The Bottom

Goodnight, lonely prince

It’s too bad about your father

And those awful things he said

Please don’t listen, no don’t bother

Maybe I can coax some kindness out

A little for the two of us, to share

Keep between us,

For the lonely nights to bear

 

I will tie you the bible

And watch you sink down to the bottom

All apologies unspoken

But your pride still left unbroken

I will tie you to the bible

And watch you sink down to the bottom

Waiting for an answer

To the question you never asked

 

Wake up, you’re the new king

Tried to warn you when I could

We could’ve ran back then but now

You’ve inherited his troubles

 

I will tie you the bible

And watch you sink down to the bottom

All apologies unspoken

But your pride still left unbroken

I will tie you to the bible

And watch you sink down to the bottom

Waiting for an answer

To the question you never asked

 

Could’ve saved you, could’ve dug you from his hole

Now you watch me, with dry eyes now icy cold

If you hate me, maybe I can only blame myself

For seeing truths where, I hadn’t learned to doubt

 

I should’ve tied you to the bible

And watch you sink down to the bottom

My apologies, unspoken

But your pride still left unbroken

Should’ve tied me to the bible

Watched me sink down to the bottom

Waiting for an answer

To the questions I never should’ve asked

I never should’ve asked

Taxes

Hands out towards me

But it’s not me you want

I know, I’ve seen that look before

I am just a little person

In this big machine

Go ahead and take your taxes

I am what you need

 

My skeleton’s a little ground down now

From all your weather, all you storms

I know you blame me for my weakness

But I forgive you yours

 

Come, running for me

Cry out for my help

I will answer your call

Every time it comes

Come, running for me

And you won’t have to ask

I’ll be waiting for the cry

I’ll hand over your taxes

 

Your knees are just a little cut up now

In all your praying, you still fell

I know I hurt you in the past

But you forgave me for that

 

Come, running for me

Cry out for my help

I will answer your call

Everytime it comes

Come, running for me

And you won’t have to ask

I’ll be waiting for the cry

I’ll hand over your taxes

 

I’m just a little person

In this machine

Go ahead take your taxes

I am what you need

I’m just a little person

In this big machine

Go ahead take your taxes

I am what you need

 

Come, running for me

Cry out for my help

I will answer your call

Everytime it comes

Come, running for me

And you won’t have to ask

I’ll be waiting for the cry

I’ll hand over your taxes

Circle

Right left, up down

And every in between

You’ve made every decision

From the bend of your knee

Cuts, scrapes, scars I’ve see them all across your skin

You never know the danger til you see what you might’ve been

 

Cause you live and you learn (live and you learn)

From all that you’ve been (all that you’ve been)

One too many times I’ve seen you circle

One too many times I’ve seen you circle

Giving Me Up

How many times have I tried

To get over myself over night

I’ve lost count, of the ways your eyes

Have hit me in the morning

To see I’m still alive

I’m still alive

 

Your silence is giving me up

I think that I might have had enough

All of the distance, spreading in my chest

Never imagined you’d ever be giving me up

All of your sadness, spreading in my chest

Never imagined you’d ever be giving me up

 

How many times did we lie

Laughed at ourselves til we cried

I’ve lost count of the ways that you sigh

When it hits you when its over

That you’re still alive

You’re still alive

 

Your silence is giving me up

I think that I might have had enough

All of the distance, spreading in my chest

Never imagined you’d ever be giving me up

All of your sadness, spreading in my chest

Never imagined you’d ever be giving me up

 

Tied like the fates to just one more loose tooth

Making mistakes on the way

All of the times that I needed you, needed you to say

Anything, anything at all

To keep me alive

To keep us alive

To keep this alive

 

Your silence is giving me up

I think that I might have had enough

All of the distance, spreading in my chest

Never imagined you’d ever be giving me up

All of your sadness, spreading in my chest

Never imagined you’d ever be giving me up

The Future

Stay with me

And I’ll find a reason to make sense

Just stay with me

And I will exceed what you expect

They don’t know

What is coming

 

I’ve seen the future,

I am it for you, my dear

I’ve seen the future,

And it looks pretty good from here

I’ve seen the future,

I am it for you, my dear

I’ve seen the future,

And I will live to see it here.

 

Follow me

And I will take you to a place

So safe, they’ll never let me fall

They don’t know

What is coming

 

I’ve seen the future,

I am it for you, my dear

I’ve seen the future,

And it looks pretty good from here

I’ve seen the future,

I am it for you, my dear

I’ve seen the future,

And I will live to see it here.

 

Now, now

All I have is all I am

And all I know is

How to grow

Now, now

All I have is all right here

But stay with me

Stay with me

 

I’ve seen the future,

I am it for you, my dear

I’ve seen the future,

And it looks pretty good from here

I’ve seen the future,

I am it for you, my dear

I’ve seen the future,

And I will live to see it here.

 

I’ve seen the future,

Stay with me,

I’ll find a reason to make sense

I’ve seen the future,

And I will live to see it here.

Someone Else

How does what I have

Fit with what you have

The pieces may grind

How does what you need

Fit with what I need

Do they combine

 

I don’t wanna find someone else like you

I don’t wanna find someone else like me

How can I tell you

I don’t want you to leave

It’s you, for me, for me, it’s you

It’s you, for me, for me, it’s you

 

How does what you want

Compare to what I want

All I want is you

Can we take what you deserve

And what I deserve

And be what’s in between

 

I don’t wanna find someone else like you

I don’t wanna find someone else like me

How can I tell you

I don’t want you to leave

It’s you, for me, for me, it’s you

It’s you, for me, for me, it’s you

Excuses, Excuses, Excuses

I’ve chewed my lips apart

So now they won’t hold back

Any words they want

Come stumbling out of them

You said you didn’t need to hear it

But I know you needed my goodbye

You said you didn’t mean it

But I know you never lie,

Never lie.

 

You’ve taken your weaknesses and let them become home

A secret location to hide from the world

Excuses, excuses, excuses,

For being alone.

 

You’ve torn your head apart

So now it won’t hold anything real

Anything your heart wants

Doesn’t matter anymore

You said you never wanna hear it

But I know what you meant

You said you’d never regret staying,

But you’d already left,

Already left

 

You’ve taken your weaknesses and let them become home

A secret location to hide from the world

Excuses, excuses, excuses,

For being alone.

 

Woah, I know it’s hard to put your heart in your mouth

Forget what they said and trust

Woah, I know it’s hard to put your heart in your mouth

And act on what it wants, cause people hurt and wound you.

Woah, I know it’s hard to put your heart in your mouth,

But speaking’s much easier, once you’ve swallowed it down.

 

You’ve taken your weaknesses and let them become home

A secret location to hide from the world

Excuses, excuses, excuses,

For being alone.

 

I’ve chewed my lips apart..

So now they won’t hold back…

Any words they want,

Just come stumbling out of them.

I know, it’s hard,

Excuses, excuses,

I know, it’s hard,

Excuses, excuses, excuses,

I know, it’s hard.

Chandeliers

Hang me from your chandeliers

Tell me how it happens here

That everyone who falls in love dies young

Call the captain, call the squad,

Tell them how it all went wrong

Cause everyone who falls in love dies young

 

Children playing in the park

They just don’t know that’s how it starts

Knocking on the door, they are

He pushed her down, she pushed him back

Their hearts broke with an awful crack

Everyone who falls in love dies young

 

Skipping off to school, arm in arm

This was all you ever wanted since that day in the park

Hung up on the chandeliers, come on and take your love down

Hung up on the chandeliers,

Everyone who falls in love dies young

Everyone who falls in love dies young

Your Name

When the wind comes and your walls shake

Do you stay awake and secretly pray

When it looks like you lost the race

Do you stay awake and secretly pray

 

Your name, has left its mark on me

Has left its mark on my home

Left its mark on my love

Your name, has left its mark on me

Has left its mark on my home

Left its mark on my love

Your name

Your name

 

When your body aches and your feet are tired

Do you tell yourself it’ll be alright

When your hands are cold and your stomachs tight

Do you tell yourself it’ll be alright

 

Your name, has left its mark on me

Has left its mark on my home

Left its mark on my love

Your name, has left its mark on me

Has left its mark on my home

Left its mark on my love

Your name

Your name

 

Innocent, precarious, tell me when you’ve had enough

What can I do but wait for you, and wait it out

It’s been too long since they’ve said your name

Better make sure they know who to blame

 

Your name, has left its mark on me

Has left its mark on my home

Left its mark on my love

Your name, has left its mark on me

Has left its mark on my home

Left its mark on my love

Your name

Your name

Watermark

All the new things I don’t know about you

I’m sure you’ve grown up quite a bit

People sometimes ask about you

I’m never sure what to reply with

 

I’m a water mark in your bed

An ink stain, dried but left

A faded face in your photographs

Just another ghost you left in your past

I’m a water mark for your bed

Another notch left in your belt

An hour past in a different life

An ink stain, long, long dried

 

All the new things you don’t know about me

I’ve grown up some since then

I wonder if you ever think about me

Wonder what we’d be doing if I wasn’t

 

A water mark in your bed

An ink stain, dried but left

A faded face in your photographs

Just another ghost you left in your past

I’m a water mark for your bed

Another notch left in your belt

An hour past in a different life

An ink stain, long, long dried

 

A faded face in your photographs,

Just another ghost you left in your past,

Swallowed by the hands of time,

I let myself spin around

In the memory of you and me

In the memory of us.

