It’s Not Me

So you want somebody to free you

Somebody to make you feel like you’re not so alone

I can’t free you

If you think you’re alone who am I to try and change your mind

 

The person that you’re looking for

When you look into my eyes

The person you hold closer

When you’re sleeping nice at night

I don’t how to be them for you

You must know by now it’s not right

It’s not me

It’s not me

 

So you somebody to change you

Somebody to show you you’re not so wrong

But I can’t change you

I can’t change myself, to be something for you that I’m not

 

The person that you’re looking for

When you look into my eyes

The person you hold closer

When you’re sleeping nice at night

I don’t how to be them for you

You must know by now it’s not right

It’s not me

It’s not me

 

You need someone to fix you

You want someone to care more than I do

Show more than I show

I’m silent but I give a shit

But don’t expect to force my affection down your throat

For you to see it

It’s not me

Who’s gonna free you

It’s not me who’s gonna change you

It’s not me you’re looking for

 

The person that you’re looking for

When you look into my eyes

The person you hold closer

When you’re sleeping nice at night

I don’t how to be them for you

You must know by now it’s not right

It’s not me

It’s not me

Burning Out

I’ve thrown my fists in your face

I’ve hit the walls in my way

But I’m getting nowhere fighting everyone

I’ve swallowed my rage

Pointed fingers in your face

Time to step back and see I’ve been wrong

 

I’m sorry for lighting the world on fire

But these flames are bigger than I am, now

I need your thirst, all of our water

To save my soul from burning out

 

Oh I’ve been keeping my head

But something you said

Just made forget how to breathe

I’m sorry I’m quick,

To let the match hit the wick,

Please don’t give up on me yet

 

I’m sorry for lighting the world on fire

But these flames are bigger than I am, now

I need your thirst, all of our water

To save my soul from burning out

 

Cool me down

Drown me out

Don’t leave me alone to

Sit here in my anger

I’ll put out all the fires with my tears

Oh can’t I try it

I’m scorching everything I’ve ever loved

The silence is maddening

When I’m by myself

I have no one else to blame

 

I’m sorry for lighting the world on fire

But these flames are bigger than I am, now

I need your thirst, all of our water

To save my soul from burning out

F Word

I move mountains in my head

And I watch the sun go down

You were the best secret I’ve ever kept

But now your lights are out

No ones home where I followed you

There’s nobody to cry on

I put my faith in you

And you just put me on

 

The fear in my face should look familiar to you

Have you forgotten your own fate

The fear in my face should look familiar to you

Have you forgotten your own lessons

 

I squirm under all your pressure

And I scream when you go deaf

You were the best thing to the naked eye

But your potential has no depth

No one goes where I followed you

The dark alley of your mind

I kept my faith in you

And you kept the pieces of me I couldn’t find

 

The fear in my face should look familiar to you

Have you forgotten your own fate

The fear in my face should look familiar to you

Have you forgotten your own lessons

 

This isn’t a game you can play to win

I’m not a fool

I’ve just been playing one,

But it’s really always been you.

I’m not something you can bend and break

Into whatever you think you need today

I’ve tried to bend with you but even when I break away

 

The fear in my face should look familiar to you

Have you forgotten your own fate

The fear in my face should look familiar to you

Have you forgotten your own lessons

The Struggle

I could stand in the ashes my whole life

Look at my scars wonder what I could’ve said right

But that would be letting you win after letting you in

You took the door to the left when you were all I had left

 

If you don’t care, then why should I

Struggle with this monster inside

When I know you’re not, you don’t care, you don’t care

If you don’t care, then why should I

Force my words farther inside

To make you feel like it’s not your fault, you don’t care, you don’t care

 

You swear I’ve got in crosshairs

That I’m aiming to put you to bed here

But I’ve been the one who’s been laying down

I’ve never looked for more than peace, is that what I found?

