard for me.

Keep your hands on her,

Your hands on her.

 

Don’t make this harder,

Oh, don’t make this harder,

For yourself.

Keep your hands where I can see them.

 

Keep your hands on her,

While she thinks she’s yours,

Keep your hands on her,

And your eyes where they belong,

Keep your hands on her,

Don’t make this harder for yourself,

It’s not that hard for me.

Keep your hands on her,

Your hands on her.

Every time

I have habits that should scare you away,

But you’re always half there, like a shadow in the shadows.

I’m not the best at finding words to say,

But ask me to sing and I’d be your player piano.

My greatest sins

Are my greatest fears,

You make them all so very real.

 

Everytime you look at me,

I wanna stand up and say,

Does it take you that much effort,

To look at me that way…

Everytime, everytime, everytime.

 

I say things that should scare you away,

But you’re always there, like a quiet white noise.

I’m not the best at keeping my sounds so separate,

But ask me to and I’ll make sure I’m quiet.

My greatest sins,

Are my greatest fears,

You make them look so very near.

 

Everytime you look at me,

I wanna stand up and say,

Does it take you that much effort,

To look at me that way…

Everytime, everytime, everytime.

 

Does that work every time?

Does that work every time?

 

I have habits that should scare you away…

Everytime you look at me,

I wanna stand up and say,

Does it take you that much effort,

To look at me that way…

Everytime, everytime, everytime.

Against The Fences

You walk right by me on your,

Achille’s heels.

You think you teach me lessons,

By keeping to yourself.

Your foot stuck so far,

Down your throat.

I’m surprised that you can,

Do anything but choke.

 

Step back,

Against the fences,

Against the walls.

Step back,

For fear that this might get outta control.

Step back,

I need the space,

I can whisper in your ear from here,

Step back,

Before I say something that you don’t want to hear.

 

And here it comes,

So watch me go.

This storm will tell you,

What you didn’t want to know.

I chase you away,

But you chase me around.

You let me get away,

And so I let you down.

 

Step back,

Against the fences,

Against the walls.

Step back,

For fear that this might get outta control.

Step back,

I need the space,

I can whisper in your ear from here,

Step back,

Before I say something that you don’t want to hear.

Confusion’s Masterpiece

At this point, you just look insane by its definition. The same cycles are repeating themselves. I don’t know how young I was when I this started, but young enough not to remember how old I was! That’s over a decade of the same things. IF I can realize this won’t change, why can’t you? Unless you do. And you’ve decided you don’t really care either and this is all just some kind of sick show in your head where you get to look powerful. That wouldn’t surprise me either.

Incomplete

Talk to me through your teeth,

Tell me, the stories of the life you wish you lived.

You say you’re disappointed, oh we all are honey.

Don’t take it so personally.

The sickness in the bottom of your stomach,

Won’t go away while you sleep.

You call the doctor, but he doesn’t have an answer,

So he doesn’t answer your calls.

 

Is this something worth fighting unfairly for?

Is this something worth fighting unfairly for?

Now. Is the time.

To sing for your life,

Try to make this alright,

Now is the time.

Guests

There is too little time to tell you,

Oh, but I really need to.

I wish you would put more faith in me.

I promise you’re not wasting your energy.

There are too many clouds where you come from

I can tell cause you’re not used to the sun.

I have too many voices for my one body,

They all meet in my head, like guests at a party.

 

Oh, it’s this again.

Oh it’s this conversation,

Don’t you wish, don’t you wish

You faked some deadly illness.

Oh, it’s this again, this again

Oh it’s this conversation,

Don’t you wish,

You faked some deadly illness.

 

Not even your mouth of pearls could save,

You from words I need to say.

I wish you could have more faith in me.

I swear to you I know how to keep it safe.

There are too chases were you come from,

I can tell you’ve forgotten how to run.

I have too many voices for my own body,

They all meet in my head, like guests at a party.

 

Oh, it’s this again, this again

Oh it’s this conversation,

Don’t you wish,

You had some deadly illness.

Oh, it’s this again, this again

Oh it’s this conversation,

Don’t you wish, don’t you wish,

You faked some deadly illness.