(A faded face in your photographs)

Swallowed by the hands of time

(Just another ghost you left in your past)

Swallowed by the hands of time

 

I’m a water mark in your bed

An ink stain, dried but left

A faded face in your photographs

Just another ghost you left in your past

I’m a water mark for your bed

Another notch left in your belt

An hour past in a different life

An ink stain, long, long dried

I’m a watermark in your bed.

Red Light Fever

He’s caught red light fever

He’s caught the pink eye

How can I call him home

How do I get him to love me right

That hook she’s got him on

I bet he likes to bleed

I guess we’ll find out

If he ever comes home to me

 

Oh baby, the nights you spend away

You’ll pay for when you sleep with me again

You’re not the only one who’s caught the red light fever

You’re not the only one, don’t you still want my disease?

 

I’ve heard him whisper to his phone

When he thinks that I’m asleep

When he says goodnight I know he’s dreaming of

Other company he keeps

 

Oh baby, the nights you spend away

You’ll pay for when you sleep with me again

You’re not the only one who’s caught the red light fever

You’re not the only one, don’t you still want my disease?

 

Oh baby, the nights you spend away

You’ll pay for when you sleep with me again

You’re not the only one who’s caught the red light fever

You’re not the only one, don’t you still want my disease?

 

He’s caught red light fever

He’s caught the pink eye

How can I call him home

How do I get him to love me right

Watching

Who are you to fly

Into my window at night

These dreams I dream of you

Are secrets for the moon

 

Who am I to see

You in every fantasy

And keep it to myself

For you its someone else

 

These struggles with conscience I don’t do so well

Seeing you in her is practically hell

I wait for a sign that you know I exist

And til then I dream of your satisfying kiss

Oh, oh, til then

 

Who are they to know

You are mine alone

I see you every night

But you wont recognize my eyes

 

These struggles with conscience I don’t do so well

Seeing you in her is practically hell

I wait for a sign that you know I exist

And til then I dream of your satisfying kiss

Oh, oh, til then

 

Til then, I claim you

In silent possession

All the while, needing you

To pray on my devotion

Love me like you loved her

And I will be euphoric

All my limbs will love you

Til then I remain watching

 

These struggles with conscience I don’t do so well

Seeing you in her is practically hell

I wait for a sign that you know I exist

And til then I dream of your satisfying kiss

Oh, oh, til then

Heavy

Could you please tell me what it is that I have done wrong

This time, I mean its, so easy to lose track of

Lean on me when you feel that you cannot stand up straight

I know your empty heart will carry on without me

 

Your whole life is heavy and its sinking like a stone

Maybe at the bottom you will finally feel at home

Nothing I can do for you will ease the pain you make yourself

Cause its you creating wounds when I am only trying to help

 

Just let me know when you will care to pay attention

To anything I do, or I’m still alive

I only exist for your pleasured convenience,

But your pleasure’s punishment I won’t be convenienced.

 

Your whole life is heavy and its sinking like a stone

Maybe at the bottom you will finally feel at home

Nothing I can do for you will ease the pain you make yourself

Cause its you creating wounds when I am only trying to help

 

You really wanna be alone

But then you’ll have no one else to make lonely

You really wanna be alone

You really oughta be alone

 

Your whole life is heavy and its sinking like a stone

Maybe at the bottom you will finally feel at home

Nothing I can do for you will ease the pain you make yourself

Cause its you creating wounds when I am only trying to help

Mule

Everything’s a circle

And I’m so sick of spinning

You say life’s not a contest

But you keep screaming you’re winning

All I want is a little peace

And privacy, to boot

I don’t think that’s too much to ask

From an overbearing mule

 

How much of me do you really want to steal

To wear me down to the point where I’m not real

I can take what you give til I’m full of it

Til I’m sick of being here

How much of me hasta to be miserable

Before you disappear

 

Everything’s a battle

And I’m so sick of fighting

You say nothing’s important

But you’re screaming how you’re right and

All I want is a little peace

Some privacy, to boot

I don’t think that’s much to ask

From an overbearing mule

 

How much of me do you really want to steal

To wear me down to the point where I’m not real

I can take what you give til I’m full of it

Til I’m sick of being here

How much of me hasta to be miserable

Before you disappear

 

Your voice keeps grating on me

Your ideas the only ones allowed

How much am I to tolerate

Before I find myself subdued

 

How much of me do you really want to steal

To wear me down to the point where I’m not real

I can take what you give til I’m full of it

Til I’m sick of being here

How much of me hasta to be miserable

Before you disappear

Not A Pretty Girl

I may not be a pretty girl

But I hold my tongue when I have to

And I speak up when I want to

And if you wanna know my mind

You can take your place in line

 

I am not a pretty girl

I don’t pretend to be

Your camera isn’t interested

Dont point that thing at me

I am not a pretty girl

But don’t fool yourself and believe

I am not a pretty girl

But I don’t wanna be

 

I may not be a pretty girl

But I can beat you on your best day

I will try til I’m exhausted

And if you wanna know about me

You can try to figure out me

 

I am not a pretty girl

I don’t pretend to be

Your camera isn’t interested

Dont point that thing at me

I am not a pretty girl

But don’t fool yourself and believe

I am not a pretty girl

But I don’t wanna be

 

You may not be a pretty girl

Boys might never look at you

But when they call you ugly

Now you know what you can do

To believe, that you don’t have to want to be

 

I am not a pretty girl

I don’t pretend to be

Your camera isn’t interested

Dont point that thing at me

I am not a pretty girl

But don’t fool yourself and believe

I am not a pretty girl

But I don’t wanna be

Waste

So you’ve had enough of this life

So you’re ready to run

Say you’ve had enough of this life

You ready the gun

 

There’s places you haven’t seen

That’ll make you feel at home

There’s people you haven’t spoke to

About things you don’t understand

There’s things you haven’t done

That’ll make you feel alive

Why you wanna waste all you didn’t do

Why you wanna waste the rest of your life

 

Their words can feel hard

But you can be harder

Their blows can feel strong

But I know you’re stronger

Your sighs and sobs are all they want

Why you wanna give them everything

 

So you’ve had enough of this life

So you’re ready to run

Say you’ve had enough of this life

You ready the gun

 

There’s places you haven’t seen

That’ll make you feel at home

There’s people you haven’t spoke to

About things you don’t understand

There’s things you haven’t done

That’ll make you feel alive

Why you wanna waste all you didn’t do

Why you wanna waste the rest of your life

The Captain and the Compass

I was not afraid

To lose myself with you

To lose myself in you

But now I’m gone

I’m gone

 

Cause where did you go, or hide

When I need you in the night

Will you come back, to my side

To fill in the holes in my sight

Where did you go, or hide

I needed you last night

Will you come back

Will you come back

 

I am lost at sea

Turned out by the open water

Did you see a storm in me

Trouble on the horizon

You the captain and the compass

The sailor and the guiding moon

But now I’m lost

Now I’m lost

 

Cause where did you go, or hide

When I need you in the night

Will you come back, to my side

To fill in the holes in my sight

Where did you go, or hide

I needed you last night

Will you come back

Will you come back

 

In my dreams you speak to me

About where you have run

I don’t know if you’re happy

But I think you’d like what I’ve done

Buried every part of you

That makes it harder to breathe

Buried every part of you

That had tiny parts of me

 

Cause where did you go, or hide

When I need you in the night

Will you come back, to my side

To fill in the holes in my sight

Where did you go, or hide

I needed you last night

You never came

You won’t come

You’re not coming back

You’re not coming back

The Tide

Have you lost anyone you love?

Can you recognize the beat of your heart?

In the morning when the sun comes up

Will you remember how the drumming starts?

 

That person, did you let them drown

Did you let them drift away?

Let them go with the tide,

Cause everything hasta change

 

I’m sorry, for what I never did

For what I never said

Will you let me try again

That box, is unforgivable

I just wanna try again

I just wanna try again

 

You could hear me if you listen close

Watch my lips how they don’t move

Stop crying, just look up

I need you to bring me back with your love

 

I’m sorry, for what I never did

For what I never said

Will you let me try again

That box, is unforgivable

I just wanna try again

I just wanna try again

 

Have you lost anyone you love?

Have you lost anyone you love?

