You became your own censorship,
Turn it off turn it on
What is this itch
You got everybody in your shadow
And you still can’t find the sun
Thoughts, songs, and just snippets of imagination by well...me, Fazp.
You became your own censorship,
Turn it off turn it on
What is this itch
You got everybody in your shadow
And you still can’t find the sun
I feel your belief and it’s energy
Let it bounce off the walls of me
Everything I had I’ll take with me
And love it for it’s company
It could be easy to do this wrong
You could be easy to forget
It could be easy to let it go
But easy, easy is easy to regret
I see your smile and it’s preciousness
You’re like that believer in lawlessness
He lost his head for saving a baby bird in it’s nest,
But all of the people took turns kissing his forehead.
It could be easy to do this wrong
You could be easy to forget
It could be easy to let it go
But easy, easy is easy is easy
It could be easy to do this wrong
You could be easy to forget
It could be easy to let it go
But easy, easy is easy is easy
I won’t be lonely with your doves in the palm of my hand,
I won’t forget you, trace your name in my sand,
All of the things that you pushed me to do,
All of the right ways and wrong times,
For showing me through.
It could be easy to do this wrong
You could be easy to forget
It could be easy to let it go
But easy, easy is easy to regret
But easy is so overrated,
Easily manipulated,
It turns on you so easily.
Oh easy…
Easy now..
If I looked any less interested, you’d think I was dead,
In your fall from grace, I hope you, hit your head,
It’ll be a long trip back to normalcy,
But then you’ll have time to think how much you won’t be,
Missing me.
Keep your hands where I can see them..
Keep your hands on her,
While she thinks she’s yours,
Keep your hands on her,
And your eyes where they belong,
Keep your hands on her,
Don’t make this harder for yourself,
It’s not that hard for me.
Keep your hands on her,
Your hands on her.
Did you come with an off switch,
Maybe some spray repellant.
If your intentions were any less clear,
They would be neon lit.
I’m sure she needs her head examined being with you.
I swear that’s not a jealous tone,
It’s what I think is true…
Keep your hands where I can see them.
Keep your hands on her,
While she thinks she’s yours,
Keep your hands on her,
And your eyes where they belong,
Keep your hands on her,
Don’t make this harder for yourself,
It’s not that hard for me.
Keep your hands on her,
Your hands on her.
Don’t make this harder,
Oh, don’t make this harder,
For yourself.
Keep your hands where I can see them.
Keep your hands on her,
While she thinks she’s yours,
Keep your hands on her,
And your eyes where they belong,
Keep your hands on her,
Don’t make this harder for yourself,
It’s not that hard for me.
Keep your hands on her,
Your hands on her.
I have habits that should scare you away,
But you’re always half there, like a shadow in the shadows.
I’m not the best at finding words to say,
But ask me to sing and I’d be your player piano.
My greatest sins
Are my greatest fears,
You make them all so very real.
Everytime you look at me,
I wanna stand up and say,
Does it take you that much effort,
To look at me that way…
Everytime, everytime, everytime.
I say things that should scare you away,
But you’re always there, like a quiet white noise.
I’m not the best at keeping my sounds so separate,
But ask me to and I’ll make sure I’m quiet.
My greatest sins,
Are my greatest fears,
You make them look so very near.
Everytime you look at me,
I wanna stand up and say,
Does it take you that much effort,
To look at me that way…
Everytime, everytime, everytime.
Does that work every time?
Does that work every time?
I have habits that should scare you away…
Everytime you look at me,
I wanna stand up and say,
Does it take you that much effort,
To look at me that way…
Everytime, everytime, everytime.
You walk right by me on your,
Achille’s heels.
You think you teach me lessons,
By keeping to yourself.
Your foot stuck so far,
Down your throat.
I’m surprised that you can,
Do anything but choke.
Step back,
Against the fences,
Against the walls.
Step back,
For fear that this might get outta control.
Step back,
I need the space,
I can whisper in your ear from here,
Step back,
Before I say something that you don’t want to hear.
And here it comes,
So watch me go.
This storm will tell you,
What you didn’t want to know.
I chase you away,
But you chase me around.
You let me get away,
And so I let you down.
Step back,
Against the fences,
Against the walls.
Step back,
For fear that this might get outta control.
Step back,
I need the space,
I can whisper in your ear from here,
Step back,
Before I say something that you don’t want to hear.
At this point, you just look insane by its definition. The same cycles are repeating themselves. I don’t know how young I was when I this started, but young enough not to remember how old I was! That’s over a decade of the same things. IF I can realize this won’t change, why can’t you? Unless you do. And you’ve decided you don’t really care either and this is all just some kind of sick show in your head where you get to look powerful. That wouldn’t surprise me either.
Talk to me through your teeth,
Tell me, the stories of the life you wish you lived.
You say you’re disappointed, oh we all are honey.
Don’t take it so personally.
The sickness in the bottom of your stomach,
Won’t go away while you sleep.
You call the doctor, but he doesn’t have an answer,
So he doesn’t answer your calls.
Is this something worth fighting unfairly for?
Is this something worth fighting unfairly for?
Now. Is the time.
To sing for your life,
Try to make this alright,
Now is the time.
There is too little time to tell you,
Oh, but I really need to.
