And I Finally Tell You (Fuck Off)

When you said,

I was selfish.

You never heard an arguement.

Yeah, you say,

That I’m useless,

But I have a purpose I just don’t know what it is, yet.

But you say,

That I’m stupid.

And I finally tell you,

 

You’re wrong.

Fuck off.

You should know what I’m about, by now.

I’m real.

Fuck off.

You should’ve known that that was not the thing to say,

All your sorries never make it all okay,

And I’m the brat that I wanna be,

Every single second of every single day.

You can’t change me.

Paper Cuts.

So far, so far.

They’ve only seen my cry,

They’ve never seen me try,

Harder than them.

So far, so far.

They’re living ignorant.

They’ve got the best of it,

But they just never know,

Oh listen.

 

Drink up, quick girl,

They’re coming to find you.

Run run, quick girl,

Cause no one will hide you.

 

Maybe, when we’re grown up,

These paper cuts won’t hurt so much,

And we’ll be the ones we hated,

Who never got it, lived so jaded.

Maybe, when we’re grown up,

These paper cuts won’t hurt this much.

 

So far, so far.

They’ve only heard the stories.

They think I say I am sorry.

But I never tell the truth.

So far, so far.

They think they’ve got the picture,

But they don’t see it clearly,

Blurring the lines.

Oh listen.

 

Drink up, quick girl,

They’re coming to find you.

Run run, quick girl,

Cause no one will hide you.

 

Maybe, when we’re grown up,

These paper cuts won’t hurt so much,

And we’ll be the ones we hated,

Who never got it, lived so jaded.

Maybe, when we’re grown up,

These paper cuts won’t hurt this much.

 

Cause no one will hide you,

Not from this.

Not from these paper cuts.

Better Than This

You find your caves to be so inviting,

But you never realized that’s why you’re always hiding.

You show love in ways that you understand,

Never by a kiss, gentle touch of your hand.

Keep me here, try as you might.

But you know you can’t, I might fight.

Your cage is bare, empty and cold,

It’s no surprise I’ll die before I’m old.

 

Tell me to smile, I dare you.

Tell me it’ll all be just fine.

From the outside of the padded cage,

The future looks so bright.

 

I tried, your policies,

Fake smiles and a taunting secret.

You lied, you promised me,

That one day I’d be better than this.

 

You find your lies to be so inspiring,

So don’t find what I do surprising,

You show love in ways, only you understand.

Never with a nice word, gentle touch of your hand.

 

Tell me to smile, I dare you.

Tell me it’ll all be just fine.

From the outside of the padded cage,

My future looks so bright.

 

I tried, your policies,

Fake smiles and a taunting secret.

You lied, you promised me,

That one day I’d be better than this.

 

Just let me spread my wings,

Fly, where, I wanna fly.

Don’t care, cause you don’t care,

Don’t practice your mother face,

Every night in the mirror,

Cause it never looked that great anyways.

 

I tried, your policies,

Fake smiles and a taunting secret.

You lied, you promised me,

That one day I’d be better than this.

Don’t You See?

Oh baby, don’t you see?

What you’re dying to lose

Is what I’m dying to be.

Don’t you see?

How hard you fight,

For something you can’t see.

How close I come,

To be what you need.

Don’t you see?

Oh baby, don’t you see?

 

I ask too many questions.

But you lie about answers

I should just shut up,

Why do I try?

You’re the still the one I love,

After all this time.

 

Oh baby, don’t you see?

Standing In My Shadow

It’s been raining on the search for my mind,

Finally I see it hiding,

You’ll break me in my suicide,

And watch my ghost succeed.

 

It’s been heavy water for my heart,

Seeing everything I’ve done just falling apart,

I’ve closed my eyes to the dark,

But I still hear the screams.

 

When the sun came out

And I saw the light

Everything I’d been holding inside,

Broke it’s fragile leash.

When the sun came out

So I saw the light

Doesn’t mean I can’t deny

That you were right and I’m just too hard to please,

When I’m standing in my shadow.

 

If I was waiting on a sign of life,

This is my chance to do everything right.

 

When the sun came out

And I saw the light

Everything I’d been holding inside,

Broke it’s fragile leash.

When the sun came out

So I saw the light

Doesn’t mean I can’t deny

That you were right and I’m just too hard to please,

When I’m standing in my shadow.

Not When You’re Around

You keep saying sorry.

I keep saying it’s okay.

But I can’t do that anymore.

Cause it’s killing me.

You keep messing up.

So we keep starting over.