Don’t let me drift away

Don’t let me drift away

 

I’m sorry, for what I never did

For what I never said

Will you let me try again

That box, is unforgivable

I just wanna try again

I just wanna try again

I Am Where You Are

I lay and wonder

If I’m the jealous type

I also wonder

If you want to

Hold her tight

Do the answers

Make me feel alright

If I say yes

That makes me a jealous liar

 

Oh, let me hide my face in your chest

Tell me I’m a crazy waste of time

But I’m where your time is

But I’m where your mind is

 

I lay and wonder

If you’re the wandering type

I also wonder

If you want to hold her tight

Do the answers

Make me feel alright

If I say yes

Does it make me a jealous liar

 

Oh, let me hide my face in your chest

Tell me I’m a crazy waste of time

But I’m where your time is

But I’m where your mind is

 

I am where you are

I am where you are

Little lies, green eyes such a terrible fix

High stakes, mistakes, did I sign up for this

Don’t apologize for my suspicions

Just keep your hands on me

 

Oh, let me hide my face in your chest

Tell me I’m a crazy waste of time

But I’m where your time is

But I’m where your mind is

Nice

Godless fool, you’re such a tool

Spinning in your kiddie pool

Spinal tap, you’re very sick

Watch me get away with this

 

I may want you to find me

But I still wanna hide

I may want you to love me

But I won’t treat you nice

 

Fallen angel boy, my new shiny toy

Oh, you do bring me joy

When you squirm, and you learn

That if you touch the fire you’re bound to get burned

 

I may want you to find me

But I still wanna hide

I may want you to love me

But I won’t treat you nice

 

Your sweet tooth has a bite, I see

But don’t expect me to behave

I promise in the morning

I will remember your name

 

I may want you to find me

But I still wanna hide

I may want you to love me

But I won’t treat you nice

Tapeworm

Suck the pain right out of it

The wound will never heal

Suck the pain right out of it

You know they say you steal

 

They tipped you into the pool of wine

And laughed at you, the lush

They tipped you into the pool of wine

And complain that you’re a drunk

 

What kind of a mother is a tapeworm

What kind of a widow is a tapeworm

What kind of wife is a tapeworm

What kind of a woman is a tapeworm

 

Stutter in your misery

And they will say you lie

Stutter in your misery

But don’t let them see you cry

 

What kind of a mother is a tapeworm

What kind of a widow is a tapeworm

What kind of wife is a tapeworm

What kind of a woman is a tapeworm

 

You know they say you steal

You know they say you steal

But they took everything away

But they took everything away

But they took everything away

But they took everything away

 

What kind of a mother is a tapeworm

What kind of a widow is a tapeworm

What kind of wife is a tapeworm

What kind of a woman is a tapeworm

I never said a single word

I never said a single word

I never said a single word

I never said a single word

Vision

Dedicated to you

Like the brightest sky of blue

Greet you in the morning

With at least a tongue or two

During the day when you think of me

And I hope you do

I hope it’s with a smile

Cause that’s how I think of you

 

Every vision of love

Was illegitimate and wrong

Until I crawled to you, I never had enough

Every vision of love

Was illegitimate and sad

Until I crawled to you, true love I never had

Jewelry Box

The pearls in your mouth

That fell to the floor

The diamonds in your eyes

That don’t even fall anymore

 

Your his jewelry box

Isn’t that what he said

But all his other words and pain

It’s all left in your head

Your his jewelry box

 

The rubies from under your fingernails

The sapphires that come out when he comes in

I can’t understand your pain

Or why you wear the jeweled crown of being his

 

Your his jewelry box

Isn’t that what he said

But all his other words and pain

It’s all left in your head

Your his jewelry box

Color Blind

When you say you have everything

I hope you speak for yourself

Cause some of us are harder to satisfy

With some good wine and wealth

 

When you say you have every right

I hope you look around

Cause some of us are less than impressed

With your liberty and justice divine

 

When you say that you are color blind

I hope you know you have rose colored glasses

And that not everyone walks around

Getting their ass-kissed

 

Your experience, is one of equality

But you wouldn’t know real equality

If it fucked you til morning light

Your, experience is one of equality

But equal for you is not equal for all

Orange and Purple

Remember that summer

We spent attached

You were all I ever wanted to do

Sit out on the lake and talk all night

Be stupid kids and kiss and fight

Seems so long but was it just last night?

Remember that summer, cause I do

 

The sky is orange and purple

And it makes me think of you

And when I count the stars

I hope you’re counting too

I hope you’re counting too

 

We were sitting on the roof

At ten pm

I was trying to get in the mood

Even when it started raining

You never started running

But hey, where’d you run to?

 

The sky is orange and purple

And it makes me think of you

And when I count the stars

I hope you’re counting too

I hope you’re counting too

Whole New World

The faded lettering

When all you are is all you’ve ever been

What kind of person dwells on

Everything they’ve ever said

And watches for words they know just can’t be true

 

You’re more than your accomplishments

You’re more than your new goals

But you can’t reach them in the past,

I know you know

 

Let go, let go

Open yourself to a whole new world

Challenge yourself to a whole new world

Nothing has to change

But things can’t stay the same

Let go

 

The way you’re lingering

In the smell of a day that’s past

It’s stale and doesn’t fit anymore

You can’t live in your memory

And savor everything you’ve ever did

 

Let go, let go

Open yourself to a whole new world

Challenge yourself to a whole new world

Nothing has to change

But things can’t stay the same

Let go

 

You’re more than your accomplishments

You’re more than your new goals

But you can’t reach them in the past,

I know you know

 

Let go, let go

Open yourself to a whole new world

Challenge yourself to a whole new world

Nothing has to change

But things can’t stay the same

Let go

 

The faded lettering

When all you are is all you’ve been

Let go, let go

Lucky

Is it impossible

To find what we want and keep it

Without ever wanting anything else at all

Can you ever remember

A time when you were contented

By the scents, the sights, the feels of all you have

 

Do you feel lucky

When you wake up everyday

Shouldn’t you feel lucky

When you wake up everyday

I feel lucky

Waking up next to you

Still waiting for the day that I don’t

 

Isn’t it strange to think that

I, in my fragile state would find something gold like you

I can’t even remember

A time when stranger’s words wouldn’t cut me like yours do

 

Do you feel lucky

When you wake up everyday

Shouldn’t you feel lucky

When you wake up everyday

I feel lucky

Waking up next to you

Still waiting for the day that I don’t

 

Your hands are fuller than you think

You thirst but you still have things to drink

Satisfaction should be easier to come by

Your eyes are scrutinous to me

But you still have someone by your side

What else do you take for granted, baby

 

Do you feel lucky

When you wake up everyday

Shouldn’t you feel lucky

When you wake up everyday

I feel lucky

Waking up next to you

Still waiting for the day that I don’t

Playing Dumb

I thought she could make you happy

I thought she could be the one for you

Turns out you’re the only one for you

But you want me to try again

 

If you play dumb

I’ll play along

If you play dumb

I’ll play along

Yeah, tell me how you want it now

Tell me that you’re sorry

For all the things you never meant to do

For all the things you play dumb to

 

You said it was really all you fault

That you’d been in love with her all along

There was nothing I could do

But now I’m the only one who can do anything for you

 

If you play dumb

I’ll play along

If you play dumb

I’ll play along

Yeah, tell me how you want it now

Tell me that you’re sorry

For all the things you never meant to do

For all the things you play dumb to

 

You had no idea that you could kill me with a word

You had no idea that I’d give you anything, my world

You had no idea that I would be completely hurt

Oh, you’re real pretty when you play the fool, babe

 

If you play dumb

I’ll play along

If you play dumb

I’ll play along

Yeah, tell me how you want it now

Tell me that you’re sorry

For all the things you never meant to do

For all the things you play dumb to

Feeling Nothing Is Worse (Than Being Hurt by You)

If you could feel nothing

Or if you could feel pain

Nine times out of ten

They’d both make you scream

 

If I could feel nothing

If I could be dead

I’d haunt you in your best dreams

Make my home your bed

 

If I felt nothing

I wouldn’t be hurt by you

Hurt by you

Nothing is worse than

Being hurt by you

Hurt by you

 

I wonder if you’d still try

To light me on fire

Even with my senses gone

Even with my heart still holding on

Feeling nothing would be worse

Than being hurt by you

 

If I felt nothing

I wouldn’t be hurt by you

Hurt by you

Nothing is worse than

Being hurt by you

Hurt by you

Lovegarden

Come into my lovegarden

Come into my lovegarden

Make yourself at home

 

You’re always looking in

Over the fence

I’m doing anything

To get your attention

Scratching at the gate

I wanna let you in

But I don’t

But I don’t, so

 

Come into my lovegarden

Come into my lovegarden

Make yourself at home

 

The weeds I’ve pulled

They’re not like you

They’re the same but different

But C’mon smell the rose

I wanna let you in

But I don’t

But I don’t, so

 

Come into my lovegarden

Come into my lovegarden

Make yourself at home

Make yourself at home

Make yourself a home

 

I wanna let you in,

Don’t you wanna come in

I wanna let you in

 

Come into my lovegarden

Come into my lovegarden

Make yourself at home

 

You’re always looking in

Come into my lovegarden

Fictionalized Resentment (Yeah you, the sell out)

Did you become a stranger to yourself?

