Book of Matches

Everything in me is begging for a bigger piece of you

Something to keep with me when you haveta go

I know you do.

It’s  a little captivating the smile you save for me

It’s a little breathtaking the way you seem to have taken me

 

Bursting into burning flames with your one little touch

Your book of matches gonna change me into ashes

But I can’t say I care too much

To Find A Face

Sanity slip through my hands

You’ve taught me things, I will forget

I make my own light, but it burns my eyes

I fight a good clean fight, but it seems I waste my time

 

And I’m trying, to find a face within me

That I can stand to see,

That I don’t have to hide, I don’t feel I have to…

 

Paper bag, smother me, I’ve tried

Plastic bag, cover me, pillow at night,

So what if I, fail again

Isn’t that what’s expected

Isn’t that what’s expected

 

One little star up in the sky,

I’d shoot it down with the daggers from my eyes

You’ve mistaken me for somebody worth something

You aren’t so convincing with your hands reaching at nothing

 

And I’m trying, to find a face within me

That I can stand to see,

That I don’t have to hide, I don’t feel I have to…

 

Paper bag, smother me, I’ve tried

Plastic bag, cover me, pillow at night,

So what if I, fail again

Isn’t that what’s expected

Isn’t that what’s expected

 

I take, each step,

Each day,

One more at a time,

Harder than the last,

It harder than the last.

Sanity slipped through my hands,

I promise we’re all crazy, here.

 

And I’m trying, to find a face within me

That I can stand to see,

That I don’t have to hide, I don’t feel I have to…

 

Paper bag, smother me, I’ve tried

Plastic bag, cover me, pillow at night,

So what if I, fail again

Isn’t that what’s expected

Isn’t that what’s expected

In The Light

If I ever leave the shadows

It shall be only for a breath

Cause when the light hits my eyes

I count the moments til I’m back

You’ve kept me in the darkness

So I find I’ve come to like it

You’ve kept me in your darkness

So now please, don’t try to light it

 

Holy dark, I’m calling out

Holy dark, I can do without

Mister dark, come on swallow me

Cause in the light there’s so much I can see

So much I can see…

 

The nights are getting shorter

Where I cling to myself instead

Of waiting up for you to join me

In the black hole of our bed

You’ve kept me in the darkness

So I find I’ve come to like it

You’ve kept me in your darkness

So now please, don’t try to light it

 

Holy dark, I’m calling out

Holy dark, I can do without

Mister dark, come on swallow me

Cause in the light there’s so much I can see

So much I can see…

 

I won’t wonder what you’ve been hiding

When I close my eyes as night

When the moon won’t twist the pictures

Til I fight and scream and cry

Come swallow me,

I don’t wanna see.

 

Holy dark, I’m calling out

Lady dark, I can do without

Mister dark, come on swallow me

Cause in the light there’s so much I can see

So much I can see…

Small Talk (Other Than You)

I sit down to write you a slow thought

Something I’ve been thinking about an awful lot

(other than you)

I wonder if I should start out with the small talk

How much I’ve kept the same, how much has changed

Other than you

There’s been no one else

Other than you

I’ll only want myself

Other than you

I’m fine, I' swear it

Other than you

I’m put together

 

I crumpled the paper cause it’s not

The kind of you like to talk about

(Other than you)

I should’ve known better, than to fall for your small talk

Who’dve known I’d be stuck talking about nothing

Other than you

There’s been no one else

Other than you

I’ll only want myself

Other than you

I’m fine, I' swear it

Other than you

I’m put together

 

I’ve never been so hung up on anything…

Other than you

I’ve never been so hung up on anything…

Open Fire (Duet)

1)All of the thoughts

Kept behind my eyes

All spilling out in tears

Like rain from the skies

It’s more damage than I meant to do

I’m more sorry than I meant to be, too

 

2)Open your fire on me

I’ll take the burn

Go on and scream

And when you’re done

I won’t blame you a bit

After all, after all,

This is me, asking for it

 

1) All of the words,

Trapped in my head and

I know they won’t come out

Like anything intended,

It’s more damage than I meant to do,

More sorry than I meant to be, too

 

2)Open your fire on me

I’ll take the burn

Go on and scream

And when you’re done

I won’t blame you a bit

After all, after all,

This is me, asking for it

 

2)You don’t haveta build walls

Around what you want,

I swear I can take,

What you, need to throw at me

1)I can’t explain,

If it’s breaking you softly,

Cut by the lace, you still bleed

 

2)Open your fire on me

I’ll take the burn

Go on and scream

And when you’re done

I won’t blame you a bit

After all, after all,

This is me, asking for it

 

2)This is me, after all

1)More sorry than ever

2)This is me, after all

1)More sorry than ever

So Much More Than Everything I’ve Got

Force down the cough syrup

Make me make the best of it

What else can you do

When all the knives are pointing at you

And

 

I’ve made some decisions

I don’t know if I like them still

Now I’m just dreaming

Bout what my life could’ve been

 

Don’t stay awake at night

Counting the possibilities on stars

Cause one day they’ll fall to the ground and die

But you’ll be there for yourself still

 