 

If you don’t care, then why should I

Struggle with this monster inside

When I know you’re not, you don’t care, you don’t care

If you don’t care, then why should I

Force my words farther inside

To make you feel like it’s not your fault, you don’t care, you don’t care

 

It’s hard to look with stinging eyes

At what we built burn

For me it is, I guess maybe it’s different for you now

Isn’t that what you said?

That it’s just not the same,

I carry your blame wherever I go

But still I know…

 

You don’t care, so why should I

Struggle with this monster inside

But I know you

If you don’t care, then why should I

Struggle with this monster inside

When I know you’re not, you don’t care, you don’t care

If you don’t care, then why should I

Force my words farther inside

To make you feel like it’s not your fault, you don’t care, you don’t care

Fight And Never Forgive

If you drag me away now

I’ll fight and never forgive you

I won’t forget how

I told you how home I felt here

How little you cared

How stupid you thought I was

 

How am I sposed to learn what’s wrong

For me, for me

How am I sposed to be something

That I can’t even decide

How am I sposed to grow, stand on my own

When you won’t let me try

 

If you make me sit on my hands

I will never sit still

I will never understand

I’ll tell you how at home I felt there

How little it seems like you care

How stupid I know you think I am

 

How am I sposed to learn what’s wrong

For me, for me

How am I sposed to be something

That I can’t even decide

How am I sposed to grow, stand on my own

When you won’t let me try

 

If I got away tonight

I would start the car

Pick a place to run and hide

Sleep under the stars

Dreaming of how I let you down

And how I’ll go so far

 

How am I sposed to learn what’s wrong

For me, for me

How am I sposed to be something

That I can’t even decide

How am I sposed to grow, stand on my own

When you won’t let me try

If It Ain’t You

So I hear there’s a little shame in loving

Something you can’t have for keeps

And I wonder why that is

Cause you can’t hold on to the wind the same

Should you hide from the way it is

 

I want nothing to do with

Anything if it ain’t you

I thought you might wanna know

I thought you might wanna know

I thought you might wanna notice

 

So I hear you’ve been sleeping the same bed

And you’ve been crying alone

And I wonder why that is

Cause you can’t go on that way forever

Should you hide from the way you are

 

I want nothing to do with

Anything if it ain’t you

I thought you might wanna know

I thought you might wanna know

I thought you might wanna notice

Me, me, me

On my knees, yeah

Do you wanna know, now?

Well, do you wanna know now

What I think of you, of you of you

I think of you, oh

Do you wanna know, now?

 

I want nothing to do with

Anything if it ain’t you

I thought you might wanna know

I thought you might wanna know

I thought you might wanna notice

The Center

You wanted to know what it felt like, the center

To be what everyone wants

But nobody wants you just as you are,

So you compromise and do yourself over

 

I’d like to be swallowed by greed and pretention

Then I’ll really belong

Stuffed with the knowledge of only each other

We’re right when we get it wrong

 

I fell down a mountain, into myself

And I don’t know where I am now

I felt so high but it was merely illusion

It looks like I’m buried underground

 

You wanted to know what it felt like, the center

To be what everyone wants

But nobody wants you just as you are,

So you compromise and do yourself over

 

I’d like to be swallowed by greed and pretention

Then I’ll really belong

Stuffed with the knowledge of only each other

We’re right when we get it wrong

 

In their sights, absolution

To find what really should matter

Nothing’s the same when you’re bleeding for nothing

It’s lonely when you’re not yourself

 

You wanted to know what it felt like, the center

To be what everyone wants

But nobody wants you just as you are,

So you compromise and do yourself over

 

I’d like to be swallowed by greed and pretention

Then I’ll really belong

Stuffed with the knowledge of only each other

We’re right when we get it wrong

Harder

I will break over you

I will cry til the day I die

But don’t let that stop you from going

Don’t let that stop you from forgetting a thing

 

I’ll fall harder than anyone

I will never get back up

I’ll fall harder than anyone

I will never get back up

 

I won’t get over you

I will cry til the day I die

But don’t let that stop you from moving on

Don’t let that stop you from forgetting everything

 