The stereotype you never likened yourself to be

The prostitute with the squeaky voice coming through her nose

I can tell you’re feigning happy from the way you wear your clothes

 

Sold your blood for another day of light

Dyed your hair to save yourself from losing touch

Staying young is for the old, they say

But youth is what is giving you a face

 

Sell out, sell out they cry in your nightmares

And you know you hope they lie

Faked out, faked out they cry in your insecure ears

And I can’t hold you tonight

Cause all you’ve done is prove them right

 

I know, you’re just a character

Tall they wanted was another performer

But when you fall the spotlight

What will you do

 

Sell out, sell out they cry in your nightmares

And you know you hope they lie

Faked out, faked out they cry in your insecure ears

And I can’t hold you tonight

Cause all you’ve done is prove them right

Sell out, sell out they cry in your nightmares

And you know you hope they lie

Faked out, faked out they cry in your insecure ears

And I can’t hold you tonight

Cause all you’ve done is prove them right

Blue Eyed Bitch

No thank you father

No thank you sir

Try to get me clean but

You drown me in dirty water

They tried to get me free

They try to get me high

But when I hear the fireworks and bell tolls

I run and hide

 

Just a blue eyed bitch

Just a problem pocket

Gotta scratch that itch

Gotta light the rocket (x2)

All your hope for me sails away into the dark night

Just a blue eyed bitch, waiting for one hot minute of light

 

No thank you public

No thank you baby

You try to get her clean until

You see the scars ain’t dirt

They tried to get her out

They try to get her low

But when she hears the camera click and low growl

She knows where to go

 

Just a blue eyed bitch

Just a problem pocket

Gotta scratch that itch

Gotta light the rocket (x2)

All your hope for me sails away into the dark night

Just a blue eyed bitch, waiting for one hot minute of light

 

Out of all the shades of gray a young girl can become

You had to pick the one they’d see as a sign of whats to come

You can turn you back on everything

You can start again

I can runaway from it all, baby

What fun would that have been

 

Just a blue eyed bitch

Just a problem pocket

Gotta scratch that itch

Gotta light the rocket (x2)

All your hope for me sails away into the dark, seductive night

Just a blue eyed bitch, waiting for one hot minute of light

Waiting on one hot minute of light

Waiting on one hot minute of life

A Little Bit Rougher

A year ago you were brothers

You would fight to the end for your friends

But now you can’t stand eachother’s faces

And you speak more like enemies, if you speak at all

 

You’re a little bit rougher, you’re a little more tired

Of being disappointed and everyone else’s shit

But your shoes smell too, and you’re not always perfect

It’s a little bit rougher to admit it

 

What are your post-life plans

You should start figuring out what to do

If you see them on the street gotta plan your conversation

Cause politeness is a skill towards those you hate

 

You’re a little bit rougher, you’re a little more tired

Of being disappointed and everyone else’s shit

But your shoes smell too, and you’re not always perfect

It’s a little bit rougher to admit it

 

Maybe if you made a little effort

If you stopped pointing fingers

If you let your edges fit stead of grating on eachother

Maybe if you made a little effort

If you stopped pointing fingers

If you let your edges fit stead of grating on eachother

It wouldn’t be even one bit rougher

It wouldn’t be even one bit rougher

 

You’re a little bit rougher, you’re a little more tired

Of being disappointed and everyone else’s shit

But your shoes smell too, and you’re not always perfect

It’s a little bit rougher to admit it

Revolutions

Spinning around in your rules

I am nothing but a tool

For your mass destruction

Beg, borrow and steal

Your morals but like that

You’ll never spark a revolution

 

The windows down with new air in

You’re eight years old again

Driving too fast with nowhere to go

But you don’t wanna stay where you’ve been

That something pulling you from nothing

It’s contagious, its the most infectious thing alive

So you take it, while you can

Cause you know nothing good ever lasts

 

Spinning around in your rules

I am nothing but a tool

For your mass destruction

Beg, borrow and steal

Your morals but like that

You’ll never spark a revolution

 

A spiritual movement with your eyes closed

You taste what you can’t see, oh

Licking up the bits you can’t get enough of it

But with the blindfold off you can see its just bullshit

That fireman pulling you from the wreckage

He’s a force beyond what you could imagine

So you take it while you can

Cause you know being saved never lasts

 

Spinning around in your rules

I am nothing but a tool

For your mass destruction

Beg, borrow and steal

Your morals but like that

You’ll never spark a revolution

 

Another flag burned and pissed on in anger

But you hide your intelligence in flames

Your safety is in knowing that you yourself are to blame

 

Spinning around in your rules

I am nothing but a tool

For your mass destruction

Beg, borrow and steal

Your morals but like that

You’ll never spark a revolution

For Two Years From Now

I will be someone

Who in two years

You won’t remember

A thing about me

Except I like the color green

And I liked my hair short

And I liked to make of you

 

I will be someone

Who in two years

You won’t remember

A thing about

 

But I’ll struggle to not forget

The way our trembling lips met

For the first time, for the last time

Yes I’ll fight to keep a memory of you

The way I fight my tears

Thinking of you not fighting to remember me too

 

I will be someone

Who in five minutes

You’ll want back into your arms again

You’ll wanna runaway with

You’ll wanna make stay with you always

 

And I’ll struggle to not forget

The way our trembling lips met

For the first time, for the last time

Yes I’ll fight to keep a memory of you

The way I fight my tears

Thinking of you not fighting to remember me too

 

All she wrote was for me

To be strong and not need you

To know my face to know I had one

All she wrote was for us

To grow around eachother

In a way we’d both be strong

 

And I’ll struggle to not forget

The way our trembling lips met

For the first time, for the last time

Yes I’ll fight to keep a memory of you

The way I fight my tears

Thinking of you not fighting to remember me too

Ready, Set, Go

I’ll be paperthin

You can run right through me

Never look back, never wonder what it would’ve been like

I’ll be weatherproof

You can rain right through me

Never dry off, never wonder what it would’ve been like

 

I’m ready to love, to hurt

To let you drive me crazy with the way you look

I’m ready to love, to hurt

To let you drive me crazy with the way you look

I’m ready

 

I’ll fold my edges down

You can hold me closer

Never let go, never wonder if it could’ve been nice

 

I’m ready to love, to hurt

To let you drive me crazy with the way you look

I’m ready to love, to hurt

To let you drive me crazy with the way you look

I’m ready

 

Set go

Set go

Ready, set go

I’m ready, say go

 

I’m ready to love, to hurt

To let you drive me crazy with the way you look

I’m ready to love, to hurt

To let you drive me crazy with the way you look

I’m ready

Man on the Moon

One day when the Earth melts and we all say goodbye

Just know I’m the girl in love with the man on the moon

One day when the Earth melts and we all say goodbye

Just know I’m the girl in love with the man on the moon

 

I’ve got two hands for holding

I’ll catch your tears like stars

Keep ‘em in my pocket, give em back

So you always know where they are

I’ve got two eyes for seeing

You in your light

Continue to shine

Forever more

 

One day when the Earth melts and we all say goodbye

Just know I’m the girl in love with the man on the moon

One day when the Earth melts and we all say goodbye

Just know I’m the girl in love with the man on the moon

 

I’ve got this voice to tell you

Shout across the oceans now

That when I put my arms around you

The planet has no one else

 

One day when the Earth melts and we all say goodbye

Just know I’m the girl in love with the man on the moon

One day when the Earth melts and we all say goodbye

Just know I’m the girl in love with the man on the moon

 

I’ll belong to you

I’ll belong to you

You belong to me,

I’ll belong to you, too

I’ll belong to you

 

One day when the Earth melts and we all say goodbye

Just know I’m the girl in love with the man on the moon

One day when the Earth melts and we all say goodbye

Just know I’m the girl in love with the man on the moon

Deny or Confirm

Hey, hey

Ask me what I’m waiting for

Cause oh god

I don’t remember anymore

Hey, hey

Ask me what I’m smiling for

Oh dear

You’re not smiling anymore

 

Hands up, you caught me you caught me

Tongue tied, it’s not me it’s not me

Falling in love over you

Hands up, you caught me you caught me, well

Tongue tied, it’s not me it’s not me

Can’t deny or confirm

 

Hey, hey

Show me what you’re waiting for

Cause oh, god

Do you even remember anymore

Hey, hey

Am I what you’re smiling for

Oh dear

You can see right through my lies like open doors

 

Hands up, you caught me you caught me

Tongue tied, it’s not me it’s not me

Falling in love over you

Hands up, you caught me you caught me, well

Tongue tied, it’s not me it’s not me

Can’t deny or confirm

 

Ah, well

If it’s coming to confessions

Well I have a lot to say to you

If it’s coming to confessions

I don’t know what to say to you

It was an accident

An accident, I swear

If it’s coming to confessions

Well I have a lot to say to you

If it’s coming to confessions

I don’t know what to say to you

 