Stupid Love

He’s the boyfriend,

The one they tell stories of,

In picture books.

They call by charming,

And they’d be correct,

Don’t even get her started,

On the way he looks.

 

There’s something so stupid, bout falling in love,

You never see it coming, but you waited up,

Spending all your time just dreaming of,

What it would be like in your stupid love.

 

She’s the girlfriend,

The one they tell stories of,

In the locker room.

She’s got it to an art form,

The thing’s she does with her eyes.

 

 

Perfection has a price,

No, it can’t be nice,

To realize there’s more stupid than love.

They do what they can, though,

Live and let die,

Cause, you’re really the one I’m writing up.

 

There’s something so stupid, bout falling in love,

You never see it coming, but you waited up,

Spending all your time just dreaming of,

What it would be like in your stupid love.

 

I’m perfectly comfortable, in your stupid love.

In your stupid love, we’re in stupid love,

In your stupid love, never saw it coming.

This Winter

There’s two little tear drops,

But I won’t let them fall,

People got more problems then they can count,

And my salt water spills so easily.

 

This winter’s gonna be a cold one,

I can tell by the time that this song’s done,

I’m gonna have to write you a new one,

To find out how we’ll make it through.

 

These wars we wage, are weaponless,

But they leave such very real wounds.

People got more problems than they can count,

And my salt water’s spilling all over you.

All over you.

All over you.

 

This winter’s gonna be a cold one,

I can tell by the time that this song’s done,

I’m gonna have to write you a new one,

To find out how we’ll make it through.

This winter’s gonna be a cold one,

I can tell by the time that this song’s done,

I’m gonna have to write you a new one,

To find out how we’ll make it through.

Doesn’t He Ever

I sit here in your dark,

Just trying to find your heart,

Would you hand it over?

If I asked nicely enough.

You sit there in your dark,

Do you wonder where your heart is?

Did you give it to her?

Did she ask you nicely enough?

 

And I wonder,

If I cross his mind, at three am,

Does he ever think about me,

In a way that no one should,

Does he ever think about me,

Doesnt he ever think about me?

 

I step into the light,

Feeling brave tonight.

Would you join me here?

If I asked with my voice polite.

Would it burn your eyes?

To look into the light?

If I asked to steal your comfort,

Would you give me all your nights?

 

And I wonder,

If I cross his mind, at three am,

Does he ever think about me,

In a way that no one should,

Does he ever think about me,

Doesnt he ever think about me?

 

No, never

No, never

No, never

No, never

No, never

No, never

Well, maybe.

 

And I wonder,

If I cross his mind, at three am,

Does he ever think about me,

In a way that no one should,

Does he ever think about me,

Doesnt he ever think about me?

And I wonder,

If I cross his mind, at three am,

Does he ever think about me,

In a way that no one should,

Does he ever think about me,

Doesnt he ever think about me?

Here

The forks been cut in this, long thought open road,

Time’s made us a habit and it’s getting out of control.

I can’t smile and you can’t smile, and I know we never sleep,

Our love’s been on the run, it’s no wonder we can’t speak.

There’s something going on here,

That I don’t understand,

Why I want you to disappear,

At the same time I hold your hand.

 

And here, there’s no more safety,

Everyone is on the run,

Here there’s no protection,

Lover’s stab before your eyes,

The lovers they adore so fakely,

You are no exception.

I find myself alone.

 

There will be no power struggle, you’ve clearly already won.

But patience means victory, and I’ve all the time in the world,

Everyday there’s one more storm, one more tear to count,

We can’t ever say goodbye, but we are not holding hands, it seems that they are cuffed.

There’s something going on here,

That I don’t understand,

Why I want you to disappear,

At the same time I want amends.

 

And here, there’s no more safety,

Everyone is on the run,

Here there’s no protection,

Lover’s stab before your eyes,

The lovers they adore so fakely,

You are no exception.

 

We can’t smile, we can’t speak,

I can’t take this, I can’t sleep,

I can’t close my ears to what you don’t say,

Let me go, let me mourn this broken thing.

In this place, of forgotteness,

There is an emptyness,

See it make this hole in my chest,

You’ve seen it make this hole in my chest.