I’ll fall harder than anyone

I will never get back up

I’ll fall harder than anyone

I will never get back up

 

But please don’t catch me

If you really don’t want to

That’s worse than the fall, I believe

 

I’ll fall harder than anyone

I will never get back up

I’ll fall harder than anyone

I will never get back up

A Place

I’m sure I told you not to fall in love

Whispered it to you in your dreams

You never listen to me, do you

Only when I’m telling you how much I need you

 

One day I’ll find a place

Where even you feel safe

For just us to know

For only us to go

One day I’ll find a place

Where even you feel safe

For just us to know

 

I’m sure they told you it’s a car crash waiting to happen

You won’t be able to look away but

You really know how it ends already

 

One day I’ll find a place

Where even you feel safe

For just us to know

For only us to go

One day I’ll find a place

Where even you feel safe

For just us to know

 

Will you go there with me

All the time, forever

Or else I’ll go alone

Will you go there with me

All the time, forever

Or else I’ll go alone

 

One day I’ll find a place

Where even you feel safe

For just us to know

For only us to go

One day I’ll find a place

Where even you feel safe

For just us to know

Throw Rocks

A hundred years been sleeping on me

A hundred years they’ve dreaming that same old dream

I guess I’m not real then,

I guess it’s not real.

 

Your privilege, my secrets

Eat me up til the morning I don’t wake

Your privilege, my new edge

Cut me up til the morning I don’t wake

Throw rocks at the glass ceiling maybe it will break

 

Yesterday you said something to me

You wanna tell them just what it sounded like

Bark your words, but you gonna eat em up when

You wanna eat right out of my hands

 

Your privilege, my secrets

Eat me up til the morning I don’t wake

Your privilege, my new edge

Cut me up til the morning I don’t wake

I throw rocks at the glass ceiling maybe it will break

 

Call me anything

Call me everything

Cause your words don’t mean nothing

When I have rocks to throw

And make sure you don’t call me tomorrow

 

Your privilege, my secrets

Eat me up til the morning I don’t wake

Your privilege, my new edge

Cut me up til the morning I don’t wake

I throw rocks at the glass ceiling maybe it will break

I’m Sure She Knows

The secrets you always kept with me

I’m sure it’s different with her now

I bet she knows that side of you

That with me you never did let out

We still talk now and again

You still say the same old things

Is that your parrot heart talking

I’m sure she knows you never moved on

 

I’m sure she knows

You probably tell her everything

About how you said you feel about me

I’m sure she knows

That’s why she’s there

Instead of with somebody else

Who’d be honest, who’d care

 

I bet you told her how I made you feel

I bet you told her all the you said

About how you tricked me into making it real

And then you let it all get to my head

We still talk every now and again

You still say the same old shit

that’s just your parrot heart talking

I’m sure she knows you’re a bird that way

 

I’m sure she knows

You probably tell her everything

About how you said you feel about me

I’m sure she knows

That’s why she’s there

Instead of with somebody else

Who’d be honest, who’d care

 

Let’s be honest,

You don’t care

Let’s be honest,

Could you if you tried

Tight lips, tired eyes

Are you awake with the weight of lies

I put my trust in you

I let you touch my soul

I now know everything I never knew

But don’t worry I won’t say a thing, I’m sure she knows

 

I’m sure she knows

You probably tell her everything

About how you said you feel about me

I’m sure she knows

That’s why she’s there

Instead of with somebody else

Who let’s be honest, would care

Enemy

You’ve said your sorry

You held up the flag of submission

You’ve made your peace with the flame trying to burn you

But the smoke is still trying to consume you

 

Oh you can do no right

In the eyes of your yesterday

What kind of enemy

Do you need to be

To wage a war against yourself

 

You’ve kept in the corner

Away from all the sharp knives, temptation

You’ve sworn peace to the faces who only looked down

But you can still sink no lower

 

You point the gun at the face in the mirror

Your destruction doesn’t make it any clearer

You point your gun at the face in the mirror

What kind of enemy, do you need to be

To wage a war against yourself