Hands up, you caught me you caught me

Tongue tied, it’s not me it’s not me

Falling in love over you

Hands up, you caught me you caught me, well

Tongue tied, it’s not me it’s not me

Can’t deny or confirm

 

Hey, hey

Ask me what I’m waiting for

Cause oh, god

I don’t remember anymore

You caught me, you caught me, well

Marry Your Mother

So you say we should be breaking

A pause in all the loving

Was I looking the other way for a minute, baby

So you say we should be breaking

A pause in all the loving

DId you catch me catching my breath, oh

 

If you leave me now

You’ll marry your mother

You’ll never find another like me

If you leave me now

You’ll end up marrying your mother

Wondering how you gave up the good with me

 

You think that I’m the chain

And you’re dragging me around

The clips to your wings, I’m whats keeping you down

But I’m really like the wind

Bringing you your life

You wanna walk away, show me how high you can fly

 

If you leave me now

You’ll marry your mother

You’ll never find another like me

If you leave me now

You’ll end up marrying your mother

Wondering how you gave up the good with me

 

So my love is like a cage

And you want to be set free

I should save the space for someone

Who wants to keep me

 

If you leave me now

You’ll marry your mother

You’ll never find another like me

If you leave me now

You’ll end up marrying your mother

Wondering how you gave up the good with me

It’s Hard To Believe

Everybody’s got war in their hearts,

And blood on their hands

Why we’re still fighting, oh

I still don’t understand, hey

 

Doesn’t she deserve somebody to love

Doesn’t he deserve his truth

Why you gotta hide in a city of light

When there’s a ton more people like you

 

It’s hard, to believe

That these things will ever change

But I promise it’ll happen one day

It’s hard, to believe

The these things will ever change

But I promise it’ll happen one day

 

Tongue’s cut out to silence the outcry

But you can’t change will

Revolutions happen every day if you let them

Why we gotta make it uphill

 

It’s hard, to believe

That these things will ever change

But I promise it’ll happen one day

It’s hard, to believe

The these things will ever change

But I promise it’ll happen one day

Like You

Yeah, I know what I look like

Yeah, I know what you see

Go on, beg for permission

To throw your words at me

Oh, I’m an easy target

Yeah, right in your face

Go on, tell me all about it

The things I make you say

 

I asked for it

When I turned my head

Turned my back on you

I asked for it

When I dared to say

I hope I never end up like you

 

Yeah, I know its too much

For you hold your tongue

Oh, the feelings I don’t have

Well I’m going numb

Go on, tell me about it

The things I make you say

 

I asked for it

When I turned my head

Turned my back on you

I asked for it

When I dared to say

I hope I never end up like you

 

Eyes so wide

For wrong things

I hope I never end up like you

Mouth so big

For big words

I hope I never end up like you

Eyes so wide

For wrong things

Fingers so willing to fix

Mouth so big

For big words

Tongue so fucking quick

 

I asked for it

When I turned my head

Turned my back on you

I asked for it

When I dared to say

I hope I never end up like you

Goodbyes

I talked to a woman with three eyes

She said in two out of three she was blind,

But it’s okay cause the last one sees better than most

I talked to a woman with three eyes,

She said in two out of three she was blind,

And then whispered in my ear real close,

She said, you better watch out for the teeth marks of original sin

Without the bittersweet scent of sincerity, honey

 

Woah, yeah, we’ve said goodbye

Too many times

Never really said hello, again

It just kinda happened, baby

Woah, yeah, we’ve said goodbye

Too many times

Never really said hello, again

It just keeps happening, baby, woah, yeah

 

I ran into the middle of a sandstorm

It opened my skin like only you had done

But at least these wounds will heal

I ran into the middle of a sandstorm

It opened my skin like only you had done

But at least now I know it’s real

Watching out for the teeth marks of original sin

Without the bittersweet scent of sincerity, honey

 

Woah, yeah, we’ve said goodbye

Too many times

Never really said hello, again

It just kinda happened, baby

Woah, yeah, we’ve said goodbye

Too many times

Never really said hello, again

It just keeps happening, baby, woah, yeah

Writhe And Go

Cough syrup, mixed into your coffee

Sugar never helped anything

Dreams forgotten in the face of the morning

What were those things anyway

No good news in the paper

But you might as well read

If everybody’s working

Nobody’s working to be free

 

Why you gonna drive

Where they won’t know your face

Where you gonna live

If you ain’t got no place

How you gonna stay alive

If you’re not working to die

What kind of life

Isn’t writhe and go

These days

 

Fell off the step ladder

Gotta climb with these broken limbs, now

Would you feel better

If they pushed you again

Older and grayer

Every single day

What really matters

When there’s only good to say

 

Why you gonna drive

Where they won’t know your face

Where you gonna live

If you ain’t got no place

How you gonna stay alive

If you’re not working to die

What kind of life

Isn’t writhe and go

These days

 

Punch in, punch out

Your life’s a ticking clock

But that ticking’s not so unlike

That heart, more like a box.

Dear someone I used to know,

Before you curled and dided,

I never thought they could ever beat

The fire from the rug of your eyes.

 

Why you gonna drive

Where they won’t know your face

Where you gonna live

If you ain’t got no place

How you gonna stay alive

If you’re not working to die

What kind of life

Isn’t writhe and go

These days

If You’re Wondering

I could feel you looking at me

I was too scared to look back

And let everything

Come spilling out of me

We sat on the bed

And I let you wait for the words

I knew you wanted to hear

That I just never said

 

If you’re wondering if I want you

Don’t wonder anymore

If you’re wondering if I need you

You don’t haveta wonder anymore

 

I knew you’d find somebody else

Somebody braver

But she left you lonely and you always figured

She had too much to say about everything anyway

 

If you’re wondering if I want you

Don’t wonder anymore

If you’re wondering if I need you

You don’t haveta wonder anymore

 

I’ve kept this

So buried

It seems a little strange

To be, out in the open,

Suddenly hoping, to be what you need

 

If you’re wondering if I want you

Don’t wonder anymore

If you’re wondering if I need you

You don’t haveta wonder anymore

 

I won’t wonder anymore…

Heavy

I can feel my skin is breaking

You’re getting underneath

Everything I am is shaking

You refuse to steady me

 

My eyes are all black just to cover the blue

It’s hard walking out when you know theyll follow you

 

Heavy hands, heavy hearts

And it’s all on the line

Why do I still need you, by my side

Heavy hands, heavy hearts

And it’s all on the line

But you say you still need me, by your side

 

I can taste the blood spilling from my lips

I know it’ll only be a minute til it stops

These quiet tremors while I wait for your kiss

I gotta wonder if I’d waited enough

 

My eyes are all black just to cover the blue

It’s hard walking out when you know theyll follow you

 

Heavy hands, heavy hearts

And it’s all on the line

Why do I still need you, by my side

Heavy hands, heavy hearts

And it’s all on the line

But you say you still need me, by your side

 

It’s hard walking out, it’s hard walking out

It ain’t that bad, it ain’t that bad

Your heavy hands they hit me hard

But I know it’s only you got that heavy heart

Your heavy hands, I feel them hit me hard

I gotta wonder if I should be running far

 

My eyes are all black just to cover the blue

It’s hard walking out not knowing if theyll follow you

 

Heavy hands, heavy hearts

And it’s all on the line

Why do I still need you, by my side

Heavy hands, heavy hearts

And it’s all on the line

But you say you still need me, by your side

Stay

My teeth are ground down

I can’t swallow the day to day

It seems it’s drowning me out

Taking me out to sea

Cause all I wanna do is run until I die

Away from everything that I know

Cause all I wanna do is run so far and hide

Away from everything that I can become

 

It seems the hardest thing to do

But if you asked me to do it for you

I’d stay, I’d stay

It seems the hardest thing to do

But if you asked me to do it for you

I’d stay, I’d stay

 

I’m getting shorter by the minute

My soul is thirsty for relief

There’s only one way out of this

Only one I can see

Cause all I wanna do is run until I die

Away from everything that I know

Cause all I wanna do is run so far and hide

Away from everything that I can become

 

It seems the hardest thing to do

But if you asked me to do it for you

I’d stay, I’d stay

It seems the hardest thing to do

But if you asked me to do it for you

I’d stay, I’d stay

 

I guess as long as it takes

I’ll try to be okay

where I am, Where you are

If you asked me, since you asked me

 

But if you asked me to do it for you

I’d stay, I’d stay

It seems the hardest thing to do

But if you asked me to do it for you

I’d stay, I’d stay

 

Cause all I wanna do is run until I die

Away from everything that I know

Cause all I wanna do is run so far and hide

Away from everything that I can become

It seems the hardest thing to do

 

It seems the hardest thing to do

But if you asked me to do it for you

I’d stay, I’d stay

It seems the hardest thing to do

But if you asked me to do it for you

I’d stay, I’d stay

Different And Strange

Your eyes, they pierce me when I’m alone

But I say nothing in reply

Cause what would it do to start another fight with you

When my existence is an insult to yours

 

I know I’m different and I’m strange

But did you ever hear me complain

About how you are all the same

So if it’s all the same to you I’ll flush your voice right down the drain

Right down the drain

 

Your thoughts, they’re louder than you’d think

But I know you think them for a reason

Cause if you pretend not to like me you can pretend you dont wanna be me

After all, even the air in your lungs is stiff

 

I know I’m different and I’m strange

But did you ever hear me complain

About how you are all the same

So if it’s all the same to you I’ll flush your voice right down the drain

Right down the drain

 

And right here in the center

I find my place again

Throw your words like fruit now

Cause I’m sweeter than you’ll ever be

 

I know I’m different and I’m strange

But did you ever hear me complain

About how you are all the same

So if it’s all the same to you I’ll flush your voice right down the drain

Right down the drain

Blonde Angel

She saw your wings and held your ankles like weights

She saw your eyes and let herself go blind

So now you’re flown away and she needs somebody to look up to

So now you’re flown away and she needs somebody to say she’s worth saving

 

Hey. blonde angel

Could you sing me a song?

