Tell me you'll remember!

I feel like shit. And I feel amazing. At exactly the same time. I feel like I'm contemplating freedom or something. If this was a play, comic relief would help. Like, right now. But no one in the audience would laugh. Cause it wouldn't be a good joke. But the effort would be acknowledged. Happiness is that hard to object. It's like laughter. It totally eats at you. Even when you kinda just wanna cry. I'm happy. It feels good.

Gtg

I am really confused. About a lot of things...*pout*

I'm Happy, and I know that makes you mad!

Alrighty..now that I got the whole..."if you dont like me, or my decisions, piss the fuck off" thing out of my system, I can talk about all the good things that happened today...Ok...1) A lexis brought her ipod on the bus....yay! I get to listen to nirvana and scars on the way to school...and pink too if her mom wouldve left early....2)Mrs.chan DIDNT call my house...yay! 3)told mr.reinhold to eat shit....(in a way) lmao...4)actually used my mouth today to stand up to ppl.....read previous post ;) 5)kissed my bf (!) (who happens to have rly nice eyes...) (please no one crucify me for that comment....i had to) 6) told mr.reinhold to eat shit again (in a way) bc my private life is no longer an affair of his 7) Knew almost every song for confirmation already...bc i enjoy going to church! and...8) i got a phone card so i can actually use my phone!
its so weird...when u least expect it...things get better...or maybe they dnt...im still failing math...still doing some stupid things...still mostly thinking before i talk...but im getting over these stupid little things...that to other ppl would b normal to get over...they wouldnt even think about it...and now...without even truly realizing it...im getting over them too...

Special Notice!

Ok...if you have called me stupid in the last twenty four hours, please do me a favor and smack yourself for me. Thnx. If you havent noticed, I dont really care what you think or say actually. Cuz nothing I ever say is gonna change your mind. And nothing you ever say is gonna change mine. So KEEP YOUR OPINIONS ABOUT HOW I'M RETARDED TO YOURSELF. I dont wanna hear it. Thnx.

Do you believe in magic?

On account of my eyes, this is the last time I will say they are open and then I shall say no more. They are open. Hmm...I've been thinking about a lot of random things lately: 1) I'd be less afraid if I got locked in a room with a tiger than if I got locked in a room with a mouse. 2) I actually like the color pink in moderation. 3) I miss having long hair a little. 4) As a mother and a wife I wouldn't put up with as much shit as my mom does. 5) People say I look innocent, but I'm pretty sure I'm a grade-a pain in the ass sometimes. 6) Apparently, I'm not a bad friend, tho. And that's it for today. But there's one thing I don't understand. Some people, can totally DO confident. I, am not one of them. Most people when their confident, their loud and sure of themselves. When I'm loud, usually I just cant control myself. Im not being confident, I dont know what I'm being. Anyway...I've been pretty happy lately. Kinda floaty actually which is cool. But I'm not exactly sure why. And, I think about moving away to some isolated island, never having to deal with people again, but last night something new resurfaced. I might get lonely. And let's face it. As much as none of us will ever admit to it, we all need a little drama. Something to prove to us that we are in fact, living and breathing, and we matter.......see ya.

I'm sorry but the party's over!

Cocaine nose, trendy clothes, gotta send her to rehab! Throwing a fit, making a scene, like no tomorrow! K hi sorry....Well...it's 2:30 and iv been up for about 8 hours. Alex got fourth place in her cheerleading competition they really werent bad. I have the worst cramps iv ever had in my entire life. School tomorrow CANT WAIT!!!! jk....i mean like...i miss seeing ppl and i rly want my book back...but thats about it...and sci...too....i miss science. but thats it. maybe ill have more to say later. later.