Footprints

Zebra’s dont change stripes.

I don’t know what I expected you to do.

It wouldn’t be me to ever look at things twice,

Maybe from a different view,

Maybe I could’ve looked away from you.

 

You may have left your shoes by the door,

But you still left foot prints on my floor,

Left your foot prints on me, oh.

You may left your markers in your car,

But you still marked up all of my walls,

Left your mark on me, oh.

When you left.

When you left.

 

I stood still, watched world just turning around,

Traced your footprints til they reached the clouds,

I’m sorry I wasn’t what you need,

I’m sorry if that made you leave.

 

Now I found someone who thinks like me,

Please be happy, please be happy,

You took whatever you needed.

Even if they leave, I might end up clean,

You were the only one ever messy enough to leave marks on me.

 

You may have left your shoes by the door,

But you still left foot prints on my floor,

Left your foot prints on me, oh.

You may left your markers in your car,

But you still marked up all of my walls,

Left your mark on me, oh.

When you left.

When you left.

Layed Up

A night so still like the one we share,

It could break my heart, if I pretended to care.

You breath so heavy, when we part,

I wonder if you’ll make it, I can’t tell from the dark.

Pull me back from outer space

Let me leave lip stick marks all over your face.

 

Quick love, is a safe love.

Get behind a wall before you’re backed into a corner

A trip to the coroner,

Layed up with a fever, til it burned you out.

Quick love, is a safe love.

Get behind a wall before you’re backed into a corner.

 

I thank you, I thank you, for the wonderful time,

The chemistry is real, and so are the smiles.

Keep this, as a souvenir,

Of that one night memory, we were the only ones here.

Pull me back from outer space,

Let me leave lip stick marks all over your face.

 

Quick love, is a safe love.

Get behind a wall before you’re backed into a corner

A trip to the coroner,

Layed up with a fever, til it burned you out.

Quick love, is a safe love.

Get behind a wall before you’re backed into a corner.

 

The morning comes quicker than my regret.

If only I’d not been warned before we met.

Love is such a promise fulfilled by so few,

I don’t trust you, but I love you, it’s not me it’s  surely you.

Have fun, in this web, this tangled mess,

Of hand-holding heartbreak that never ends.

 

Quick love, is a safe love.

Get behind a wall before you’re backed into a corner

A trip to the coroner,

Layed up with a fever, til it burned you out.

Quick love, is a safe love.

Get behind a wall before you’re backed into a corner.

Live Without

I pray to God that your heaven,

Stays right here next to me,

But if something should ever take you away,

I hope I’ll be okay, because

 

I feel so forgiven,

When you seep into my skin,

I feel so forgiven,

And I wonder where you end and where I ..

I feel so forgiven,

When I’m only feeling sorry for myself,

And now I honestly can’t see myself,

Ever being capable, to live without

 

Every night, I lay by your side,

Listening to you breathing,

Listenig to you breath in.

 

The city streets in your head, are so clean,

So defenseless,

I wanna make that home, forever.

 

I pray to God that your heaven,

Stays right here next to me,

But if something should ever take you away,

I hope I’ll be okay, because

 

I feel so forgiven,

When you seep into my skin,

I feel so forgiven,

And I wonder where you end and where I ..

I feel so forgiven,

When I’m only feeling sorry for myself,

And now I honestly can’t see myself,

Ever being capable, to live without

Say It

Just say it, say you’re gonna walk away,

Tell me you can’t help me, so you don’t wanna try.

I won’t have to feel that bad, for wasting all your time.

Just say it.

 

Just say it, the fires spread, lighting up your nights,

So you don’t need me, I was hard to hold on to anyways,

Our fireworks keep on turning gray,

You think so, just say it.

 

Cut your tongue out,

Give it to me,

I’ll cry this out,

Maybe, someday.

Cut your tongue out,

I need to hear,

Let your thoughts out,

Give it to me, please.

