Your Queen (Of Fools)

Dear king, are you listening,

Theres a story to be told this evening,

Of a princess with the heart of a dead man,

Because of all you’ve taught her with your hands,

That second chances will never change the facts,

Like moths to flame,

I ignite at the sight of anything more than I am.

 

If you’re the jack of hearts, then I’m your queen of fools.

If you’re the rebel child, then I’m the broken rules.

If stars won’t ever touch the ground, and the sky will never fall,

Did you know queens can crawl?

Love, always, your queen of fools.

 

I’ve rewritten so many times, that you are now all I see

I promised myself I’d never be here again but it’s only line two and I’m broken

Fingers shaking at the sound of earthquake

Cause the ground is breaking with each backwards step I take

Burning with the pins and needles, walking on broken glass,

Kind of bleed, that can only bring a heart of ash,

We’re just playing a game,

Sitting in a circle cause I never leave your kingdom.

I never leave this kingdom.

My throne's begun to stab me but I can’t feel anything anymore,

Cause you left me before I even got the chance to explain that I don’t want to live this way,

Even if I did.

You’re Gonna Make Me Say (Get Lost)

You’re batting a zero so you’re acting like you’re five

Everyone in the place has heard you say you wanna get with me tonight

But you don’t know how or why

Cuase everything about me, makes you wanna die

 

Don’t make me say

What you’re gonna make say

Don’t please don’t explain

Cause you’re gonna make me say,

You’re gonna make me say

Get lost.

 

You seem like a nice guy so you should take my advice

There are girls who’d kill to be with you tonight

I guess I’m not the fighting type

I won’t look you in the eye

Cause everyhting about you, makes me wanna die

 

Don’t make me say

What you’re gonna make say

Don’t please don’t explain

Cause you’re gonna make me say,

You’re gonna make me say

Get lost.

 

You think you’re great, I think you’re great,

But there is still resistance

When you finally break the walls,

Here comes your little sister, I know what I will give her

When she walks right through the door,

Gaping like I’m killing,

Hey baby whatcha staring for?

 

Don’t make me say

What you’re gonna make say

Don’t please don’t explain

Cause you’re gonna make me say,

You’re gonna make me say

Get lost.

Maybe Youre Mine

You are talking like you just don’t give a damn

But your eyes are saying so much more

Is it my imagination

You say a little with words but is there something behind your closed doors

 

Maybe youre mine,

Maybe all it takes to get you near is patience,

For you finally be okay with the fact that

Maybe you’re mine.

 

Let’s end this with endless words,

Talk to me until the morning light,

Only suggestions, only the slightest hints,

In the sun, will a see a little clearly,

Obviously we’re somewhat close, but there are inches I can’t claim.

 

Maybe you’re mine

Maybe all it takes to get you near is patience,

For you to finally be okay with the fact that

Maybe you’re mine.

 

Be mine, be mine tonight,

Be mine, be mine tonight,

Fantasies are the strangest things,

You cross my mind all the time,

So say that you’re mine.

 

Say that you’re mine,

Maybe all it takes to get you near is patience,

For you finally be okay with the fact that I want you mine.

You cross my mind all the time,

So maybe you’re mine.

Maybe You’re Mine.

haha I wanna write a song called ^^^ Kay so, this week I’m gonna try to go on a 1,400 calorie diet. And stick to it. Keep in mind, I just ate some frosting out of the thing with  a spoon. Buts that’s gonna stop. I’d like to also report a sub-suspicious thingy. I don’t want to talk about it but if it ends up being anything I just want to have some kind of record that I didn’t completely ignore it and let it kill me. Also, I may have minor deep affections for a guy. I would say he’s knew but he isn’t really. And I missed reading books a lot. And I guess  I missed publicly talking to myself on here. ;) We always pull through….oh when we try….

What does your mirror see?

Are you fighting the urge to scream?

Well you can bite your tongue until it bleeds

How can you see anything when you’re looking in a mirror?

I can’t help but wonder what does your mirror see?

 

You’ll never get away with this.

You’ll never get away

Cause I want you

I always get what I waant

You’ve taken me to the dark side

You’ve taken me to the dark and now I’ve seen the light

I’ll call you love for the night.

 

Is this how you pictured it?