There’s something going on here,

That I don’t understand,

Why I want you to disappear,

At the same time I hold your hand.

 

And here, there’s no more safety,

Everyone is on the run,

Here there’s no protection,

Lover’s stab before your eyes,

The lovers they adore so fakely,

You are no exception;

I find myself alone; this army of one.

Hearts Awake

Your gentle alarms, are often too subtle,

For this still faced clock of an empty soul,

You don’t how I got to be so cold,

But this sleep’s been longer than even you’ve been told.

My bed is warm and still, but it saves me no longer,

From a fate of love that I just can’t ignore.

 

Wake my heart,

Wake my heart,

And I’ll forever dream of you,

With my eyes open in the sunshine,

Wake my heart,

Wake my heart,

And I’ll forever be…

 

You stir me not, with your movements close,

Each step no louder than my own still lungs,

These ears want to here what your lips will promise,

These eyes want to see, the products of those promises.

My bed is warm and still, but it saves me no longer,

From the fate your love that I just won’t ignore.

 

Wake my heart,

Wake my heart,

And I’ll forever dream of you,

With my eyes open in the sunshine,

Wake my heart,

Wake my heart,

And I’ll forever be…

 

My eyes open, and I can see you,

Staring at me, black and blue,

My skin all bruised from turning in my sleep.

It’s been the longest nightmare,

The longest nightmare,

Waiting for you here to wake me,

Waiting for you here to wake me.

You whispered in my ear,

Something just for me to hear.

You said

Our hearts awake,

Our hearts awake,

To fulfill these dreams of forever you and me,

Our hearts awake,

Our hearts awake,

Now they won’t forget to dream that sleepless dream.

Gluttons Here We Go

Should I save,

The champagne glasses,

As last to break,

When tomorrow comes,

Will we celebrate?

While tonight we breathe

This dismal fate.

 

Should I wait,

For the coming on,

Of a new day,

When tomorrow comes,

Will we celebrate?

The champagne glasses,

Are last to break.

 

Here we go again,

Waiting for the knife,

Here we go again,

Here we go again,

Gluttons for misery,

Here we go again.

 

Should I leave,

Tonight’s mistakes on,

Don’t press repeat,

It’s a motive short.

Should we keep,

All of these in a box,

One day we’ll weep,

When we see the circles,

Safe for our retreat.

 

Here we go again,

Waiting for the knife,

Here we go again,

Here we go again,

Gluttons for misery,

Here we go again.

 

Here we go again,

Waiting for the knife,

Here we go again,

Here we go again,

Gluttons for misery,

Here we go again.

 

The champagne glasses,

Are last to break.

The champagne glasses,

Are last to break.

Iron And Silk

Each day, I’m more dead than the one before,

I wake up look to the broken sun,

To decide what you’re wanting from me,

On this beautiful day, In this beautiful life.

You ask me please

Take down the walls I built myself,

I can’t, they’re made of iron and silk,

You see, I say

 

And the rain keeps pouring,

We’ll keep hiding,

No they’ll never find us here.

And the pain keeps coming,

Oh but it’s coming clear,

It won’t find us here.

 

And we danced, this kind of wrong way dance,

Down your one way street.

Happiness is hard to come by,

Harder to maintain.

 

And the rain keeps pouring,

We’ll keep hiding,

No they’ll never find us here.

And the pain keeps coming,

Oh but it’s coming clear,

It won’t find us here.

 

Each breath, of oxygen,

Is just one more precious gift.

Each breath, Each breath,

Let me taste your breath my dear

 

And the rain keeps pouring,

We’ll keep hiding,

No they’ll never find us here.

And the pain keeps coming,

Oh but it’s coming clear,

It won’t find us here.

Product Of Your Love

Draw the pictures in your head,

Make believe that you don’t see,

The possibility of me waking up dead.

You’re clueless and you’re young,

But this is only just begun,

The test you haven’t studied for,

So you count the tiles on the floor.

 

You can hear the desperation,

You can hear the fear,

It trembles like the fragile earth,

When the rain hits too hard.

You can hear, you can hear,

How much you wanted to love,

How much you wanted to see the product of that love.

