You know I got it. So come and get it.

Wow. My back is in like enormous pain. And spit is officially the second best game, (next to poker), and yay band practice tmr!

I'm all tangled up...I can't help myself.

You know what? Why is this important? It's important because as a matter of fact, I care. And you know what else? I like these "ridiculous" earrings. Go stratch your ass mf. Now I forget what I was coming on here to say. Thans a lot.

Anger.

Anger is some thing you get from blaiming other people. You blame them for your frustration. For the emptiness you feel. For your tears. I hate DOING THIS. Other people DO NOT live like this. In the twenty minutes my mom and brother had a screaming match over studying, they could have studied everything together. It sucks. But I know that other people do not live like this. I'm deleting this the very second I get home tomorrow. I'm doing so good. I'm happy. But I'm not mad. I'm not mad at them. I'm just scared. Of what this means. Of what eveyrthing means. Anger is not something spreadable. You bring it on yourself by blaming other people.

Don't blink cause I won't be around...

I just did possibly the second best graffiti I've ever done in my life. Working on a new song, with a new concept, and a new style of writing. It's cool. I'll kepp posting on how it's working out. Um. What else? I've eaten enough cookie dough, for like....five people. And...tweaked my cookie recipe a tiny bit. I feel....reinvented. I guess. But I'm not really. Lol, I'm like that Christina Aguilera album, "Back To The Basics." Lmao. Don't know where that came from. I'm actually listening to Toby Keith right now. Some of his early stuff. I miss that stuff. My musical horizons are very much expanded, but sometimes, you just gotta stick to your first love. So wonderfully happy cause guess what? Tomorrow is friday, and that means singing lessons! Yay! I can't wait. And you know...the weekends always nice lol. I have to think of something crazy to do this weekend. Something inane. Don't ask me why, but mostly when I think of crazy I think of like....dying my hair or something. So I'm thinking, I call in reinforcements, head to the mall, go see Kae and tell her to surprise my mom. Like, suprise her, like, when she comes to get me I'm a platinim blonde. Okay no...not blonde. I look enough like a soccer mom with a long "Posh-Spice" thing going on....But you know what I'm talking about. I'm bored. Bored with myself. And...that's no fun lol. Also...I'm trying to work out a first practice this weekend....trying to think how it could work. Vrai I don't think could make it, but me, Jay, and Aimez could work something out. I hope. La. La. La. La. La. La. La. La. La. La.

Don't let me stop you...

Like....hi. How are you? I'm fine thanks. Thats an awesome conversation. Right? Right. That's what I thought lmao. Some people think so. I don't really. So...if thats how youre conversations are doomed to be with someone, why bother? Why put yourself through that? LOL. Anyway....i dont care that much. I really really dont. And people can believe me or not believe me. I'm fine with that. lol. Yes. There is in fact a band. A band of aimez on keyboards...jay on guitar....gab on drums....and me singing. Its an awesome band and is in fact gonna kick tom and rizzi's "monkey band" because....they are not awesome and i am in fact insulted that chris and tom did not wanna be in a band with me. Anyway....i've been writing a lot of angry music lately, and not sleeping. i'm really tired. Like.....reeeeeally tired.

Any moment. Everything can change.

Alright. It feels like I haven't posted in awhile. Maybe I have. I don't really know. I'll check later. I almost feel like a puppy lately. I can never tell how much time has passed or how much I have left. It's nauseating. Anyway, I have c/a homework to do on Buddy Holly, and I'm actually in the mood to watch La Bamba, but w/e. I feel better lately. Friday feels like it was a hundred years ago. But I know I'm not imagning things and I know I'm not crazy. I just got home from my brother's baseball practice and you know what? I talked to a very nice old man there who somehow in god's name knew what I am going through and had some vague idea of what I was talking about. Which is really strange. But he was nice. Somethings in life you're just better off without. Cigarettes are one of them. MY LOVE MY LOVE I thought I picked you from a crowd, but now, you're nothing I can't live without......"Half The Girl"

Keep your thing in your pants and your heart on your sleeve!

Wow...no comment on the basketball game. I had a couple of rough moments there. But it was a lot of fun. I guess. Anyway. Still didn't talk to anyone. I'm sposed to go to the movies with my mom and brothers in a little while though, so maybe I'll talk to someone there. I'm in love with Kelly Clarkson's new songs on "All I Ever Wanted." Just thought you should know. And thanks to Christina I'm like a thousand percent better singer than I have ever been--and it doesn't hurt. Which feels awesome. Um...I'm gonna go. I have a lot more to say but so little time. OH NO .... I do not hook up UP. I go slow!