Hmm....

Thinking a lot lately. Sorry to anyone who saw me glaring through big giant chanel glasses today. Sorry....I'm thinking about attitude and confidence lately. I have to admit, I did feel a little sexy. A tiny bit. And to last night....I think it would be easier if i just skipped ten years of my life and didnt deal with guys at all until im like 25. I swear honest to blog (cr vrai) that i couldnt breathe. Guys are such fucking assholes. They pick you apart at you're weakest moments and make you feel horrible for every word uttered. I mean, I really do feel bad, but still. C'mon man, could you pick a worse time? I doubt it. Anyway....I wrote an amazing song yesterday. I have never written anything so wonderfully me. It took only the good parts. And I actually liked it. Too bad I'm not posting it cause it is really good. But oh....you can dream lol. In less than three weeks, I have totally turned myself around. I'm louder, honest with myself, and....I dont know. I have clearer vision I guess would be the correct wording. Btw....mike...I dont know if I ever sent you my blog or anything....but I'm sorry. A little. And yeah...I called you an asshole. Cause you totally were one. (In the nicest sense of the word....but still) Totally proving my point...guys are nice but are total jerks sometimes. Night...I'm gonna go play my bass in my black patent leather heels and chanel glasses and too tight jeans and too low shirt. I am so proud of my fucking self. And really proud I just said that. Although, sucking in singing didnt feel good, and definetly not sexy lol. I almost cried. I totally murdered the song. And it was actually painful to keep singing. And oh my god....dress shopping should totally be a well-paying career. It's really tiring. Kay....ta ta for now.