 

Write the lines out to the chords,

The baby girl you haven’t seen,

Hold her closer than before,

Shut your eyes and hear her breathe.

 

You can hear the desperation,

You can hear the fear,

It trembles like the fragile earth,

When the rain hits too hard.

You can hear, you can hear,

How much you wanted to love,

How much you wanted to see the product of that love.

 

Count the wires, count the wires.

Count the wires, count the wires.

 

You can hear the desperation,

You can hear the fear,

It trembles like the fragile earth,

When the rain hits too hard.

You can hear, you can hear,

How much you wanted to love,

How much you wanted to see the product of that love.

Crawl

Let your eyes crawl over me,

Would you fall all over me?

Let me be something to you.

Let your eyes crawl over me,

Would you fall over me?

Let me mean something to you.

 

This isn’t an excuse,

For, the way that you hold your head,

In your hands, in your lap,

Like it’s too weighed to look up.

Read the signs, read the map,

It’s all over my face,

I wanna see you in the darkest ways.

 

Let your eyes crawl over me,

Would you fall all over me?

Let me be something to you.

Let your eyes crawl over me,

Would you fall over me?

Let me mean something to you.

 

There is no cure,

For, the open endedness,

Of your innermost questions.

Cause theyre too thought out to lie to.

Help me here, Hold me close,

See it in my face,

I wanna see in your darkest places.

 

Let your eyes crawl over me,

Would you fall all over me?

Let me be something to you.

Let your eyes crawl over me,

Would you fall over me?

Let me mean something to you.

The Laugh

When my friends told me,

You’d be bad, I laughed it off.

When my friends told me,

What you did, I wasn’t laughing, then.

You said, you weren’t thinking,

You said you had been drinking,

Your eyes are crystal clear,

Unlike your intentions.

 

You took my hand,  you said, you said,

You’d give the world, give the stars if only I asked,

You took my heart, you said, you said,

Thanks but no thanks, that offers already came and passed.

 

When my friends told me, how stupid I looked,

I just looked away.

When my friends told me, how stupid you looked,

There was nothing for me to say.

I believed you, I believed you,

Too soon, too soon it would seem.

You’re not as sorry as you seem.

 

You took my hand,  you said, you said,

You’d give the world, give the stars if only I asked,

You took my heart, but I say, but I say,

Thanks but no thanks, that offers already came and passed.

I’ll go now, and I’ll keep laughing.

My sense of humor outshines your bad habits.

You’re not as sorry as you seem.

Oh…

You took my hand,  you said, you said,

You’d give the world, give the stars if only I asked,

You took my heart, you said, you said,

Thanks but no thanks, that offers already came and passed.

Remember my laugh.

Remember my laugh.

When my friends told me, you’d be bad,

I laughed it off.

When my friends told me, what you did,

I wasn’t laughing then.

Sympathy Well Spent

How long will you wait for a miracle?

Before you try and make your own luck.

Keep these words in your pocket,

Keep these words in your pocket.

A helpful reminder to sew your own mouth shut.

 

I keep on hearing, hearing,

How your troubles make holes in your soul,

I don’t see them, see them

Do you see them, see them,

My sympathy is spent, I’m sorry, oh.

 

How far will go for convienence?

Before you know you’re not convienent.

Keep these words in your pocket,

oh.

How long til you see that you waste it?

Waste what you need to be wanted.

Keep these words in your pocket,

Keep these words in your pocket,

I helpful reminder to sew your own mouth shut.

 

I keep on hearing, hearing,

How your troubles make holes in your soul,

I don’t see them, see them

Do you see them, see them,

My sympathy is spent, I’m sorry, oh.

I’m not sorry, oh, you should be sorry.

Oh you will be sorry.

 

Keep these words in your pocket,

Keep these words in your pocket,

A helpful reminder to sew your own mouth shut.

 

I keep on hearing, hearing,

How your troubles make holes in your soul,

I don’t see them, see them

Do you see them, see them,

My sympathy is spent, I’m sorry, oh.

The Execution

And no matter really where I look,

It’s never really in your eyes,

A stupid little fear,

But if I did would I be paralyzed?