 

Just say it, I watch your lips curl into lies,

I can’t listen to your well-meant, well-said, bullshit,

Secrets I can handle what your still afraid of, deny,

This can’t work, just say it.

 

Cut your tongue out,

Give it to me,

I’ll cry this out,

Maybe, someday.

Cut your tongue out,

I need to hear,

Let your thoughts out,

Give it to me, please.

 

He says, hold on,

I can see that we’re not done,

I’ll stay by your side,

As long as you need me,

As long as you want me,

Cut my tongue,

But it won’t ever tell you goodbye,

I may not help you, but I just want one more try.

 

Cut my tongue out,

Gave it to you,

Don’t cry, not now,

Never, anyday,

Cut my tongue out,

You had to hear,

Let my thoughts out,

I love you, my dear.

 

I just said it,

He just said it,

I think so.

I just said it,

He just said it.

These

These are the moments I steal from Satan,

In between midnight and morning.

I listen to you breathe,

I can pretend you’re dreaming of me.

 

These are the days that I keep in my head,

When everything’s wrong,

And nothing get’s said to make it better.

 

Every time, I’m hypnotized,

By the smile I find myself making,

The effort you make it seem worth taking,

Every time, I’m hypnotized,

I’m hypnotized, I’m hypnotized.

 

There are the secrets I keep in my pockets,

Stow them safe away.

I know you don’t care to hear them

When they’re nothing I care to say.

 

These are the days left on the floor,

Where all we do is play some board games,

Roll that pair of dice until you’re all I understand.

 

Every time, I’m hypnotized,

By the smile I find myself making,

The effort you make it seem worth taking,

Every time, I’m hypnotized,

I’m hypnotized, I’m hypnotized.

 

Getting weaker by the moment,

Loving every second I hold your hand.

Don’t look now I may be falling,

But this doesn’t hurt like it should.

 

Maybe I’m…

Every time, I’m hypnotized,

By the smile I find myself making,

The effort you make it seem worth taking,

Every time, I’m hypnotized,

I’m hypnotized, I’m hypnotized.

Take Me Home

I can only talk to myself for so long,

Before even I think I’m going insane.

I can only hold it in myself for so long,

Before I haveta scream.

This has made me hate myself for so long,

That I can even laugh back at it.

This has made me hold my smile in,

For so long, For so long, I haveta get back at it.

 

There are places to go,

There’s an open road,

I don’t wanna go home,

I don’t wanna go home.

 

This isn’t where I came from,

This isn’t where I wanna be,

This isn’t who I thought I’d be by now.

 

There are places to go,

There’s an open road,

I don’t wanna go home,

I don’t wanna go home.

There are places to go,

There’s an open road,

I don’t wanna go home,

I don’t wanna go home.

 

This was a mistake, I’m sorry I came,

I’m sorry

Now, whoa,

Now.

There’s nowhere to go,

I’ve run  out of road,

Take me home.

 

I can only talk to myself for so long,

Before even I think I’m going insane.

This has made me hold my smile in,

For so long, for so long,

Won’t you take me back home.

Won’t you take me back…

Take me home.

Now.

Before I haveta scream

Won’t you take me back,

Won’t you take me home.

Take me home.

Lions

I’ve had some time to tame the lions I lay with;

Raise the curtains that keep me fenced in.

This worry’s no longer your fear,

Your shadow’s no longer here,

And I am the only sun.

It’s hard to say but you’re not the only one.

Forever For You

 

We’ve all got a song we need to sing to somebody,

This is me singing to you.

There’s not much left to go by,

But I’d go anywhere for you.

Time is just a margin,

Invisible insignificant,

If you asked me to,

I’d wait here forever for you.

I’ll Miss You (Good Riddance)

Their masks are painted on,

But it takes too long,

To wash their faces clean.

It’s such a sad song,

Plays all night long,

And when he wakes up she’ll be history.

Good riddance, baby.

 

I’ve never been good at good byes,

Never been one for good byes.

You make it easy, I’ll say I’ll miss you

But it’s easy to lie.