But we can’t do this anymore.

Don’t you see it’s killing me?

But right there kiss me,

Before I get too good at thinking.

 

Silence me, hold me down.

I know I deserve so much more,

Just can’t think that when you’re around.

Silence me, hold me back.

I know what I need and you can’t give me that.

Just can’t believe that when you’re around.

 

You keep saying sorry.

I keep saying it’s okay.

But I can’t do that anymore.

Cause it’s killing me.

You keep messing up.

So we keep starting over.

But we can’t do this anymore.

Don’t you see it’s killing me?

But right there kiss me,

Before I get too good at thinking.

 

Silence me, hold me down.

I know I deserve so much more,

Just can’t think that when you’re around.

Silence me, hold me back.

I know what I need and you can’t give me that.

Just can’t believe that when you’re around.

 

You keep saying sorry.

I keep saying it’s okay.

When I’m Gone

They’re gonna buy me fresh cut flowers.

Lean em on the stone.

They’re gonna leave me little letters

To pretend I’m not so far.

 

They’re gonna shed a tear about me

I wonder if you will.

I know they’ll all be fine without me

I wonder if you will.

 

I’m sure, when I’m gone one day

I’ll remember and I’ll miss everyone

But the sad truth that I’ll face one day

Is that I’ll miss you more than anyone.

One day when I’m gone.

 

They’re gonna say they’re prayers and think of me

And laugh like it was yesterday

That were doing something crazy

They’re gonna talk about me past tense like

And think about what I was, when I was.

 

They’re gonna shed a tear about me

I wonder if you will.

I know they’ll all be fine without me

I wonder if you will.

 

I’m sure, when I’m gone one day

I’ll remember and I’ll miss everyone

But the sad truth that I’ll face one day

Is that I’ll miss you more than anyone.

One day when I’m gone.

 

I don’t wanna live one day without you,

I’m sure it’d be too hard.

I don’t wanna live one day without you.

I’m sure it’d be too hard.

I know they’ll all without me

I wonder if you will.

 

They’re gonna shed a tear about me

I wonder if you will.

I know they’ll all be fine without me

I wonder if you will.

 

I’m sure, when I’m gone one day

I’ll remember and I’ll miss everyone

But the sad truth that I’ll face one day

Is that I’ll miss you more than anyone.

One day when I’m gone.

W.A.R. (Winning All Rendezvous)

All’s fair in love and war,

You combine and take it too far.

You leave me weaponless,

So I put your gun to my lips.

I dare ya let me go,

I’ll be the fly in your web,

Come on and catch me again,

Come on and catch me again.

I have a battle plan
Strategic and out of hand
I’ll get you to the ground
Your heart will go through my round
But you won’t let me go
So I’m the fly in your web
Come on and catch me again
Come on and catch me—

Chorus:

Take, your, positions on the battlefield,
Cause I'll love til the death.

Always there on guard

Watch my defenses fall apart

This war is killing me
I want it more than I need

Cause I’ll love til the death.

 

Your dagger’s touched my throat,

Your fire on my tongue,

Burn the weapon I need most,

Your smoke is filling my lungs.

But you won’t let me win,

So I’m the fly in your web.

Come on and catch me again.

Come on and catch me again.

 

Take, your, positions on the battlefield,
Cause I'll love til the death.

Always there on guard

Watch my defenses fall apart

This war is killing me
I want it more than I need

Cause I’ll love til the death.

 

You’ve become the enemy

I can’t help the things I need,

I shot you down, not meaning your defeat,

Now I mourn, cause I made you bleed.

It was either you or me.

This war chose it’s side.

I chose mine.

Your ghost is haunting me.

Don’t ever let me go.

I’ll be the fly in your web

You’ll never catch me again

You’ll never catch me again.

 

Take, your, positions on the battlefield,
Cause I'll love til the death.

Always there on guard

Watch my defenses fall apart

I had to make you bleed
I wanted more than I need
You'll never catch me again
You'll never catch me again
You'll never catch me
Again

Red or White?

And the red rose sings of passion

And the white rose sings of love

But your kiss tastes like heaven

With a little bit of both

 

And the red rose ideals fire

And the white rose ideals purity

Here in my heart’s choir

We sing of love so deviant.

 

We’re painting flowers on the wall

We’re painting flowers on the wall

Cause I don’t care what this is

A beautiful grace or a deadly sin,

And if we wanna do it over,

We’ll just repaint the flowers.

 

And red rose whispers in your ear

And the white rose says don’t listen

Cause when love feels too good to be true,

Sometimes it really isnt.

