Sometimes when the days start out good,
I watch you take them in your hand,
And twist til theres only tears,
And only your own complaints,
Of how you’ll never live to see the next one.
How do I emerge from this,
A woman or a monster?
This is not my rebel,
You know why I can’t tell you,
You find out for yourself,
All the reasons I’ll hate to resent you.
In my defense, you taught me how.
In my defense, you taught me how.
These words are easy to write, but hard to hear,
I wanna fix whatever broke you, but I know it’s not my place.
I wanna tell you how I know things that you never told me.
You wouldn’t appreciate my peeping in,
In front of each other we dress like were for gym.
How do I emerge from this,
A mother or a monster?
This is not my rebel,
You know why I can’t tell you,
You find out for yourself,
All the reasons I’ll hate to resent you.
In my defense, you taught me how.
In my defense, you taught me how.
The strains, the cracks, they should make us build again,
You know I’d be willing,
The strains, the cracks, the should make us build again,
But I know you’re not willing,
I know you’re not willing,
You make your schedules, try and keep me in time,
Maybe then I won’t realize,
That you care any less than the last day.
This is not my rebel,
You know why I can’t tell you,
You find out for yourself,
All the reasons I’ll hate to resent you.
In my defense, you taught me how.
In my defense, you taught me how.