It seems no matter how hard I try,

It’s always too hard to make you see,

That what you’ll be and who you are,

Are appealing to me.

 

Could we try this in pencil?

Shade it in lightly.

I might make mistakes,

I might make mistakes.

Could we try this in pencil?

Shade it in lightly.

I might make mistakes,

I’ve already made mistakes.

 

And no matter where my thoughts go,

They always seem to turn to you,

The way you act the way you walk,

At least how I the way they look from my point of view.

Why am I so scared of showing you,

Exactly every secret you inspire,

It was always in the plan but never quite the execution,

If your reactions been a guess I’m not great at estimation.

 

Could we try this in pencil?

Shade it in lightly.

I might make mistakes,

I might make mistakes.

Could we try this in pencil?

Shade it in lightly.

I might make mistakes,

I’ve already made mistakes.

 

Every time I fall in love,

I think that you’re the only one,

I’ll ever be able to run to,

I forget that maybe one day

You’ll forget me and run to

Somebody too.

 

Could we try this in pencil?

Shade it in lightly.

I might make mistakes,

I might make mistakes.

Could we try this in pencil?

Shade it in lightly.

I might make mistakes,

I’ve already made mistakes.

Real

You can’t make up emotions,

And I can’t pretend that I don’t love you,

It gets harder with every breath I take.

And when I decide what words to say,

It almost makes me wanna cry,

Cause you’re so real inside.

Summer Rain

You’re the perfect summer rain,

You’re keeping my temperature down,

Without freezing me out,

You’re keeping me sane,

As the storm calms down.

 

This summer has my blood too hot,

I meet you in the parking lot,

You kiss my neck like the tease you are,

Gotta get me home you open the door to my car.

It’s ironic how we become children,

And jump in every puddle on the way home.

I hear the thunder,

I see the lightning,

But with you I can be unafraid.

 

You’re the perfect summer rain,

You’re keeping my temperature down,

Without freezing me out,

You’re keeping me sane,

As the storm calms down.

 

The sunshine warms my skin,

Your fingertips leave fingerprints,

You reach my roots, you touch my core,

We lay for hours but I always am left wanting more.

It’s ironic how we become children,

And jump in every puddle on the way home.

I hear the thunder,

Oh, I see the lightning,

But with you I don’t ever have to fear.

 

You’re the perfect summer rain,

You’re keeping my temperature down,

Without freezing me out,

You’re keeping me sane,

As the storm calms down.

Everyone’s Gotta Die

I love you now, I hear your breath

Slow, gentle, calming.

I need you now, I like to care,

But I know someday you won’t be there.

 

Everyone’s gotta die,

That clock on the inside,

Keeps ticking away.

Everyone’s gotta die,

I’ll miss you the most,

Make your time with me last a little bit longer.

 

Now I love you still, more than ever,

My tears on my pillow make me remember,

How you used to feel,

How I need you near,

How I can call you anytime,

And you won’t pick up.

 

Everyone’s gotta die,

That clock on the inside,

Keeps ticking away.

Everyone’s gotta die,

I’ll miss you the most,

Make your time with me last a little bit longer.

 

When the angels call my name,

I won’t shy away.

When death makes me feel like I’ve got no control,

I’ll think of how I smiled, I’ll think how I loved,

My life is well worth living,

And I won’t die alone.

 

Everyone’s gotta die,

That clock on the inside,

Keeps ticking away.

Everyone’s gotta die,

I’ll miss you the most,

Make your time with me last a little bit longer.

In My Defense (You Taught Me How)

Sometimes when the days start out good,

I watch you take them in your hand,

And twist til theres only tears,

And only your own complaints,

Of how you’ll never live to see the next one.

How do I emerge from this,

A woman or a monster?

 

This is not my rebel,

You know why I can’t tell you,

You find out for yourself,

All the reasons I’ll hate to resent you.

In my defense, you taught me how.

In my defense, you taught me how.

 

These words are easy to write, but hard to hear,

I wanna fix whatever broke you, but I know it’s not my place.

I wanna tell you how I know things that you never told me.

You wouldn’t appreciate my peeping in,

In front of each other we dress like were for gym.