 

And the red rose takes you by the heart

And the white takes you by the hand

But the perfect love just takes you

When it goes.

 

We’re painting flowers on the wall

We’re painting flowers on the wall

Cause I don’t care what this is

A beautiful grace or a deadly sin,

And if we wanna do it over,

We’ll just repaint the flowers.

 

And the rose you left

On my door step,

A white one,

Dipped in red.

The perfect love just takes you

When it goes.

 

We’re painting flowers on the wall

We’re painting flowers on the wall

Cause I don’t care what this is

A beautiful grace or a deadly sin,

And if we wanna do it over,

We’ll just repaint the flowers.

You Would

Don’t pretend you never looked me in the eye

Don’t make it easy just to walk on by

Don’t pretend you never said it back

Don’t make it hard to keep your face like that

Don’t pretend that you didn’t get hurt

Don’t tell your new girl that I never meant a thing

You’ll never love her like you loved me first.

She’ll never love you like you know I did.

 

Couldn’t keep my secrets,

Couldn’t keep your promises,

You see I had to run,

While I still could.

Couldn’t keep my secrets,

Never meant a word of it.

Now you see you’re missing,

What you never thought you would.

 

Don’t pretend you never kissed me in those places,

Don’t make it easy for me to keep moving on.

Don’t pretend you never filled my empty spaces.

Don’t make it hard to leave you still unscarred.

Don’t pretend that you didn’t get hurt

Don’t tell your new girl that I never meant a thing

You’ll never love her like you loved me first.

She’ll never love you like you know I did.

 

Couldn’t keep my secrets,

Couldn’t keep your promises,

You see I had to run,

While I still could.

Couldn’t keep my secrets,

Never meant a word of it.

Now you see you’re missing,

What you never thought you would.

 

Hide your face from me, your sun.

We all know what you’ve done.

And I’m just a traitor who stares at the mirror,

Just one more number you shouldn’t have called.

 

Don’t pretend that you didn’t get hurt

Don’t tell your new girl that I never meant a thing

You’ll never love her like you loved me first.

She’ll never love you like you know I did.

 

Couldn’t keep my secrets,

Couldn’t keep your promises,

You see I had to run,

While I still could.

Couldn’t keep my secrets,

Never meant a word of it.

Now you see you’re missing,

What you never thought you would.

I’m In Love

Let’s be instant, and painless

And something resistant to change.

I’d follow you to the end of the earth,

If I thought it would brighten your day.

You’ve got this girl,

Even though she’s all messed up,

You’re my entire world,

Now I’m spilling  my guts.

 

I’m in love.

I’m in love.

I’m drowning, resurface,

I’m secure but so nervous,

Cause I’m in love.

With you.

 

Let’s be sparkling and shining,

Let the stars start aligning for us.

Every gray cloud with a new lining.

Two worlds colliding, it’s perfect.

You’ve got this girl,

Even though I’m all messed up,

You’re my entire world,

And she’s spilling her guts.

 

I’m in love.

I’m in love.

I’m drowning, resurface,

I’m secure but so nervous,

Cause I’m in love.

With you.

 

I’m in love, so crazy in love,

So jump off the rooftop,

So top of my lungs,

(I’m in love)

So lay in the street,

Have the world at my feet,

Play my heart to the beat,

I’m in love.

Don’t Forget

Take my heart when you go

Cause it’s not happy when you’re not here.

It’ll sing for you, wait til you’re alone.

There’s a song that it wants you to hear.

 

If you have to go,

Please don’t forget about me,

I know there’ll be bumps in the road,

But promise, you’ll always come back to me,

Please don’t forget me.

 

You took my heart when you left,

It feels much better with you.

Though, you know I want you both back.

I hope that you think of me too.

 

If you have to go,

Please don’t forget me,

I know there’ll be bumps in the road,

But promise, you’ll always come back to me.

Please don’t forget me.

 

The touches, the embers,

That turned into gold flames.

The wonders, the glances,

That changed each and every day.

As I’m stepping out the door,

I hear you say.

 

If you have to go,

Please don’t forget me,

I know there’ll be bumps in the road,

But promise, you’ll always come back to me.

Please don’t forget me.

 

Now I have to go,

Please don’t forget me,

(I won’t forget you)

There’ll be bumps in the road,

But promise, you’ll always come back to me.

(You’ll always be waiting, too)

Please don’t forget me.

 

Take my heart when you go.

Cause it’s not happy when you’re not here.