Rock me to sleep, if it takes all night long

Hey, blonde angel

Can you find me a prayer?

Cause way up there I heard you right all the wrongs

 

They saw your smile and got carried away

They preach your words but they don’t remember what you used to say, no

Cause now you’re flown away and they need somebody to look up to

So now you’re flown away and they need somebody to say they’re worth saving

 

Hey. blonde angel

Could you sing me a song?

Rock me to sleep, if it takes all night long

Hey, blonde angel

Can you find me a prayer?

Cause way up there I heard you right all the wrongs

 

You toed your own crooked line

I bet you got there just fine

And your blue eyes are shining on me

You toed your own crooked line

I bet you got there just fine

Do I just follow the signs

Do I just follow the signs

 

Hey. blonde angel

Could you sing me a song?

Rock me to sleep, if it takes all night long

Hey, blonde angel

Can you find me a prayer?

Cause way up there I heard you right all the wrongs

Hey. blonde angel

Could you sing me a song?

Rock me to sleep, if it takes all night long

Hey, blonde angel

Can you find me a prayer?

Cause way up there I heard you right all the wrongs

Happy

You proved ‘em wrong, I knew you could

I told you so, tripping out your mouth

What kind of smile leaks spite like that

You proved ‘em wrong, you left them gone

Now you’re going back to tell them you got out

What kind of smile leaks spite like that

 

Does it ever make you sad to see

Nobody’s ever happy to see you happy

Does it ever break your heart in time

You’re dying to let them know it all worked out in time

Nobody’s ever happy to see you happy

Come on bring your happiness with me

 

All your flowers bloomed so big

And all your fears they’re nothing now

But somehow when you look around

Your flowers just attracted bees

Their jealous of you, I can see

And nobody’s ever happy to see you happy

Nobody’s ever glad, just cause you’re glad

You’d think there’s a limited amount

And everybody’s just keeping their own count

 

Does it ever make you sad to see

Nobody’s ever happy to see you happy

Does it ever break your heart in time

You’re dying to let them know it all worked out in time

Nobody’s ever happy to see you happy

Come on bring your happiness with me

 

Don’t let it make you sad to see

I’ll be happy when you we’re happy

If you’ll be happy for me

Don’t let it ever break your heart

Don’t die to tell them how you got it right

I’ll be happy to see you happy

Come on bring your happiness to me

Bleed

Everybody wants to be in love

Everybody wants somebody to love

Everybody needs, everybody hurts,

Everybody bleeds.

 

That double edge tongue gonna getchya into trouble everytime

Cause wounds are all hidden but you bet they still sting

Try to keep the tears back, but your throat burns

And suddenly you’re speaking without thinking

What’s breath when you’re on the edge of a breakthrough

What’s consciousness in the middle of the best damn dream

Who’s to say that I’m twisted in the wrongest ways

Who’s to point their broken fingers at me

 

Everybody wants to be in love

Everybody wants somebody to love

Everybody needs, everybody hurts,

Everybody bleeds.

 

Her eyes are gonna find you in the crowd any second now

Cause you’ve been looking for eachother since the moment you got out the car

Try to keep your heart beat down

Pretend you didn’t see her name in the stars

What’s breath when you’re on the edge of a breakthrough

What’s consciousness in the middle of the best damn dream

Who’s to say that I’m twisted in the wrongest ways

Who’s to point their broken fingers at me

 

Everybody wants to be in love

Everybody wants somebody to love

Everybody needs, everybody hurts,

Everybody bleeds.

 

Your knees dropped out and you heard your name

But you can’t open your eyes to see

And you hear the question are you okay?

And you fight with yourself to answer or turn away

But you know they’ve felt the floor, too

And you know you were there to help them up

They’re not looking down at you from they are

Everybody’s been to the bottom like you

 

What’s breath when you’re on the edge of a breakthrough

What’s consciousness in the middle of the best damn dream

Who’s to say that I’m twisted in the wrongest ways

Who’s to point their broken fingers at me

 

Everybody wants to be in love

Everybody wants somebody to love

Everybody needs, everybody hurts,

Everybody bleeds.

The Bad Guy

It couldn’t have always been my request

That you followed me everywhere I went

And now you’re lost without me

I can’t tell you where to go

I couldn’t have always been so selfish

That I made you wanna give yourself in

To what I wanted,

Turns out you’re not what I wanted

 

And maybe one day

I’ll be the bad guy to someone

But right now, I did you fine

And maybe one day

Someone like you

Will make someone like you

Feel the way you made me feel

Will you make you cry

And then they’ll point their finger at you

And you’ll feel like the bad guy

A New Face

It rains the same cold water on everyone

Can I borrow your umbrella while you stay inside, dry

We all scrape our knees on the same ground, at some point

Why would you stand there as I continue to bleed

 

Put a new face on this world

And I’ll have faith in this world

Right now I don’t know if I can live here anymore

Put a new face on this world

Maybe you’d have some faith in this world

But you stand there waiting for change to happen

Just try not to be seen hoping it does

 

I saw you look me up and down

Are you gonna guess who I am now

You couldn’t recognize me from three feet away

But you’d lay me to sleep because of your ideas of me

 

Put a new face on this world

And I’ll have faith in this world

Right now I don’t know if I can live here anymore

Put a new face on this world

Maybe you’d have some faith in this world

But you stand there waiting for change to happen

Just try not to be seen hoping it does

 

If I can make it better, I’ll try, I’ll try my hardest

If I can change it for them, I’ll try, I’ll try my hardest

It shouldn’t be so hard to survive

I shouldn’t be so hard to survive

 

Put a new face on this world

And I’ll have faith in this world

Right now I don’t know if I can live here anymore

Put a new face on this world

Maybe you’d have some faith in this world

But you stand there waiting for change to happen

Just try not to be seen hoping it does

C’mon tell me you hope that it does

C’mon tell me you hope that it does

Under The Sky

No other hands have held you

Quite so tight

No one else has loved you

The way you like

It’s dangerous to feel like this

Like you’re the only one

But as long as Earth turning

I’ll be laying next to you

 

Here, under the stars

Whereever you are, I can find your heart

Here, under the moon

There’s only you, And I,

You and I, here under the sky

No matter how far

 

I’ve never missed anyone

As much as I’ve missed you

I’ve never looked at anybody

The way I look at you

It’s dangerous to feel like this

Like you’re the only one

But as long as Earth turning

I’ll be laying next to you

 

Here, under the stars

Whereever you are, I can find your heart

Here, under the moon

There’s only you, And I,

You and I, here under the sky

No matter how far

Weapons

I can’t stand the sight of you

It almost makes me sick to think

How I wanted your approval

For everything I did

But I guess I can’t fight the whole world forever

Gotta make some friends some times

 

What kind of peace do you need weapons for

What kind of friends do you haveta fight

Your eyes are always watching for a weakness

And you leave one open at night

 

Trust me I’d be happy for you

If I thought you did anything significant

I’ll be the first to tell you when you do

Oh you can bet I will, bet I will

 

What kind of peace do you need weapons for

What kind of friends do you haveta fight

Your eyes are always watching for a weakness

And you leave one open at night

 

Don’t drop your guard around me

Cause I’ll pick it up and throw it at you

Like you did to me, but you don’t remember that?

 

What kind of peace do you need weapons for

What kind of friends do you haveta fight

Your eyes are always watching for a weakness

And you leave one open at night

Nobody’s There

Tell me I’m a monster

Cause I can look where you see dark

I see light

But I wonder

If I could still be right

Even though you swear, you’re the one that cares

I feel like I am all alone, in feeling so alone

 

It’s a terrible feeling

Surrounded by people

And screaming in silence

Cause nobody’s really there

It’s a terrible feeling

Surrounded by people

You’re giving the finger

But nobody stares

Cause' nobody’s really there.