How do I emerge from this,

A mother or a monster?

 

This is not my rebel,

You know why I can’t tell you,

You find out for yourself,

All the reasons I’ll hate to resent you.

In my defense, you taught me how.

In my defense, you taught me how.

 

The strains, the cracks, they should make us build again,

You know I’d be willing,

The strains, the cracks, the should make us build again,

But I know you’re not willing,

I know you’re not willing,

You make your schedules, try and keep me in time,

Maybe then I won’t realize,

That you care any less than the last day.

 

This is not my rebel,

You know why I can’t tell you,

You find out for yourself,

All the reasons I’ll hate to resent you.

In my defense, you taught me how.

In my defense, you taught me how.

Footing

I speak the tongue the of fools, I know,

Walking around just humming.

I look the part of uncool, i know,

It’s something still becoming.

I dance within the flames, you see,

I’m warm but stay unburned,

I keep my mind on a short leash,

If it got lost, I know it wouldn’t return.

 

Sometimes it’s not so bad, just being yourself,

Sometimes it’s not so bad, sometimes it’s not so bad.

Sometimes it’s not so hard, just to be yourself,

Sometimes it’s not so hard, sometimes it’s not so hard.

 

I need to let some things go,

My ears are hot but cooled by rain,

You tried to do this to me, I know,

You tried to make me feel this pain,

I’ll spite you, come back stronger,

Once I find my footing.

I make each step much longer,

And hold close to me what I’m learning.

 

Sometimes it’s not so bad, just being yourself,

Sometimes it’s not so bad, sometimes it’s not so bad.

Sometimes it’s not so hard, just to be yourself,

Sometimes it’s not so hard, sometimes it’s not so hard.

 

Your eyes are the only ones that can judge you, you see,

Cause no one really sees you like you do,

It shouldn’t matter what they think they mean,

It doesn’t matter, oh, can’t rain forever.

The ground’s unstable but we walk to get to where we’re going.

The ground’s unstable but we walk to get to where we’re going.

The ground’s unstable but we walk to get to where we’re going.

It can’t rain forever.

 

Sometimes it’s not so bad, just being yourself,

Sometimes it’s not so bad, sometimes it’s not so bad.

Sometimes it’s not so hard, just to be yourself,

Sometimes it’s not so hard, sometimes it’s not so hard.

Pyromanian Rom-Antics

I was on fire when you said those three little words,

Now you can burn for lying like that.

You shouldn’t have said you always be there,

You never were, you never would.

It was a mess from the start,

You make everything hard,

And you got your ideas down in stone.

I can’t even argue,

That youre all out of whack,

Cause you believe that you’re not to the bone.

We had a moment of peace,

When you loved me,

I hadn’t wanted anything so badly.

But you fucked that up,

When you started talking so loud,

I couldn’t hear myself speak.

 

Now that we’ve battled it out,

Reclaimed what we lost.

I think this is something that just have to do,

To make it clear that I,

Don’t want you here,

And there’s more to me than you’ll ever know.

I’m gonna piss on your band tees,

Throw out all your nice things,

Burn every guitar you own.

I’m gonna make you wish,

That you never met me,

And never burned holes in my bed.

What It Takes

I spent fifteen minutes in your head,

Just looking for a light, so i could get around,

No wonder why you’re quiet, under my breath,

I can believe you speak without a sound.

 

Could we be forever? (and more)

Could we be forever? (and more)

Please.

I don’t wanna jump that ledge,

With anybody else.

I know if we can cross that bridge,

Paradise is on the other side,

Please.

 

I spent fifteen minutes in my car,

Just looking for a place, to get out.

I think I found it in your arms,

Close your eyes and don’t look down.

 

Could we be forever? (and more)

Could we be forever? (and more)

Please.

I don’t wanna jump that ledge,

With anybody else.

I know if we can cross that bridge,

Paradise is on the other side,

Please.

 

I know we’ve got what it takes,

To love even on our worst of days,

I know we’ve got what it takes

 

Could we be forever? (and more)

Could we be forever? (and more)

Please.

I don’t wanna jump that ledge,

With anybody else.

