If You’re Wondering

I could feel you looking at me

I was too scared to look back

And let everything

Come spilling out of me

We sat on the bed

And I let you wait for the words

I knew you wanted to hear

That I just never said

 

If you’re wondering if I want you

Don’t wonder anymore

If you’re wondering if I need you

You don’t haveta wonder anymore

 

I knew you’d find somebody else

Somebody braver

But she left you lonely and you always figured

She had too much to say about everything anyway

 

If you’re wondering if I want you

Don’t wonder anymore

If you’re wondering if I need you

You don’t haveta wonder anymore

 

I’ve kept this

So buried

It seems a little strange

To be, out in the open,

Suddenly hoping, to be what you need

 

If you’re wondering if I want you

Don’t wonder anymore

If you’re wondering if I need you

You don’t haveta wonder anymore

 

I won’t wonder anymore…

Heavy

I can feel my skin is breaking

You’re getting underneath

Everything I am is shaking

You refuse to steady me

 

My eyes are all black just to cover the blue

It’s hard walking out when you know theyll follow you

 

Heavy hands, heavy hearts

And it’s all on the line

Why do I still need you, by my side

Heavy hands, heavy hearts

And it’s all on the line

But you say you still need me, by your side

 

I can taste the blood spilling from my lips

I know it’ll only be a minute til it stops

These quiet tremors while I wait for your kiss

I gotta wonder if I’d waited enough

 

My eyes are all black just to cover the blue

It’s hard walking out when you know theyll follow you

 

Heavy hands, heavy hearts

And it’s all on the line

Why do I still need you, by my side

Heavy hands, heavy hearts

And it’s all on the line

But you say you still need me, by your side

 

It’s hard walking out, it’s hard walking out

It ain’t that bad, it ain’t that bad

Your heavy hands they hit me hard

But I know it’s only you got that heavy heart

Your heavy hands, I feel them hit me hard

I gotta wonder if I should be running far

 

My eyes are all black just to cover the blue

It’s hard walking out not knowing if theyll follow you

 

Heavy hands, heavy hearts

And it’s all on the line

Why do I still need you, by my side

Heavy hands, heavy hearts

And it’s all on the line

But you say you still need me, by your side

Stay

My teeth are ground down

I can’t swallow the day to day

It seems it’s drowning me out

Taking me out to sea

Cause all I wanna do is run until I die

Away from everything that I know

Cause all I wanna do is run so far and hide

Away from everything that I can become

 

It seems the hardest thing to do

But if you asked me to do it for you

I’d stay, I’d stay

It seems the hardest thing to do

But if you asked me to do it for you

I’d stay, I’d stay

 

I’m getting shorter by the minute

My soul is thirsty for relief

There’s only one way out of this

Only one I can see

Cause all I wanna do is run until I die

Away from everything that I know

Cause all I wanna do is run so far and hide

Away from everything that I can become

 

It seems the hardest thing to do

But if you asked me to do it for you

I’d stay, I’d stay

It seems the hardest thing to do

But if you asked me to do it for you

I’d stay, I’d stay

 

I guess as long as it takes

I’ll try to be okay

where I am, Where you are

If you asked me, since you asked me

 

But if you asked me to do it for you

I’d stay, I’d stay

It seems the hardest thing to do

But if you asked me to do it for you

I’d stay, I’d stay

 

Cause all I wanna do is run until I die

Away from everything that I know

Cause all I wanna do is run so far and hide

Away from everything that I can become

It seems the hardest thing to do

 

It seems the hardest thing to do

But if you asked me to do it for you

I’d stay, I’d stay

It seems the hardest thing to do

But if you asked me to do it for you

I’d stay, I’d stay