 

I can see I’m broken

By the cracks in my face

I see the pain

In that broken mirror

Looking at me

And I wonder how I got so good

At faking a smile

 

Even though you swear, you’re the one that cares

I feel like I am all alone, in feeling so alone

It’s a terrible feeling

Surrounded by people

And screaming in silence

Cause nobody’s really there

It’s a terrible feeling

Surrounded by people

You’re giving the finger

But nobody stares

Cause' nobody’s really there.

 

And no amount of sorry’s gonna make this pass

Cause this dark cloud coming over me

Is turning me to ash

Everything is gray, everything is lies

But still I can’t focus in

On everything you’re really seeing

And no amount of sorry’s gonna clean this mess

Can’t you see my eyes getting darker

Every moment you don’t think to ask

I want you to take care of me

When I need it the most

Cause I’ve always cared about you

It hasn’t killed me to show it

 

It’s a terrible feeling

Surrounded by people

And screaming in silence

Cause nobody’s really there

It’s a terrible feeling

Surrounded by people

You’re giving the finger

But nobody stares

Cause' there’s nobody there.

Yeah, there’s nobody, nobody, nobody, there.

I Bite

Force yourself under my skin

Tell me how it is

How it’s gonna be

Make your way into my core

Tell me what I need

What I shouldn’t be

How could I not think to ask you first?

 

What do you have to do

To do, with me?

What makes you think you have the right,

To tell me how to sleep, how to fight

You’ve the steel set, but I’m still gonna take a bite.

 

Make up my mind

Without you how I find

The strength to carry on

Well really what would I do

Without you to make it harder for me

Give me something to protest

Give me something to hate

 

What do you have to do

To do, with me?

What makes you think you have the right,

To tell me how to sleep, how to fight

You’ve the steel set, but I’m still gonna take a bite.

The Basement Life

Stare at the ceiling, made a new friend

With myself

Read the paper, criticize the nature

I really know nothing about

 

Is it possible to die

From never coming alive

This dormant path

The basement life

Is it possible to die

Without ever coming alive

This vacant path

The basement life

The basement life

 

No one to catch me, when I keep falling

Down the stairs

It doesn’t make me nervous, knowing I know no one

Who’s ever given a damn

 

Is it possible to die

From never coming alive

This dormant path

The basement life

Is it possible to die

Without ever coming alive

This vacant path

The basement life

The basement life

 

Undergound

It’s possible, it’s possible

Underground

It’s possible, it’s possible

That I, will never see the sun

In your eyes, That I

Will never find the one

That’ll make me compromise

But that’s okay

Cause down here I’m the only to please

I’m the only who can make me cry

Underground

It’s possible, it’s possible

 

Is it possible to die

From never coming alive

This dormant path

The basement life

Is it possible to die

Without ever coming alive

This vacant path

The basement life

The basement life

What Makes You Make Me

You’ve got nothing special

About you

That’s plain to see

But still I’m drawn to you

Like a twisted gravity

Cause I’ve gotten nervous

Everytime

You’re not worth this

State of mind

 

What makes you

What makes you

Make me insecure

What make you

What makes you

Make me want you more

What makes you hard to look away from

Is what makes it hard to look at all

 

I’ve got nothing special about me

That’s plain to see

But still I haveta ask

If we could ever be

Cause I get nervous

Everytime

But I still try to catch your eye

 

What makes you

What makes you

Make me insecure

What make you

What makes you

Make me want you more

What makes you hard to look away from

Is what makes it hard to look at all

 

You’ve got the smallest smile

When you make me die inside

It’s like you’re trying to tell me

That you knew it the whole time

 

What makes you

What makes you

Make me insecure

What make you

What makes you

Make me want you more

What makes you hard to look away from

Is what makes it hard to look at all

Kryptonite

So I’m just your yesterday

That’s all I’ll ever be

Don’t look for sadness in my face

That’s where it’ll never be

It was never puzzle piec-y

I was never your kryptonite

But when you told me I was

It crippled me

 

You’ll say, yeah we had a scene, once

About me to girl on your arm,

But I’ll never acknowledge that we ever did

Cause the girl you thought you loved,

Just wasn’t me.

Resist

The wind stole your caution

I understand

Took all your patience

Right from your hands

But you can’t it back from the devil,

Now I mean your soul,

But you throw it around like a hollow anvil,

Lands on your head you’re gonna feel the blow

 

Don’t you have any resistance

To something with big words and big arms to take you in

Don’t you have any resistance

To something that won’t promise it won’t kill you by accident

Dont you have any resistance

Dont you have any resistance

 

The wind the stole your caution

This is an offshoot

I understand

Of you’re own pride in making

Selfish demands

But you can’t get off your own leash

And the truth will never set you free

Cause their lies are all hooked in your skin

I’d say cut your losses but you’ve still got no desire to leave

 

Don’t you have any resistance

To something with big words and big arms to take you in

Don’t you have any resistance

To something that won’t promise it won’t kill you by accident

Dont you have any resistance

Dont you have any resistance

 

What’s appealing about their cage of privilege

What’s appealing about their teeth so white

What’s appealing about having their lock and no key

What’s appealing about their need to bite

 

Don’t you have any resistance

To something with big words and big arms to take you in

Don’t you have any resistance

To something that won’t promise it won’t kill you by accident

Dont you have any resistance

Dont you have any resistance

Snuffed

When we were young

We sat in castles made of cards,

Floated in waves of lovers arms,

But you made friends with the undertow

I couldn’t reach you anymore

You wanna know how far I’ll go

Can’t say I’m not scared I’ll go your way

 

Out, like a light

You were gone,

You were snuffed,

Like the night turns to dawn

It was over, it was done

We’re snuffed.

 

The pictures are in a box

Under the bed I make

Of me and you in a land

Where we would never change

But you grew and I couldn’t keep up

Couldn’t twist your way anymore

So now I look at those pictures

And I wonder how you went

 

Out, like a light

You were gone,

You were snuffed,

Like the night turns to dawn

It was over, it was done

We’re snuffed.

 

I breathe in the ashes

I take in the silence

I’ll never forget how we used to be

So alive and everything

But I can’t follow you to the dark

(I breathe in the ashes)

(I breathe in the the ashes)

I breathe

 

Out, like a light

You were gone,

You were snuffed,

Like the night turns to dawn

It was over, it was done

You’re over, it’s done

You’re gone,

You’re gone

We’re snuffed.

 

When we were young,

We sat in castles in castles made of cards,

We floated into the lovers’ arms,

But you made friends, with the undertow

With the undertow

Young And Lost

She’s been eighteen

For seven months now

But still she can’t seem

To figure anything out

 

Her wrists tied by

Indecision

She’s walked a mile in circles

Oh it’s devastating

To be young and lost

It’s Not Me

So you want somebody to free you

Somebody to make you feel like you’re not so alone

I can’t free you

If you think you’re alone who am I to try and change your mind

 

The person that you’re looking for

When you look into my eyes

The person you hold closer

When you’re sleeping nice at night

I don’t how to be them for you

You must know by now it’s not right

It’s not me

It’s not me

 

So you somebody to change you

Somebody to show you you’re not so wrong

But I can’t change you

I can’t change myself, to be something for you that I’m not

 

The person that you’re looking for

When you look into my eyes

The person you hold closer

When you’re sleeping nice at night

I don’t how to be them for you

You must know by now it’s not right

It’s not me

It’s not me

 

You need someone to fix you

You want someone to care more than I do

Show more than I show

I’m silent but I give a shit

But don’t expect to force my affection down your throat

For you to see it

It’s not me

Who’s gonna free you

It’s not me who’s gonna change you

It’s not me you’re looking for

 

The person that you’re looking for

When you look into my eyes

The person you hold closer

When you’re sleeping nice at night

I don’t how to be them for you

You must know by now it’s not right

It’s not me

It’s not me

Burning Out

I’ve thrown my fists in your face

I’ve hit the walls in my way

But I’m getting nowhere fighting everyone

I’ve swallowed my rage

Pointed fingers in your face

Time to step back and see I’ve been wrong

 

I’m sorry for lighting the world on fire

But these flames are bigger than I am, now

I need your thirst, all of our water

To save my soul from burning out

 

Oh I’ve been keeping my head

But something you said

Just made forget how to breathe

I’m sorry I’m quick,

To let the match hit the wick,

Please don’t give up on me yet

 

I’m sorry for lighting the world on fire

But these flames are bigger than I am, now

I need your thirst, all of our water

To save my soul from burning out

 

Cool me down

Drown me out

Don’t leave me alone to

Sit here in my anger

I’ll put out all the fires with my tears

Oh can’t I try it

I’m scorching everything I’ve ever loved

The silence is maddening

When I’m by myself

I have no one else to blame

 

I’m sorry for lighting the world on fire

But these flames are bigger than I am, now

I need your thirst, all of our water

To save my soul from burning out

F Word

I move mountains in my head

And I watch the sun go down

You were the best secret I’ve ever kept

But now your lights are out

No ones home where I followed you

There’s nobody to cry on

I put my faith in you

And you just put me on

 

The fear in my face should look familiar to you

Have you forgotten your own fate

The fear in my face should look familiar to you

Have you forgotten your own lessons

 

I squirm under all your pressure

And I scream when you go deaf

You were the best thing to the naked eye

But your potential has no depth

No one goes where I followed you

The dark alley of your mind

I kept my faith in you

And you kept the pieces of me I couldn’t find

 

The fear in my face should look familiar to you

Have you forgotten your own fate

The fear in my face should look familiar to you

Have you forgotten your own lessons

 

This isn’t a game you can play to win

I’m not a fool

I’ve just been playing one,

But it’s really always been you.