 

Her dances are cheap,

But it’s all too brief,

His taste is one never satisfied.

I see it now, I see.

It neither one of you, it’s me,

Who needs to find more in this life.

Good riddance, baby.

 

I’ve never been good at good byes,

Never been one for good byes.

You make it easy, I’ll say I’ll miss you

But it’s easy to lie.

 

Oh, I bet it was easy to lie.

Good riddance, baby.

Good riddance, baby.

But it’s easy to lie.

 

I’ve never been good at good byes,

Never been one for good byes.

You make it easy, I’ll say I’ll miss you

But it’s easy to lie.

 

Goodbye

Like what you see in the candle light?

Good riddance, baby.

Best Friends and Too Much Reading

I’m just gonna talk here, if that’s okay? Over the past couple years I’ve tried to learn stuff about people, and especially myself, and this blog has been an extremely useful tool for that. I just finished a really good book called the Secret Life of Prince Charming and really. It was mostly about ex boyfriends and how bad guys are for you and how there are a lot of assholes. But, as a heterosexual female, the book also spoke to me directly. You wouldn’t have half as many bad memories of assholes if you didn’t spend so much time with them. No one even reads this so I’m gonna include a personal anecdote. …Two? Two years ago, more or less, I think, I had this best friend. I mean, we kissed and did the whole, we’re twelve but I love you thing, and it was so real for me, but he was always my best friend first you know? And then when he wasn’t anymore, when he acted more like my boyfriend, I thought I had to act more like his girlfriend. And that never really felt right. And then one day my best friend starting avoiding me, and I started feeling relieved and I HATED that. So I thought maybe the more I missed him, the sooner he’d come back and be normal. Either  I didn’t miss him enough, or that didn’t work. (And believe me, I missed him a lot) And now I don’t hate that sense of relief when he avoided me. I’m thankful for it. It should have been a signal something was wrong, and it was. I just chose to ignore that for a long time. And that was so stupid. Because it prevented me from getting closer to someone else, a new best friend. One that’s my best friend today. And who knows what’ll happen with us. I could write a blog about him in two years, but there’s only one thing I hope. I hope I don’t say similar things. They were both great guys, though. To me anyways. Who even knows if I knew/know the real them. Who even knows if real people exist. But I at least want to learn from myself. From the ways that I suspended my own loneliness out of patience. And even now how I let fear keep me out of things. But hey. That’s what best friends are for, right?

Somewhere Someway

Somewhere people love you,

It’s not that far away.

I don’t join the masses, though,

Don’t look for my face,

Though I wish you would.

 

Somewhere there’s a heart for you,

That’s why I haveta go.

I know that you’re farsighted

You don’t say when I stand too close,

Though I wish you would.

 

Somewhere it’s not strange for you,

To always wear a smile.

I live there in my day dreams,

You never ask me where I go those times.

Though I wish you would.

 

Somewhere, somewhere, somewhere,

Someway we’ll get out of here.

I’ll take you somewhere, somewhere, somewhere,

Someway.

What Kind

I see that girl,

I feel so bad for her,

She treats you like her world,

She looks so familiar.

This can’t be myself,

Falling back to you,

It’s gotta be somebody else,

Someone who never knew.

 

What kind of hell,

You are for a heart.

What kind of hell

You are for a heart.

Like mine.

 

I see that girl,

The one that you talk to,

Only when it’s dark in your world,

And she’s got a candle.

This can’t be myself,

Falling back to you,

It’s gotta be somebody else,

Someone who never knew.

 

What kind of hell,

You are for a heart.

What kind of hell

You are for a heart.

Like mine.

 

Falling back to you…

Falling back,

Falling back.

Right back into you…

What kind of hell,

You are for a heart.

What kind of hell

You are for a heart.

Like mine.

 

What kind of hell,

What kind of hell,

What kind of girl falls back to that.

The kind like mine.

What kind of hell,

You are for a heart.

What kind of hell

You are for a heart.

Like mine.