I’ve made some decisions

I don’t know if I like them still

Now I’m just dreaming

Bout what my life could’ve been

 

Don’t stay awake at night

Counting the possibilities on stars

Cause one day they’ll fall to the ground and die

But you’ll be there for yourself still

Breaking Plates

This five o clock dinner every night

Air’s heavy between no words to speak

But you still you come on time

You know what that means

Come on break the plates

Show me that you want more than this

From what I see you’re not different

Than you were before this

 

Don’t be afraid

I’m strangled, too

Caught in the mess of

Being somebody who

Is too afraid to be really there

Too afraid to show you really care

Don’t be afraid, don’t be

Be Human

So I say the wrongs things

So I misunderstand

Sometimes I can’t help it

And I have sweaty hands

My mistakes are difficult

Making them is easy

Maybe it’s a sign somewhere

That I’m doing what I’m supposed to be

 

Let’s be human

I’ll cut my knees, you cry your tears

This beating heart will die ruins,

But it will live a few good years,

I’ll try my best, to do my best all the time

And for the rest, I’ll say I’m human, let’s be human

 

So I get nervous

So I get selfish

Sometimes at the same time

Sometimes I get quiet

Sometimes I scream

And if it bothers you

Tell me what else I can do

 

Let’s be human

I’ll cut my knees, you cry your tears

This beating heart will die ruins,

But it will live a few good years,

I’ll try my best, to do my best all the time

And for the rest, I’ll say I’m human, let’s be human

 

You hide your scars, from others eyes

Don’t they have scars, maybe they’re hiding, too

You see this part, I know it’s not right,

But how else can I say what I wanna say to you

 

Let’s be human

I’ll cut my knees, you cry your tears

This beating heart will die ruins,

But it will live a few good years,

I’ll try my best, to do my best all the time

And for the rest, I’ll say I’m human, let’s be human

I Told You So

I told you  so, I told you

You’re gonna chase yourself up a wall

Cause you’re not what they wanted after all

Who would’ve figured that,

Oh, who would’ve figured that

You’re gonna die someday and then

You’ll wanna come running back again

And what you wanna say I’ll tell you first,

I’ll tell you first

 

I told you so, I told you so

I warned you then, and I’ll tell you now

What you want is gonna bring you down,

I told you,

I told you so

 

Oh, you’re gonna make a mess of this

And fall asleep laying in that mess

What kinda bed did you expect

You made it, so now you get to lay in it, oh oh oh

 

I told you so, I told you so

I warned you then, and I’ll tell you now

What you want is gonna bring you down,

I told you,

I told you so

 

So so so, you wanna cry cry cry to me

But I can’t keep it in

You swore I was wrong, but now don’t you see?

I guess you shoulda been, shoulda been listening

When I I I

 

I told you so, I told you so

I warned you then, and I’ll tell you now

What you want is gonna bring you down,

I told you,

I told you so

Lovesickness

Drown me in your symptoms

A red cross on my cold chest

Someone you couldn’t save, a victim,

It’s so hard to stomach this,

 

Lovesickness

I’m losing it, losing it

Can’t sleep, can’t eat,

Lovesickness

I can’t even bleed

It doesn’t hurt, it doesn’t hurt

But I don’t feel anything

Tell me is this normal,

Should I be scared

Lovesickness

 

Take me to the tunnel

Let me see the light

Don’t you think it’s fun, oh

You still won’t the see the problem, right

 

Lovesickness

I’m losing it, losing it

Can’t sleep, can’t eat,

Lovesickness

I can’t even bleed

It doesn’t hurt, it doesn’t hurt

But I don’t feel anything

Tell me is this normal,

Should I be scared

Lovesickness

Anything Less

I know I’ve got to try if I ever want to make it

But this mess that we’re dragging out, isn’t hard to fake it

I’ll stay up in corner til a quarter to three,

Cause anything less than that, just wouldn’t be me.

 

Anything less than dying is living

Anything less than taking is giving,

But more than you need, you won’t ever know.

Cause anything less just wouldn’t be enough.

 

Give the sign you’re okay but your heart’s not in it

Wake up in the morning find your spirit where you hid it

Ain’t it such a shame when your mirror don’t know your face,

Anything less would be anything less than disgrace.

 

Anything less than dying is living

Anything less than taking is giving,

But more than you need, you won’t ever know.

Cause anything less just wouldn’t be enough.

 

Only take what your hands can hold

No ones gonna help you carry what you stole

Lit yourself on fire with nothing else to burn

But anything less from you would be a cause of concern

 

Anything less than dying is living

Anything less than taking is giving,

But more than you need, you won’t ever know.

Cause anything less just wouldn’t be enough.

Porcelain Doll

I’m not fragile

But I’m still breakable

A lot like you

In that way.

And it’s hurtful

To feel like

Everyone’s dancing but you

Even on your birthday.

 

I’ll be your porcelain doll

A dress on the shelf

And I’ll watch you cry

Til you don’t know yourself

And when you hold me

I’ll still feel so cold

I’ll be your porcelain doll