Titlles for this week.

Eyes Wide Open,
Best Intentions,
Unchartered,
Lyrics of Acid....

I like the second song. Scream.

Isn't it funny how you never
Never had the time
Isn't it funny how you always
Always said i was on your mind
But you can't
You can't unlive the lie
You can't
You won't know what you want til you close your eyes
And scream out loud
And scream out loud
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She's like a drug
So good and so bad for you
Cat got your tongue
But you know you don't wanna be used
Why can't we all just

C-Say what you want say what you feel
What you need
Scream what you want scream what you fear
What you mean
Say what you know say what you like
What you see
And after all make sure that you
Mean what you scream

Ambidextrous
Seeing through all of the smoke
Back doors open for you
But you can't breathe you choke
Too many bright lights
Too many blind turns
When will she ever learn
False alarm here we go again
You know it's not what it shouldve been

C-Say what you want say what you feel
What you need
Scream what you want scream what you fear
What you mean
Say what you know scream what you like
What you see
And after all make sure that you
Mean what you scream

Eyes closed.
Still hearts.
Waiting.
For the fun to start.
Deep breath.
And sigh.
Too much.
For you tonight.
How could
She take.
You're heart.
It was so easy to break.
You're left.
Without a voice.
Without a cry.
But you made you're choice....
(To) *pause*

Chorus (2x?)

lies.

If you gave me any truth
Any part of you
Maybe it could’ve worked out
If you really ever cared
Ever did your share
Maybe it would’ve worked out
Don’t kiss me goodnight
This heart won’t say goodbye
I want you I need you
But I won’t waste my time
I want you I need you
But I won’t waste any more time on you

Life.

As we get older, I feel like I'm chasing white rabbits around in my head. I lose track of time and follow them around. And then it's like I'm falling forever. I think I'm finally done changing, and I've let go of the illusion of what I was, and let go of the dream that I'd be perfect. It just feels like the pressure is gone and now it's just me. So tonight instead of writing a song, although i will momentarily, I felt like just blogging. Saying hey, I found my lifeline. And it was me all along. I didn't try hard enough to understand it, and like anything we don't understand I think I ran away from it. It's my turn and I don't need to lose myself to be pretty. In mind and body. That's yesterday's concept. One that I'm pretty sure I'll fall prey to atleast once more in my life. What can I say? Parts of me saw it coming. It'll fade in and out. I'll ignore my conscience and memory. In some aspects I'm once burned twice shy, but some I'm not. I don't know what I want, and I'm trying not to ask myself. This path I'm walking on, sometimes it's hard not to run ahead, or even runaway, cause I just can't take it. Some moments are beautiful, and sometimes I'm just sick of it all. "Still don't know what I was looking for."

I'll drive until i find the missing piece.

(Its not fair)
(Its not fair)
If eyes don’t see through of hate
I guess I’ll never see your face
If you keep breathing misery
And all you touch twists in agony
I can’t help you from the point that you knocked me down to
And frankly I wouldn’t if I could

.

I feel so stupid, mere apologies can't even begin to explain. It was me who incorrectly assumed and...oh god. THIS is why i need church.

She Speaks In Knives

I see your trap I see what you think
I’m just another whose easy to shrink
You flatter and dart your eyes
You didn’t compensate for me being so guised
She sees the world you regret to believe in
So much mistaken for they all deceive you
You forget that we’ve been here before
You’ve forgotten what it feels like therefore
You speak in knives you cut all the ties
You live for the nights and survive on your lies
You speak in knives you mock those who try
You live for the times when youre saying goodbyes

Cause For Your Misery

They tell you
You don’t know what you want or you are
You see
I know you better than that
I know you like you think you know me
Their happiness is no cause for your misery
I can’t stand the sight of you so completely not you
Its crazy you see
Their happiness is no cause for your misery
Why waste your time
On someone who doesn’t know your name
By the time
You be what they want to see
They change their minds again

I Run

Verse 1: She receives vistors, when theyre mislead, when theres nothing to do, but read thoughts in my head, Pre chorus: When your broken, and beaten and cant even breathe, when the pieces are missing, and ripped at the seams, when nobody sees the scattered mess, she puts you puts you back together, when youre a wreck, shes the one thing we see, we close our eyes, shes the one who holds you, when you cry at night. Chorus: When I can't even tell I'm alone, she knows, so I run to love, I run from you, I run to love, to find out whats true, I run to love, I run to love. Verse 2: How can you tell, when something is gone, cause it looks like its there, but theres nobody home, when the lights are all off, she can still see, when youre covered and cracked, she sees in between, all the leftover hurt youve been hiding inside, all the dark that you cover, to hold up the light, she remembers your face, youve been here before, when your empty and lonely, shell wait by the door, when nobody knows who you are, Chorus. Bridge: Its okay. Its okay if you run to her, when you cant crawl, when theres nobody else, for you to call, its okay, its okay, to run. Pre chorus. then chorus. Whisper: When I can't even tell I'm alive...when i'm left with nothing inside...when nothing is real and nothing is there...when everythings gone, and i dont care...when im left without you without any hope, when i hear the screams and im feeling so cold. pause. Pre chorus to end.

clear liquor and cloudy eyes.

you have stolen my heart. but keep it now. you break it you buy it.

Okay.

Is it okay
If it feels like your slipping away
Like I’m wasting my words
And my time
That its too late
To have what we once had
And nothing is okay
Is it alright
If I can’t let go
Cause that’s what friends do
That’s what friends do
And you ever remember that I’m outside
Ill still be here waiting for you to play
Cause somewhere in there
Is the friend I used to know
And somewhere in me
Is the one that wants to show you
How I can be and who I am
But I’m standing in front of a wall
And its making me feel so small

Truce

Tonight I shut the door/Lose the key forget the score/Erase the feelings in between the lines/Its really not the way you play/ Its if you win the game/And I'm done wasting my time/Chorus: I raise the flag tonight/Truce,truce/Lay down the weapons i wont fight/truce, truce/