I know if we can cross that bridge,

Paradise is on the other side,

Please.

Some Things Are Dumb

I’m missing you again and that’s dumb of me,

Cause you never would’ve been good for me,

Even if you took it all back like you said you could,

Even if you never said a thing at all.

 

Your hands were soft, and your mouth was rough,

It was just like you to try and toughen me up,

Well get out. Hows that for tough?

Well get out. I never liked you much.

 

You walk around like you never get down,

But the truth is that you never get up.

Darling smile it off, try and shrug it off,

And surely its stupid if it won’t.

 

I’m missing you again and that’s dumb of me,

Cause you never would’ve been good for me,

Even if you took it all back like you said you could,

Even if you never said a thing at all.

 

When you write in your diary, don’t forget not to mention me,

I won’t forget not to think of you in bed.

Wash your hands, and clean the sheets,

Pretending that you’re almost too good.

 

I’m missing you again and that’s dumb of me,

Cause you never would’ve been good for me,

Even if you took it all back like you said you could,

Even if you never said a thing at all.

 

I’m missing you again and that’s dumb of me,

Cause you never would’ve been good for me,

Even if you took it all back like you said you could,

Even if you never said a thing at all.

Not One

I won’t write not one more verse,

Pretending I didn’t know you hurt,

Now it might all my fault,

It might’ve been all along.

I won’t write not one more word,

When I know how much you hurt,

Now this might be all my fault,

It might’ve been all along.

 

It’s too quiet in this house,

Your ghost lingers, I taste you in my mouth.

Like a filter of my oxygen.

Now your under a thick blanket of snow,

Winter was always your favorite, I know,

In your memories I get haunted.

 

I won’t write not one more verse,

Pretending I didn’t know you hurt,

Now it might all my fault,

It might’ve been all along.

I won’t write not one more word,

When I know how much you hurt,

Now this might be all my fault,

It might’ve been all along.

 

I think someday you’ll call,

And I won’t feel bad anymore,

Then I remember where you went.

I sing up to the stars,

Hoping you’ll sing along,

Then I remember how your song went.

 

I won’t write not one more verse,

Pretending I didn’t know you hurt,

Now it might all my fault,

It might’ve been all along.

I won’t write not one more word,

When I know how much you hurt,

Now this might be all my fault,

It might’ve been all along.

Yesterday

Leave your lovers at the door,

Here we’re lonely.

Leave the bodies on the floor,

Dont mind the mess, I’m sorry.

Save excuses for the deaf,

We know why you came.

Keep moving to the door to your left,

It’s a place where you can forget his name.

 

Bruising fades, from your face,

But shadows stay.

A waste of energy to try and get back to

Yesterday.

 

See where they keep the hard drugs,

For the bad cases just like yours.

See how they keep them locked up,

White labels, clear jars and the grey decor.

Please don’t waste your breath,

Oxygen isn’t well supplied here,

It’s all you can do to avoid your questions,

Forget what made you face these fears.

 

Bruising fades, from your face,

But shadows stay.

A waste of energy to try and get back to

Yesterday.

 

Like a scar that changes in the light,

You’ll break like dawn from this dark hour of the night.

 

Bruising fades, from your face,

But shadows stay.

A waste of energy to try and get back to

Yesterday.

Dance

I stare at you, wondering what’s on your tongue,

The words you wanna say or some other girls taste.

You stare back without ever meeting my eyes.

You think you know, how this story goes.

 

It’s an idea, it’s an idea,

To have us meet in the middle,

Dance around the subject til we all fall down.

It’s an idea, it’s an idea,

To have us put into that corner,

Dance around the subject til it all falls out.

 

I hear my phone, but I don’t answer when it’s you.

I can bet that you know when I want to.

This is so insane how we never move an inch.

But you get so far on your own.

 

It’s an idea, it’s an idea,

To have us meet in the middle,

Dance around the subject til we all fall down.

It’s an idea, it’s an idea,

To have us put into that corner,

Dance around the subject til it all falls out.

Where You Stand

Oh, it was like gasoline,

To a fire already fueled.

Oh it was everything,

Was just slipping, slipping away.