All grey and meaningless.

What do I mean to you?

I can’t help but wonder if I’m actually seeing this.

 

You’ll never get away with this.

You’ll never get away

II want you

I always get what I want

You’ve taken me to the dark side

You’ve taken me to the dark and now I’ve seen the light

I’ll call you love for the night.

Am I Yours?

Caution

Is a new idea

To all the red flags in your head

About him.

The faces in your rearview mirror

Remind you of the path you wanted.

 

Who am I when you see me?

Am I your future, am i your past, am i your present?

Who am I when you dream me?

Am I the end, am i the start, am i the reason?

Who am I to you?

Am I yours?

 

Maybe I;ll stand on the edge,

Pretend like I’m brave enough to jump,

Maybe if I fall you’ll catch me,

But is it as strong maybe as I’d like.

Can we say goodnight to ourselves before we sleep?

Can I be the only one you ever want to leave just so you can come back to me?

 

Who am I when you see me?

Am I your future, am i your past, am i your present?

Who am I when you dream me?

Am I the end, am i the start, am i the reason?

Who am I to you?

Am I yours?

 

Forever is a seven letter word, but it means so much.

Love is a simple, simply wonderful thing, a silent killer.

Forever is a seven letter word, but it means so much.

Forever is a seven letter word, but it means so much to me.

 

Who am I when you see me?

Am I your future, am i your past, am i your present?

Who am I when you dream me?

Am I the end, am i the start, am i the reason?

Who am I to you?

Am I yours?

You.

Are you a beast or a burden?

A friend or a foe?

A comfort or a siren,

A constant contradiction.

Do you ease my pain or do you cause suffering?

Do you remind me who I am or let me lose myself?

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A sudden thought has just come to  me. Recording artists, such as paramore and kelly clarkson, why do they write such personal songs? They connect specific events and people to certain songs…that they have to play over and over again. Perhaps when you do it every night the feeling is simply lulled out of you that you wrote it with, and not extracted and displayed every single time? Hmm.

Choking

Your quiet and I like that,

But you’re not without the vices that you, try not to have,

I wouldn’t tell you swallow your pride,

Cause you’d choke yourself to death if you tried,

I’m not saying I have influence,

I’m just saying I like you the way that you are,

Good and bad.

 

But something tells me they don’t see like I do,

Somethign tells me you’re invisible to them,

Something tells me sometimes you like it like that.

Sometimes I tell myself that I remind you of the real world.

And even if it’s a lie it helps me sleep at night.

What’s Left Of You

Someone taught me

In a dream

That our beliefs could not be wrong

But you’ve judged me on what I believe

So now I believe that I was wrong about you

 

You never steered me right, you never sleep at night,

But if you did you would have nightmares,

Hearts flash before your eyes, You had the best disguise,

As the snake that you were but we all rooted for it not to be true.

You betrayed us, so now you can go, take what’s left of you.

 

Someone told me

In a hush

That you were gonna do me wrong,

I didn’t pay it mind thought you were the good kind,

So now I think that I was wrong about you

 

You never steered me right, you never sleep at night,

But if you did you would have nightmares,

Hearts flash before your eyes, You had the best disguise,

As the snake that you are but we all prayed it wasn’t true,

You betrayed us, so you can go, and take what’s left of you

Cause there’s nothing of left of me.

Of me.

You never steered me, you’ll never sleep at night,

Cause if you did you would have nightmares,

Hearts flashed before your eyes, You had the best disguise,

As the snake that you are, hid the venom all along, from those who believed in you,

You betrayed us, so you can go, and take the nothing you’ve become to me,

With you.

Take what’s left of you.

Before I, do.

Realizations.

Although books are only fictional, that novels carry no true weight in the real world, because it’s all invented stories, I think something should be said that in these books, the good guys usually win. These books are all written by humans, so we can there say, a predominant effect of humans want good to triumph, because it is as we imagine it. Therefore, in real life, they are only good guys, who fail to see theirs and their enemies true wrongdoing. We’re all on the same side, really, we just don’t want to acknowledge it yet because we fear power greater than ourselves, and uniting would be a great power..

<3

Sometimes one word is all you need,

To spin one more melodic dream,

A web you can’t help but weave,

Like a living heart can’t help but beat.