Me

Ok...you know what? Fuck everything. I'm confused. Let's go through what I know about myself: I can be loud. I can be deadly silent. I can be embarassing and more often than not I'm embarrassed. My cheeks get hot and my hands are always sweaty. I make stupid attempts at conversation with people who dont seem to wanna converse. And I dont know how to make an effort with people that do want to. I have a jealous streak and I can be a bitch. Then again, I can be really sincere and loving to those who love me. Sometimes i try to be something I'm not just because it looks appealing. Sometimes I do stupid things. Today was the closest I've ever came to death. I piss my mom off a lot. My best friend can be abusive. I have a few nasty habits like biting my nails and lying. I go to church on sundays. I was a premature baby. If I'm commited, I'll do anything. I thought I knew exactly what I wanted and what I needed but I dont know. I think I might actually like not knowing anything. Its comfortable and definetly better than knowing the truth. Guess what? I'm a weirdo. Good night.