I wish you would put more faith in me.
I promise you’re not wasting your energy.
There are too many clouds where you come from
I can tell cause you’re not used to the sun.
I have too many voices for my one body,
They all meet in my head, like guests at a party.
Oh, it’s this again.
Oh it’s this conversation,
Don’t you wish, don’t you wish
You faked some deadly illness.
Oh, it’s this again, this again
Oh it’s this conversation,
Don’t you wish,
You faked some deadly illness.
Not even your mouth of pearls could save,
You from words I need to say.
I wish you could have more faith in me.
I swear to you I know how to keep it safe.
There are too chases were you come from,
I can tell you’ve forgotten how to run.
I have too many voices for my own body,
They all meet in my head, like guests at a party.
Oh, it’s this again, this again
Oh it’s this conversation,
Don’t you wish,
You had some deadly illness.
Oh, it’s this again, this again
Oh it’s this conversation,
Don’t you wish, don’t you wish,
You faked some deadly illness.
He’s the boyfriend,
The one they tell stories of,
In picture books.
They call by charming,
And they’d be correct,
Don’t even get her started,
On the way he looks.
There’s something so stupid, bout falling in love,
You never see it coming, but you waited up,
Spending all your time just dreaming of,
What it would be like in your stupid love.
She’s the girlfriend,
The one they tell stories of,
In the locker room.
She’s got it to an art form,
The thing’s she does with her eyes.
Perfection has a price,
No, it can’t be nice,
To realize there’s more stupid than love.
They do what they can, though,
Live and let die,
Cause, you’re really the one I’m writing up.
There’s something so stupid, bout falling in love,
You never see it coming, but you waited up,
Spending all your time just dreaming of,
What it would be like in your stupid love.
I’m perfectly comfortable, in your stupid love.
In your stupid love, we’re in stupid love,
In your stupid love, never saw it coming.
There’s two little tear drops,
But I won’t let them fall,
People got more problems then they can count,
And my salt water spills so easily.
This winter’s gonna be a cold one,
I can tell by the time that this song’s done,
I’m gonna have to write you a new one,
To find out how we’ll make it through.
These wars we wage, are weaponless,
But they leave such very real wounds.
People got more problems than they can count,
And my salt water’s spilling all over you.
All over you.
All over you.
This winter’s gonna be a cold one,
I can tell by the time that this song’s done,
I’m gonna have to write you a new one,
To find out how we’ll make it through.
This winter’s gonna be a cold one,
I can tell by the time that this song’s done,
I’m gonna have to write you a new one,
To find out how we’ll make it through.
I sit here in your dark,
Just trying to find your heart,
Would you hand it over?
If I asked nicely enough.
You sit there in your dark,
Do you wonder where your heart is?
Did you give it to her?
Did she ask you nicely enough?
And I wonder,
If I cross his mind, at three am,
Does he ever think about me,
In a way that no one should,
Does he ever think about me,
Doesnt he ever think about me?
I step into the light,
Feeling brave tonight.
Would you join me here?
If I asked with my voice polite.
Would it burn your eyes?
To look into the light?
If I asked to steal your comfort,
Would you give me all your nights?
And I wonder,
If I cross his mind, at three am,
Does he ever think about me,
In a way that no one should,
Does he ever think about me,
Doesnt he ever think about me?
No, never
No, never
No, never
No, never
No, never
No, never
Well, maybe.
And I wonder,
If I cross his mind, at three am,
Does he ever think about me,
In a way that no one should,
Does he ever think about me,
Doesnt he ever think about me?
And I wonder,
If I cross his mind, at three am,
Does he ever think about me,
In a way that no one should,
Does he ever think about me,
Doesnt he ever think about me?
The forks been cut in this, long thought open road,
Time’s made us a habit and it’s getting out of control.
I can’t smile and you can’t smile, and I know we never sleep,
Our love’s been on the run, it’s no wonder we can’t speak.
There’s something going on here,
That I don’t understand,
Why I want you to disappear,
At the same time I hold your hand.
And here, there’s no more safety,
Everyone is on the run,
Here there’s no protection,
Lover’s stab before your eyes,
The lovers they adore so fakely,
You are no exception.
I find myself alone.
There will be no power struggle, you’ve clearly already won.
But patience means victory, and I’ve all the time in the world,
Everyday there’s one more storm, one more tear to count,
We can’t ever say goodbye, but we are not holding hands, it seems that they are cuffed.
There’s something going on here,
That I don’t understand,
Why I want you to disappear,
At the same time I want amends.
And here, there’s no more safety,
Everyone is on the run,
Here there’s no protection,
Lover’s stab before your eyes,
The lovers they adore so fakely,
You are no exception.
We can’t smile, we can’t speak,
I can’t take this, I can’t sleep,
I can’t close my ears to what you don’t say,
Let me go, let me mourn this broken thing.
In this place, of forgotteness,
There is an emptyness,
See it make this hole in my chest,
You’ve seen it make this hole in my chest.
There’s something going on here,
That I don’t understand,
Why I want you to disappear,
At the same time I hold your hand.
And here, there’s no more safety,
Everyone is on the run,
Here there’s no protection,
Lover’s stab before your eyes,
The lovers they adore so fakely,
You are no exception;
I find myself alone; this army of one.