Oh, it was like your guillotine,

Too bad you already lost your head,

Oh it was like some kind of dream,

Where the nightmare never ends,

Oh it was like your childhood,

You can’t help being raised by a hurricane.

 

Who taught you how to love yourself?

And made you into a man?

Such a beautiful, first mistake,

But they only see you where you stand,

I know that you can love yourself,

If you only let yourself,

Live again.

 

Oh it was like heaven,

The calm in the eyes of the storm.

Oh it was like the beginning,

Back to when you meant something,

Oh it was like lightning,

When it hits you right between the eyes,

Oh it was like your paradise,

Hanging gently from a fragile string,

Oh it was like music box,

With that one same line it always sings.

 

Oh it was like tragedy,

Oh it was like tragedy,

A slow moving current of help me.

 

Who taught you how to love yourself?

And made you into a man?

Such a beautiful, first mistake,

But they only see you where you stand,

I know that you can love yourself,

If you only let yourself,

Live again.

Who taught you how to love yourself?

And made you into a man?

Such a beautiful, first mistake,

But they only see you where you stand,

I know that you can love yourself,

If you only let yourself,

Live again.

Blind and Bloody

Why am I always the wrong one?

Unsafe in what I say.

Prove me stupid, I dare you.

I bet it’s easier than you’d think.

Talk about me, I’m not there,

I lose my sight, nothing’s clear.

Spit your smoke at me,

Attack me from my sides,

When I’m blind, and bloody.

 

Why am I always the sad one?

Crying in the corner,

Left here to contemplate,

The choice of words, I never say.

It’s easier than you’d think.

Silence me, easily,

Tape my eyes shut,

Tell me what is real.

Spit your smoke at me,

Attack me from my sides,

When I’m blind, and bloody.

 

Oh, spit it out, spit it out,

I’m sorry for what I said,

Beat it out of me,

Beat it out of me,

That rebellious streak you see,

Sticks and stones, they break my bones,

My spirit left a long time ago.

 

Spit your smoke at me,

Attack me from my sides,

When I’m blind, and bloody.

Spit your smoke at me,

Attack me from my sides,

When I’m blind, and bloody.

War

Here they come so hide the guns,

Before you start a war.

Reasons To Lie

I know I’m selfish.

I know that I don’t deserve half this

But I take it all in with my smile.

 

I know you know that I’m lying

Convincing yourself that I’m trying

To be better; better than you think I am

 

You ask all of the right questions

Lead me in the right directions

But I’m not thirsty like a good horse should be.

 

Oh..

The truth.

The truth

Is sad sometimes.

The truth is sad sometimes.

Maybe that’s why

We find reasons to lie.

 

I know I’m stupid

You make me feel like I’m worth this,

Shaking my head all the while.

 

I know I’ve got the worst timing,

Leaving right when you’re dying,

But I shouldn’t be near your bed.

 

Sometimes I ask for mercy,

Sometimes I want you to need me,

Then I realize I’m nothing you should need.

 

Oh..

The truth.

The truth

Is sad sometimes.

The truth is sad sometimes.

Maybe that’s why

We find reasons to lie.

 

I saved all mine for you,

Had the plan but couldn’t execute,

These heart beats getting quicker cause I know.

 

This is how it ends,

How I finally win,

By showing you you are the only thing to me that is true…

 

Oh..

The truth.

The truth

Is sad sometimes.

The truth is sad sometimes.

Maybe that’s why

We find reasons to lie.

Demons

It’s the balance of reality and fiction.

Between familiarity and stranger.

When demons speak the speak the tongues of saints,

And angels strangle with their halos.

 

Deception.

Appearance.

Reality.

Eagerness to believe.

I dare you to,

I dare you to

Trust what you see.

 

It’s the balance of expectations and anticipation.

Between push and shove.

When demons speak the tongues of saints,

And kiss you gently on the forehead.

 

Deception.

Appearance.

Reality.

Eagerness to believe.

I dare you to,

I dare you to

Trust what you see.

 

Am I what you think I am?

Are you what I think you are?

Am I what I think I am?

 

Deception.

Appearance.

Reality.

Eagerness to believe.

I dare you to,

I dare you to

Trust what you see.