I’m not something you can bend and break

Into whatever you think you need today

I’ve tried to bend with you but even when I break away

 

The fear in my face should look familiar to you

Have you forgotten your own fate

The fear in my face should look familiar to you

Have you forgotten your own lessons

The Struggle

I could stand in the ashes my whole life

Look at my scars wonder what I could’ve said right

But that would be letting you win after letting you in

You took the door to the left when you were all I had left

 

If you don’t care, then why should I

Struggle with this monster inside

When I know you’re not, you don’t care, you don’t care

If you don’t care, then why should I

Force my words farther inside

To make you feel like it’s not your fault, you don’t care, you don’t care

 

You swear I’ve got in crosshairs

That I’m aiming to put you to bed here

But I’ve been the one who’s been laying down

I’ve never looked for more than peace, is that what I found?

 

If you don’t care, then why should I

Struggle with this monster inside

When I know you’re not, you don’t care, you don’t care

If you don’t care, then why should I

Force my words farther inside

To make you feel like it’s not your fault, you don’t care, you don’t care

 

It’s hard to look with stinging eyes

At what we built burn

For me it is, I guess maybe it’s different for you now

Isn’t that what you said?

That it’s just not the same,

I carry your blame wherever I go

But still I know…

 

You don’t care, so why should I

Struggle with this monster inside

But I know you

If you don’t care, then why should I

Struggle with this monster inside

When I know you’re not, you don’t care, you don’t care

If you don’t care, then why should I

Force my words farther inside

To make you feel like it’s not your fault, you don’t care, you don’t care

Fight And Never Forgive

If you drag me away now

I’ll fight and never forgive you

I won’t forget how

I told you how home I felt here

How little you cared

How stupid you thought I was

 

How am I sposed to learn what’s wrong

For me, for me

How am I sposed to be something

That I can’t even decide

How am I sposed to grow, stand on my own

When you won’t let me try

 

If you make me sit on my hands

I will never sit still

I will never understand

I’ll tell you how at home I felt there

How little it seems like you care

How stupid I know you think I am

 

How am I sposed to learn what’s wrong

For me, for me

How am I sposed to be something

That I can’t even decide

How am I sposed to grow, stand on my own

When you won’t let me try

 

If I got away tonight

I would start the car

Pick a place to run and hide

Sleep under the stars

Dreaming of how I let you down

And how I’ll go so far

 

How am I sposed to learn what’s wrong

For me, for me

How am I sposed to be something

That I can’t even decide

How am I sposed to grow, stand on my own

When you won’t let me try

If It Ain’t You

So I hear there’s a little shame in loving

Something you can’t have for keeps

And I wonder why that is

Cause you can’t hold on to the wind the same

Should you hide from the way it is

 

I want nothing to do with

Anything if it ain’t you

I thought you might wanna know

I thought you might wanna know

I thought you might wanna notice

 

So I hear you’ve been sleeping the same bed

And you’ve been crying alone

And I wonder why that is

Cause you can’t go on that way forever

Should you hide from the way you are

 

I want nothing to do with

Anything if it ain’t you

I thought you might wanna know

I thought you might wanna know

I thought you might wanna notice

Me, me, me

On my knees, yeah

Do you wanna know, now?

Well, do you wanna know now

What I think of you, of you of you

I think of you, oh

Do you wanna know, now?

 

I want nothing to do with

Anything if it ain’t you

I thought you might wanna know

I thought you might wanna know

I thought you might wanna notice

The Center

You wanted to know what it felt like, the center

To be what everyone wants

But nobody wants you just as you are,

So you compromise and do yourself over

 

I’d like to be swallowed by greed and pretention

Then I’ll really belong

Stuffed with the knowledge of only each other

We’re right when we get it wrong

 

I fell down a mountain, into myself

And I don’t know where I am now

I felt so high but it was merely illusion

It looks like I’m buried underground

 

You wanted to know what it felt like, the center

To be what everyone wants

But nobody wants you just as you are,

So you compromise and do yourself over

 

I’d like to be swallowed by greed and pretention

Then I’ll really belong

Stuffed with the knowledge of only each other

We’re right when we get it wrong

 

In their sights, absolution

To find what really should matter

Nothing’s the same when you’re bleeding for nothing

It’s lonely when you’re not yourself

 

You wanted to know what it felt like, the center

To be what everyone wants

But nobody wants you just as you are,

So you compromise and do yourself over

 

I’d like to be swallowed by greed and pretention

Then I’ll really belong

Stuffed with the knowledge of only each other

We’re right when we get it wrong

Harder

I will break over you

I will cry til the day I die

But don’t let that stop you from going

Don’t let that stop you from forgetting a thing

 

I’ll fall harder than anyone

I will never get back up

I’ll fall harder than anyone

I will never get back up

 

I won’t get over you

I will cry til the day I die

But don’t let that stop you from moving on

Don’t let that stop you from forgetting everything

 

I’ll fall harder than anyone

I will never get back up

I’ll fall harder than anyone

I will never get back up

 

But please don’t catch me

If you really don’t want to

That’s worse than the fall, I believe

 

I’ll fall harder than anyone

I will never get back up

I’ll fall harder than anyone

I will never get back up

A Place

I’m sure I told you not to fall in love

Whispered it to you in your dreams

You never listen to me, do you

Only when I’m telling you how much I need you

 

One day I’ll find a place

Where even you feel safe

For just us to know

For only us to go

One day I’ll find a place

Where even you feel safe

For just us to know

 

I’m sure they told you it’s a car crash waiting to happen

You won’t be able to look away but

You really know how it ends already

 

One day I’ll find a place

Where even you feel safe

For just us to know

For only us to go

One day I’ll find a place

Where even you feel safe

For just us to know

 

Will you go there with me

All the time, forever

Or else I’ll go alone

Will you go there with me

All the time, forever

Or else I’ll go alone

 

One day I’ll find a place

Where even you feel safe

For just us to know

For only us to go

One day I’ll find a place

Where even you feel safe

For just us to know

Throw Rocks

A hundred years been sleeping on me

A hundred years they’ve dreaming that same old dream

I guess I’m not real then,

I guess it’s not real.

 

Your privilege, my secrets

Eat me up til the morning I don’t wake

Your privilege, my new edge

Cut me up til the morning I don’t wake

Throw rocks at the glass ceiling maybe it will break

 

Yesterday you said something to me

You wanna tell them just what it sounded like

Bark your words, but you gonna eat em up when

You wanna eat right out of my hands

 

Your privilege, my secrets

Eat me up til the morning I don’t wake

Your privilege, my new edge

Cut me up til the morning I don’t wake

I throw rocks at the glass ceiling maybe it will break

 

Call me anything

Call me everything

Cause your words don’t mean nothing

When I have rocks to throw

And make sure you don’t call me tomorrow

 

Your privilege, my secrets

Eat me up til the morning I don’t wake

Your privilege, my new edge

Cut me up til the morning I don’t wake

I throw rocks at the glass ceiling maybe it will break

I’m Sure She Knows

The secrets you always kept with me

I’m sure it’s different with her now

I bet she knows that side of you

That with me you never did let out

We still talk now and again

You still say the same old things

Is that your parrot heart talking

I’m sure she knows you never moved on

 

I’m sure she knows

You probably tell her everything

About how you said you feel about me

I’m sure she knows

That’s why she’s there

Instead of with somebody else

Who’d be honest, who’d care

 

I bet you told her how I made you feel

I bet you told her all the you said

About how you tricked me into making it real

And then you let it all get to my head

We still talk every now and again

You still say the same old shit

that’s just your parrot heart talking

I’m sure she knows you’re a bird that way

 

I’m sure she knows

You probably tell her everything

About how you said you feel about me

I’m sure she knows

That’s why she’s there

Instead of with somebody else

Who’d be honest, who’d care

 

Let’s be honest,

You don’t care

Let’s be honest,

Could you if you tried

Tight lips, tired eyes

Are you awake with the weight of lies

I put my trust in you

I let you touch my soul

I now know everything I never knew

But don’t worry I won’t say a thing, I’m sure she knows

 

I’m sure she knows

You probably tell her everything

About how you said you feel about me

I’m sure she knows

That’s why she’s there

Instead of with somebody else

Who let’s be honest, would care